Swayam's probable POV

He saw her leave the medical room without a word. She had tears in her eyes, she was hurt and he was the reason this time. He knew he was rude, he shouldn't have been but he had to. She meant everything to him and he so wished he could take her in his arms and go far away from this world. A world of their own where the only thing they had to do the whole day was to love each other. But he was not sure. He was not sure if even she wished for the same? Even she wanted to be with him, always?
The first time he fell down, he saw the nervousness in her actions. He couldn't help but smile when she was shouting at everyone for him. It felt so special, so real. She came to check out if he was fine and how cutely she tried to do that! She probed for a reason to meet him and when she couldn't get to the point in the indirect way she left disappointed. But she couldn't stop herself and this time she came directly to the point asking him if he was alright. But she would have done that even if I were her best friend. Wouldn't she?
When she asked him if she could massage his shoulder, an unknown feeling swept through his heart. Did she really ask that? Was he so important to her? Yes, of course she admitted that he was but then the promise. The promise that he gave her to keep her away from him reminded him again and again that No! You shouldn't do this. Act normal. The moment she hugged him, I couldn't stop myself and I hugged her back. I didn't want to let go of her. But reality struck him hard and he had to push her away from him again! But she was trying to come close to him again!
But why? Was that a weak moment?
I already did the mistake of trying to open the shut book while she reminded me that I was a man of words and clearly stated that she is comfortable with the book being shut..
But after that she herself admitted that she wants to give us a chance..
Yet she thinks I'm a stress in her life..
She doesn't want me? If that's true then why is she always there to support me?
Has she started liking me? She always liked me..
Has she fallen in lov...
God! I'm confused! Its better I give her some time so that she gets to know what exactly is going on in her mind. I will not force myself on her. And for that I need to stay away from her. I know its difficult but I have to do this. I've been doing this all along.
This time I will not be able to bear your rejection. I hope I'm not hurting you Sharon. I really hope you understand that I'm doing all this for you, for the probable US.


So! This is what I feel should have been Swayam's state of mind off late. I hope to see at least a part of it in the coming episodes. There is actually much more I wanted to write but this is all I could for the moment..

PS: Tamatars, ande, comments, compliments, healthy criticism are all welcome 😊

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yayy yayy 🥳 yayy 🥳 m the first.

U knell it di.
U knw i always thnk that u r a great writer.
Bt i never thnk that u r this good.
By the way luv it.
I really apriciate the way u describe swayam's state of mind.
Why he is not going near her?
Why he is trying to make a distance with her?

I just totally luvd it.
I wish ap apna mind smty k liya palki ko da ate aur hme aise swayam ka monolagy dkhne ko milta.

Btw nw m got to knw that u r an amaging writer.

So you have to writer more.
I so wanna read a os on ur crazy imagination like jungle me mangal. 😳

😭...i m seriously hvng tears in my eyes..wow nami👏..u expressed swayam's feelings so beautifully..v all knw swayam n understands him..bt lately frm sm tym his character has been lil changed.. d main problem is tht swayam's pov regarding sharon was nvr missing..n nw suddenly its happening...so kind a difficult..yes i do understand him..y is he pushing away sharon n all.. bt still monologue milne ka mazza hi kuch aur h..swayam is d most emotional character of d3..n his strength is his dialogues n monologue..any normal scene bcms beautiful wid his dialogues..he is d man of few words..bt whtever he speaks its awesome.. so basically i want swayam's monologue scene n another powerpacked performance by shantannu n swayam.. n ur post is very nice..😊..really hope cvs read dis n gv us swayam's monologue..tune d3 writers ka kaam aasan kr diya😆

I agree Charu.. Maine bohut kum likha hai. In fact Swayam is a character with deep thoughts. He is mature and logical.
But hsi character off late has been buried deep somewhere. Hope he gets to the surface very soon 😳

this really is the most probable nd most swayam-ish POV!

Priya 🤗
Even I want to see something of this sort on screen. Maybe not too long but at least a part of it shown on Monday would be awesome!
The writers have given us great dialogues for Swayam n I hope they surprise us (in a positive way) with some amazing dialogues 😊

Originally posted by: paro1311

this really is the most probable nd most swayam-ish POV!

i would really be happy if v get even half of this in the show.

your post made me miss the real swayam, sharon's swayam who's been missing lately.

Thank you 😊
Even I'm missing the lover boy

@shil90.. Thank you for appreciating. I just wrote imagining Swayam's current situation and I'm glad most of you feel the same for him.
Even I'm in dire need of such a scene in the show.. 😊