TS: Confessions of heart updated part 2

Confessions of Heart

Hello everyone. This is my first try. So please bear with me. Had the idea earlier this week. Please comment, would like to read them.

SILENCE' khan mansion was stunned into silence by the loud words of Asad Ahmed Khan. Dilshad and Najma looked dejected, and Zoya miserable. The guests were perplexed the sudden happenings.

Few minutes ago, khan mansion was beaming with happiness, was thanking allah for making it witness the most beautiful, perfect and a happy couple, the center of attraction of that night, enjoy the party, become shy at a moment and nervous in the next all because of their nikah tomorrow. Last few minutes however changed everything.

Zoya was really happy. After all, what she had dreamt of was happening for real, she was experiencing it and with every passing moment her face glowed at the very thought of her marriage. She was getting all she wanted, an ammi ' Dilshad already loved her a lot, and she knew that this love will only increase tenfold after her nikah ; a young sister ' although she had her elder sister, her aapi she had always wished for a cheerful, notorious, cute little sibling and najma was just perfect, she became her best friend, actually her second best friend as Mr. Khan had said to Mr. Dhurandhar, 'Raabert' was her best friend'' 'Mr. Khan', the name itself did wonders to her, she thought, as she inhaled deeply at the mere thought of his name. She immediately blushed at the name of the person she loved so much. She glanced towards him, standing beside her, as usual handsome. He was the most admirable person known to her. So complicated, yet so simple; simple as his face gave away to her, all his well guarded feelings, with his one eye contact. Yes, she knew it; although asad had himself never expressed his feelings to her all his gestures, the hug in the bathroom after the live wire incident, his lovely gazes, his gift and the note in it, all 'roared' it out loud to her how much he loved her. Even she was not sure of her feelings until recently, but now she was, and that made her even happier. However a small part of her still yearned for him to express his love, because had still refused to accept all the rituals and the marriage as real even till today. And even so they were here celebrating. Was it really 'fake' for him? No, she knew it. Yet dilshad's health had caused him to remain silent till now. Little did she know that dilshad was cleverer than they two and was just pretending to be unwell.

However she was happy now as the charade of 'fake' marriage will end tomorrow, when they will have a 'real' nikah. They will be tied forever. And then she will have ample of time to make him confess his love. Oh how she wished her aapi was here with her, she would have loved to share all her feelings with her. Her aapi knew about this charade. After the pictures zoya saw on net of their engagement she had soon received a call from her aapi and jeeju, full of worry and anger. She could not lie to them. She explained them everything and told it will be over soon that they did not worry about her, and most important not come in India. She had earnestly requested them not to contact dilshad and her aapi had promised not to, she had promised to be there on the day of nikah if or not the marriage happens, to give her blessings if it happens or to take her back to NY permanently if not. Zoya feared the latter. Until then aapi had refused to even talk to her as she was not really positive about the entire 'fake' fiasco. Jeeju had however assured zoya that he would try to convince her aapi and was hence regularly updated by zoya about the events in India. In a way she was happy her aapi was also informed.

"Allah Miyah! Have I become so emotional that I am actually imagining aapi in front of me!?!", zoya said.

"Oh please Ms. Farooqi, she is indeed here" she heard asad say besides her.

"No Mr. Khan she can't come now she said she will come tomorrow. She refused o even talk to me till then. There's something wrong with her, Allah Miyah what's wrong with her I haven't seen her so mad till now."

With every step aapi took, she remembered the word she had heard from the anonymous caller, which made her take the net possible flight and come to India, to stop the nikah, to stop her sister's life getting ruined.

----Flashback----

"Hello, am I speaking to zoya farooqi's sister?"

"Yes I am zoya's sister. Sorry I did not recognize you. Are you her friend?"

"Yeah you can say so. Aapi, I have just called you to tell about the recent happenings in her life. I got to know she does not speak to you, so I thought its better someone should tell you."

"What? Who are you? What are you saying?"

"Yeah. It's just that, Mr. Asad Ahmed khan is not yet ready to let his mother know the truth of his engagement, you know a fake engagement. And so the marriage day being so close, asad and zoya have decided to marry. But as and when his mother is out of danger they will spill the beans to her and break up. Zoya doesn't mind as she cannot deny Mr. Khan you know. And I thought you better know. So I just'.."

"Shut up. Who are you to tell me all this???"

"Just a well wisher or a friend as you suggested. But don't worry about me, worry about your sister, her life is just about to get ruined'."

And the caller hung up.

----Flashback----

Aapi was drifted back to present and was now standing in front of zoyaand asad. All eyes were fixed on this stranger who just barged in without anyones permission. Dilshad and najma knew her, but as asad and zoya they too were too much confused to react. Only one person in the crowd was happy seeing her. Tanveer on the pretext of adjusting her dupatta bent her head slightly down and had an evil smile.

Finally my call was well received and reacted upon. Zoya's aapi was in front of zoya to stop the nikah.

Zoya and asad, both confused, were waiting for aapi to say something.

"Aapi??" said Zoya, tears clouding her vision.

Aapi was staring at asad; she looked at zoya and back at asad. And almost shouted,

"What do you think of yourself Mr. Asad Ahmed Khan?"

"What do you think of yourself Mr. Asad Ahmed Khan?"

Aapi's words confused asad even more. What had he done?

"Aapi, I don't understand what…"

Asad's words were cut off by aapi's next sentence which reverberated throughout the mansion.

"What is this all nakli nikah thing asad?? Why are you up to ruin my sister's life?? Why are you hurting everyone around you??"

