PART 39
He wiped his tear & smiled naughtily placing a kiss on her cheek & embracing her in his arms..
begana tho begana sahi
abhi tum jo samjna hain samaj lo
tum raho gi merin pass.. he squeezed her lightly.
The only way his aching heart felt at peace holding her closer to it. Though it burned in the coldness her body emitted with his closeness.
She took the life as it came & always learned to improvise. Even when she was to leave a life of a widow she worked on self discipline to control herself & managed to lead a much comfortable life, if u say so. At least she was not self pitying, she was not craving for humanly desires. She had learned to be contented in her own way. She had managed to be independent. Now suddenly getting dependent on him.. or to look upto him was difficult. It was a lot of change he was forcing her into. She had lifestyle now to become part of his was impossible. Again to completely overlook the ties that bond them was not in her.
She was again in a state where she had to be like a new bride accept anything & everything her husband is. But nor was she that old young girl with dreams & open mind to accept him neither was he unknown now. Even then it would have been difficult for her to accept a person like him. How much ever he was sincere now, the very fact he never cared then.. he didn't believe in the vows.. & his hurting words had deeper place in her heart than she had known.
She freshened up & stood by the window in the room she shared with Pari earlier. It was empty now, but kind of made her feel comfortable there. Maan got ready & came looking for her. He stood their for few secs not willing to disturb her. She looked at ease.
Agar tumhe yeh room pasand hain tho .. she turned & looked at him, he carefully looked at her expression, hum idhar rah sakten hain he offered
she turned her face in irritation. She expected he would let her stay in this room alone. Disappointment was so clearly visible in her eyes.
He clenched his fist.. it was very easy for him to lose his cool. He tried to wit it out especially with her.
Waisen bhi yeh mera room tha he spoke standing right behind her. She moved an invisible step frwd.
A moment that pushes him off the edge, reminding him of his mistakes forcing him to commit more
he tried to close the distance in a hug. She unexpectedly turned & put her hand out.
Aap bina pass ayen baat nahi karsakten kya? she spoke in frustration
he punched the side of the window in irritation, breaking the glass pieces. She just left from there not even noticing his bleeding hand forget bleeding heart.
He punched the same hand harder into the broken end of the window seeking some peace. Nothing helped. The hatred he had to bear was far more painful than he expected it to be. Suffocating deep within, where it was his heart surrounded with hundred million thorns of his love. He can't even get rid of them, they were precious than his own heart.
Sun was setting she was still trying to come in terms with this new arrangement. Maan tied a bandage in his hand & did the room.
Geet get ready, lets do the grocery & grab something for dinner.
Tum fridge aur kitchen main ek bar dehk lo then u would have an idea kya kya lena hain
he spoke causally like nothing happened earlier
she nodded quietly not wanting to have a tensed situation in the house.
She had no clue where to start with. If it was her place she would know exactly wat she needs & how much she needs but with him. Should she ask him wat he eats.. she wondered!!
during her stay earlier she did learn he had dal chal almost every day & azan cooked chicken & all other stuff in the weekend. She kind of made her list
The drive to the grocery was silent. The walked into the store.. she finished with her bit first & then went ahead with his part of the list..
geet - aap chawal kaun se lethen ho?
Maan ' jo bhi reasonable ho
geet ' yeh le loon
he nodded. Geet moved on with other stuffs while Maan added his toiletries.
While picking up her the vegetables she reluctantly asked ' app vegetables katen ho
maan ' haan
she got carried away ' but I have not seen u making any vegetable! Aap tho sirf dal chawal kathen ho na
maan continued picking his stuffs ' thats because I only know to make dal chawal.
Jab mom thi I never had to cook.. aur unke baad I learned to make wat Dev liked. He only liked dal chawal. Aur kuch khata hi nahi tha.. maine kitna kuch try kiya. He won't eat. U won't believe Geet, uska bas chalen tho he would eat dal chawal for breakfast too. Phelen tho bahut intresting lagta tha.. but then it became so boring.. phir adat se hogayi hain.
Geet knew he took care of dev since he was young.
Geet ' meera makes good dal chawal, assuring him
maan stiffened ' aur kuch lena hain he said heading towards the check out.
Geet some where could relate to daadi's point of view. Maan didn't have the luxury of even proper food in his life.
On the way back he stopped subway. He ordered her a salad & a sub for himself.
After reaching home they had their dinner in silence. Maan tried to talk but she just answered to the point
maan ' tum college kab join kar rahi ho?
Geet ' kal
maan ' wat is schedule
geet gave an intimidated look
maan gulped his food ' I mean tumhara timing kya hain, wagera
geet sighed, yes she is answerable .. she had to let him know!!
geet ' college is at 8 to 2. I work in the campus till 5
maan ' we can go together then
geet ' lekin aap tho late aaten ho
he looked at her.. she did know about his schedule... His heart did bit of joy dance their
which died the moment she said ' I will manage
he smiled sweetly ' I want to
she got up without saying anything & cleared the table.
Thanks for the lovely comments
lots of love
Muskan
Edited by muskanp - 12 years ago
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