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Im back to Pakaofy u guys!
So, lets not waste any time and continue with d Story!
I still remember my teen life, when i was head-over-heels for a girl, now i'm fifty eight, and i everytime i look at her its like d first time, so let me share this with you, my most secret fantasy ever!
since class 11th i suppose i have adored dat girl who never paid any attention towards me and today im in college 1st year and it still feels like im watching her for d very first time! she's Perfect and i'm well.. umm.. close to perfect. She's everything a guy would need to love, i don't know how to define her as she really can't be defined in one world, so i ended up with a picture of her..!
She dont care weather i exist or not, afterall she's P-O-P-U-L-A-R!
and hundreds of boys must be crushing on her, but im diffrent i dont know weather i love her or not, but i know that i totally adore her, being a secret admirer i dont know wheather she has any idea of who i am. She have perfect Brown eyes that kit up whenever she smiled. And when her mouth smiled, half of her face would light up with shiny white teeth. She is d first girl who gave me d feeling dat my heart was going to stop. And when she walked by, i could see her out of d corner of my eye and smell her beautiful accent! My body freezes, and my brain stops ticking. Then she would flash a breath-taking smile at me and my breath would stop. I can picture myself Standing infront of her and gaping my mouth open and my eyes melting with lust as her beautiful body charmed me.
well i was head-over-heels madly in puppy love. i constantly think about her and ways to get closer to her all my notebooks were scribbled with "Kriya" with little messy hearts drawn around them! I adored her and i guess, she knew it..!
So, now let me stop my mello drama like a zombie in Love, and let me continue my little story, I still remember dat day..
I was was running in d corridor as i was late as usual, and was as usual thinking about "Her". so busy in thoughts dat i didn't realize when i bumped into someone, i looked up ready with a sorry but den i noticed it was mine and well, so called my princess! she falled off too..! "Sorry" she said and picked up my bag i continued staring her "No, no it was my mistake, i .. i was so.." i said as she cutted me "No, you see, deep in my thoughts i could not just.. well, i'm sorry, wait i'll just pick them up" she said and she lowered to pick up 'MY' stuff bag books, headphones and mobile. "Well, Its really fine kriya" i said she looked up at me "How come you know my name?" she asked "Everyone knows you, you're popular" i said, i never talked to her this long before she smiled, and then continued picking my stuff "Here" she handed them to me, "Thanks" i said with a huge grin. "Anytime" she replied and left. It was really d biggest day of my entire 18 year life. I guess i was a simple 'Fantasy Lover' who could never confess his feelings, i usually gained fine marks in my tests, internals, and exams. only to satisfy my parents beacause d truth was dat i wanted to study someone else. I guess you understood what i mean.
Now, my gaze was always fixed on her, in canteen even when she used to hang out with her friends one day i caught her in d parking. i was just taking a auto when i saw her waiting as well, "Hey!" i said to grab her attention "Yeah?" she turned "Oh you, the falling wonder" she said with a smile, i was extremely glad that she remembered me. "i have a name too" i said "U never told me" she said "You never asked" i said "My. Whats Your Name?" she said "Rey" i said offering a hand shake "U already know me." she said "everyone does" i replied she lowered her lashes and smiled again that breath taking smile. "if im not wrong, your auto is waiting" she said "Well, i just wanted to ask that if you're waiting for a auto as well, you can come with me. i dont mind.. sharing" i finished she laughed a little one. "in that case, I think i can help you. im waiting for my car, i'll drop you ,come" she offered as her car came. such a jerk i am. i thought "No, i'll carry on with my auto thingy. bye!" i said "hey!" she said and i turned "Whats up with this formality? come on." she said, i couldnot say no not to her atleast and well, i was dancing inside! "okay if you say so." i said she smiled nd sat in d call along with me. "Where do u live?" she asked "Mulund west" i said she instructed her driver about my home. we talked about random things. mainly studies she was really weak at them she asked me to teach her sometime, she smiled alot during d conversation which made me feel comfortable. I now know why she was so popular, she was extremely nice and Kind. "Can i have your number?" i asked nervously, what if she told me get out now??. "Why? why do you want my number?" she asked "uhun.." i was thinking about some excuse which would help me get out of d situation "To.. To fix d study meet. Remember?" i said "umm.. in that case" she said thinking about something "B..But we're friends right?" i said "When did we turn friends? give me your number i'll call you if needed" she said. i felt like a complete jerk at d time! i gave her my number, n as my house came i left. it was.. well.. great day i felt like dancing on d road itself "Thanks for d Ride! bye!" i said and left. as i left d road i heard my mobile ring. i picked up "Ofcourse we're friends idiot, dont forget to save my number" i heard her satin voice i couldnt say a thing more as she disconnected at d moment i turned grinning and found her car still there. she winked at me and left đ
I used to call her sometimes, she used to call me at times, sometimes she used to even tease me. we sometimes met for study dates, one day well, it was kinda shocking for me as she asked me a weird question "Rey, have you ever fallen in love?" "No" i lied "you're a great friend to have rey. please dont spoil it ever, i want at least one boy in my life, who wont say i love you to me, you're a great friend to have" she said i was left mouth open!! i didnt know what to say should i tell her dat i've been her secret admirer all these days? no, not ofcourse! i scolded myself i nodded getting back to conversation n Smiled. we sometimes even met outside of college, it was 2nd year when i realised what kind of game was i playing with her? she liked me as a friend not as a lover, i started to ignore her, i rarely met her, i used to cut her calls. we stopped our midnight chats. she tried her best to keep in touch. she used to invite me for cakes, msg me. call me 10 times a day i belives and i used to ignore dem. it was dat day when she caught hold of me after class "Rey?" i heard her voice "y.. ya kriya?" i turned to face her "i just wanted to know, what have i done? why are you SO angry that you're ignoring even my calls, you never did so.." she said
"I've been busy lately..so..i coul.." before i could complete she said "please dont lie. i know you were not busy, i mean 10 times a day, i call you every single day, cant you even drop a message?" she asked "im.. sorry actually my phone.. i changed.." i came up with another lame excuse that i just got a new phone "Whats your problem? i've been missing you lately, you were such a great friend. I keep ignoring all my old friends to meet you, and what? youre busy. right? what d hell is your problem?" she asked losing her temper finally. i got angry too "You. you think i was busy for you, im always free for you. but i have problem with this 'We're just friends' thingy! everytime i look at you my heart skips a beat, but no, im just friend for you right? right?" i said she lowered her lashes and a simple blush on her cheeks. she looked down for a minute and smiled, and took a step i wondered a slap? but she slowly kissed my cheek and hissed in my ear "I can't believe you finally said it..!" i smiled so, it was a yes. a YES! a YES!!!!!! what? A YES!!!!
Today my Kriya Ghai is Kriya Singhania d same girl who once didnt knew weather i existed or not.. I have a little daughter too, she's fifteen. my Wife comes to porch with a jacket which she wrapped around me, handed me a cup of coffee, n stood there looking at d entire city on d 21st floor, d city where i met my love! and it still feels like d very first time. i cant believe i was d "Fantasy Lover" once. You're Beautiful" i said "You make me Beautiful" she said n covered herself inside my arm!
