Part 38
Geet ' lekin main.. she turned away in irritation.. main yeh sab nahi chahathi
Maan couldn't bear her turning her back to him.. With a jerk he clutched her. His arms enveloped her in a bone breaking hug from back, squeezing tight like he didn't want to let go. His breath washed over her ear as he nuzzled closer. He knew he was wrong all along. His closeness with Sam was not right. He was married he had no right to involve himself. But how was he to undo all that now. He didn't know.. he didn't know how to tell her to accept him in-spite of his sins, his mistakes, his deeds. He crushed her closer.
She stood numb. She felt her hands & legs were going cold with his touch. It was his right ..she couldn't snap out. She tried very hard to just let it be his way. She couldn't the only reaction she could feel was going colder & numb. Even tears refused to flow.
He dipped his head in her hair. Geet.. he whimpered.
She clutched his hand that held her tight
merin yeh haat khoon se range hain..
she heard him out silently
tumharen armano ke khoon se he broke down. He knew he was no less than a murderer of her dreams, her life, those 4 yrs,
main tum se koi bhi wada nahi kar sakta
I can't promise u anything
I am not a good person
I am not the person u would have expected ur husband to be
I can't even promise u, I will become that person.. a person u deserve
wat ever I do.. I can't become a person who is suitable for u
main woh hoon hi nahi
I am no lord Ram neither did Sita ji have a very rosy life
aur main tho bahut hi mamuli insan hoon
I am a very ordinary man full of mistakes & sins
said that he turned her & cupped her face
lekin main tumher saat humari saat phereon ke bandan main bandhe rahna chata hoon
Geet - jise aap nahi manthe.. she said searching his eyes
shayad nahi mantha kabhi nahi mantha.. he said looking straight into her eyes
agar woh saat pheren tumharen saat nahi liyen hoten
agar tum meri nahi hoti
I want to be with u Geet. I want to be with my wife. He said softly pecking her forehead.
I want to be with my only love.. his heart screamed silently.
Lekin she hesitated
shu.. he silenced her..softly lingering his breath over hers
He cocooned her in his embrace, the only place he could find his peace. She was totally uncomfortable. She was bound by her duties she couldn't deny his plea to be with her. But she couldn't just accept every thing. She didn't trust him. She couldn't think of him as her husband. The person whom she worshiped was different.
I need some time she said thoughtfully
he didn't say anything
main iss kamre main aapke saat nahi rah sakti
she said slowly releasing his grip
he held her arms at once tightly.. nahi tum yanhi rahogi merin saat iss kamren main
itne saal mujhe dur rah chuli kaafi nahi hain
a tear rolled down her eyes.. apni marzi se nahi rahi thi, her heart protested. the heart she didn't know existed.
he kissed away the tear ' nahi geet bikul nahi
aur nahi. Bahut rah chuli tum aklen, bahut ro chuki. Aab aur nahi
tumhe jo karna hain kar lo.. jitna naraz hona ho lo, lekin idhar merin dil ke pas.
He pressed her head close to his heart.
She cried turning away naraz aapno se hoten hain begano se nahi she spoke coldly
He was ready to suffer his whole life patiently, for his heart was lit with faith & hope, he could bring some happiness, some brightness in her life but her words only pushed him in the ocean of darkness. He wiped his tear & smiled naughtily placing a kiss on her cheek & embracing her in his arms..
begana tho begana sahi
tum jo samjna hain samaj lo
tum raho gi merin pass.. he squeezed her lightly.
The only way his aching heart felt at peace holding her closer to it. Though it burned in the coldness her body emitted with his closeness.
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lots of love
Muskan
Edited by muskanp - 12 years ago
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