Asad stood speechless. Even he had come to realize his feelings for zoya and without a word of speaking with ammi regarding stopping the marriage. He too had like zoya considered that that they were really getting married. And he was happy for that. In his happiness he had actually buried his fear of hurting her. Aapi's words stung him and fear was back. He clenched his fists at his decision felt as if it was wrong. Anger was building inside him, at himself, at Rashid khan, and even at aapi for saying it. His eyes were bloodshot in a minute. He could sense zoya getting stiff beside him, the mood of the party changing all of a sudden, najma and dilshad were sort of afraid, of him?? Or of the coming doom??

"What did you think if dilshad khala came to know about your nakli nikah later on, she would be less sad, that's wrong asad, she will be more heartbroken then. But how will you understand this you really are heartless asad, you really are!!!" aapi continued while crying.

"Yes I am heartless. I don't have any feelings for anyone in this world. i only think of myself and only am happy in hurting others. And yes this marriage is nakli, no marriage is happening tomorrow." Asad's voice send a shrill down everyone's spine. Entire hall was stunned. Aapi was too shocked to stay still and moved a few steps back.

Zoya could sense him getting angrier every moment and knew he meant nothing of it, but she was herself too stunned to move. She had a blank look on face and just a little fear of losing asad. She saw dilshad and najma coming forward; to question them, calm them. But it was of no use now. She knew she had to do something, to control the situation. With lot of efforts she turned herself towards him, looked up in his eyes and felt a sudden pain in her heart watching the pain in his eyes. She turned fully to stand in front of him. Zoya raised her hands and held his face.

"shhh Mr. Khan don't worry she meant nothing of it. And I know even you meant nothing of it. Please calm down."

"No zoya, stay away from me, am not the person you think and would like to marry. " his voice still different, angry.

What is he saying now!! He loves me!! He loves me!! Zoya was back with a stone expression on her face. She had to do something. She knew what.

"asad…" dilshad tried to speak.

"phuppi, can I speak to Mr. Khan alone for some time??"

Dilshad was cut off by zoya and was also surprised at her. She also knew asad won't like it. It was not that he did not want to talk to her alone, but asking this in front of everyone with traditional thinking and beliefs, was something not correct according to him.

Asad on the other hand was surprised and shot his eyes directly into hers. Still he did not oppose her. Dilshad quietly asked him to go.

Asad followed zoya to his room. He had been silent, knew he did wrong in shouting at her aapi like that. But zoya was still, deadly calm. He locked the door from inside and gave her a puzzled look.

"what do you want…"

"That's what I want to ask Mr. Khan, what do you want from me??" fresh tears rolling down her cheeks, now red because of anger, not blush.

"Zoya I…."

"Please Mr. Khan don't speak now, let me speak and you listen to me.

It all started long back Mr. Khan after the mangalpur incident I saw you change your attitude towards me, you became quite soft. Still you insulted me many times. I ignored those incidences knowing your behavior.

But when I found about my abbu, you were with me to console me, help me get out of my misery and I for the first time felt at home. Still I decided to go back to New York and you stopped me, gave me employment letter one day and then booked my tickets next day. Did you ever even think you were playing with my emotions Mr. Khan ? I always saw in your eyes, you wanted to stop me and yet you did not say anything."

Zoya turned her back to him and his restlessness, tears welled up in his eyes went unnoticed by her, she continued,

"Still I stopped after watching the video, knew you were emotionally challenged but then because of Mr. dhurandhar we got engaged, ENGAGED mr. khan you understand its gravity? We returned home, happy, and then you said it was fake!!! The nakli sagai, and nakli marriage began. You excused yourself saying it's about phuppi's health, but I could see it your eyes and every deed that you wanted it as much as I. yes Mr. khan I want to marry you. And I bet you have read it in my eyes too."

Asad saw zoya turn towards him, his tears threatening to fall down now.

"Don't you think mr. khan what you were doing and still are doing- remaining silent- is wrong? You have no right to play with my emotions, with phuppi and najma's emotions. You know how much it hurts that you run to tanveer everytime something happens to her, and mostly you don't even know if anything happens to me. Please mr. khan, say something, atleast now accept that you love me, accept you want this marriage. I cannot carry on this charade anymore."

"And if you don't say anything now aapi will take me back with her and I don't want to go mr.khan I don't want to go. I want live with you forever."

With this zoya broke down. She fell on her knees near his feet, crying with her face in her palms.

Asad could no longer control his emotions, tears. He bent down in front of her, took her hands in his, and said,

"I am sorry zoya, I know what I did was extremely wrong but I never had that courage to tell you how much I loved you. You were really a breath of fresh air in my life, dear. I always have loved you. But I feared that I would hurt you like Rashid khan did to my ammi. But your love even made me overcome it and I had almost forgotten that we started it as a nakli marriage. I was happy that we were getting married. I just wanted you to be happy, to be with me. I won't be able to live without you, zoya. And I can't even apologize because I know that I am not worth it. But I promise zoya I will never let anyone, not even aapi take you away from me. And tanveer is just a friend, I don't regard her more than that. So don't worry we will always live together and I will make up for the pain I gave you"

Zoya was on cloud nine. They both sat there in each other arms, crying, soothing each other. Dilshad's worried voice startled them after some time. Dilshad, aapi were knocking on the door. They were obviously worried. Dilshad had somehow told and convinced aapi of asad and zoya's love for each other and she too had agreed to wait for them to declare their decision. Asad and zoya walked out soon, hand in hand, and asked everyone not to worry. There were no unsaid things between them now. And with blessings of happy dilshad and aapi, they would get married tomorrow.