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RISHBAALA- RONA CHADITA.
Probably the best episode of the sitcom till date. What do I say when it comes to RishBaala yesterday. For the first time , i have been speechless by this couple. So many feels , so many shades in their feelings , so many conversations with each other through their movements against each other. And Kailash Kher's voice synchronizing with that. I mean what can you possibly say to justify these two yesterday , I don't know. I thought of not making a Rishbaala topic yesterday, but I just couldn't help it. There was so much to ramble . To "rant" . To write. 😛 Fine so I'll try to start. First with some siggies though. Credits to the siggy makers , of course. 
OKAY OKAY ENOUGH OF SIGGIES. 😆
I don't know where to start. I want to start with Madhu . She made me cry through the dance. She made me cry through the reflections of her crazy feelings and agony for this man. It hurts to love someone when they have taken your world away from you. It hurts like crazy when the person who has killed your insides stamps it on your face that at the end of the day , you will always love him. Madhu and her feelings for Rishu just made me cry yesterday and today when i was seeing the repeats of their dance. She walks away from him because she does NOT want to feel that insane helplessness of falling for a man who has already left a few bits of her alive. She wasn't walking away cause of indifference or hatred. She was keep on trying to walk away in the fear that she might burst into tears any moment if his face is that close to hers with his eyes searching for her ever again. My poor Madhu . 😭 I feel like giving her such a tight hug. I don't know why people think the dance showed Madhu being some toy because what i saw was the hurt , the invisible tears and the miserable pang in Madhu's face and heart that is telling her , through that agony inside her that you STILL LOVE THIS MAN AND YOU CAN NEVER GET AWAY FROM HIM. The simultaneous reaction I saw of her was the agony on her face to her devoted longing eyes on him when he catches her the minute she is about to fall . You realized that moment that she does not hate him and that is exactly where all the agony lies . IF ONLY SHE COULD HATE HIM. IF ONLY IT DID NOT HURT TO HATE HIM SO MUCH. SHE HATES HOW SHE CANNOT HATE HIM. The pain she feels for him keeps on panging within her chest for him. That pain only and only seeps through if you love somebody with this agony which is of the worst kind. Not the agony that you can release through tears , the agony that breaks everything inside and creates a huge lump within your chest and you want to cry , but Alas , the lump and the hurt remains and the tears do not come out. The pain therefore is not released. That is the WORST kind of pain cause there is so much within and yet it does not want to get out. It remains within you , eating you up. It reflects through her every movement towards him .A song reminds me of Madhu by Atif Aslam called Rona Chadita.This line- " Lauki hanjoo wahjoo par lengey naam, aiseli aisi rona chadita." This means , whenever i cry , every single tear drop has your face and name imprinted on it , for the reason I have stopped crying. <3
Now coming to RK. I know there are many people who feel he was twirling her around as his personal toy and enjoying his toy . But what I saw today and yesterday was not a raging tiger stamping his authority on her. I saw a man who is desperately holding on to her because of his crazy feelings for her that is driving him nuts.People think that in this dance , it is him advocating some sort of peculiar control , but nobody understands that he is NOT in control here. On the contrary it is his crazy need in convincing himself that he has not lost someone who he failed to value and fell in love with without any intention. His insecurity , his passion was in control of RK. RK on the other hand , was totally OUT OF CONTROL , if you ask me. Just look at this picture. I do not see any single iota of malice or ego in his face when he is looking at her . While Madhu's face breaks into a myriad of just raw pain.
There is NO malice. There are so much of feelings and calmness on his face when he looks at her . And poor Madhu , maaahn. She is struggling with so much . With her head against her heart , that also against a bleeding heart that is refusing to stop. I don't know what to say. Seeing them in this dance only makes me wonder why does it hurt to love so much? Why?
And when he lifted her after entangling his hands into hers , just look at Madhu's face.She holds his hands back and tears are just about to fall. So much of yearning for a man who is all set to destroy himself and her both. UFFF. When he lifted her , it was the purest moment for both of them . Madhu had her eyes closed as if in serene peace , and RK eyes were closed by genuine feelings.
I mean just look at that . Madhu is as if completely pulled into a field of passion , feeling and the insane love she feels for this man .Just look at her face . The way her head tilts on him. She loves him way way too much. And RK for the first time in his life looks in peace. Ironic how the Kinng of malice looks so devoid of mailce here . All he can taste is this moment and all he can breathe is her life.
The transformation of their equation reflects and yet the basic tempo of their love remains- the tempo of passionate aggression. And the precap just shows how meshed they are into each other .
Seriously , that line in EK tha Tiger is right. "Jis mohabat mein deewangi naa ho . Woh mohabat hi nahin. "
