'Destined To Be' # 6 Note on Pg 150/2nd Jan - Page 2

!!!...waiting...!!!

Part 26:

It was after sometym when Geet felt her every fiber of body burning due to someone's piercing gaze nd it finally dawned in Geet that who had done all this arrangements. She may have been unaware about all this but still she knows that it can be only Maan who can do all this. Because at the end of the day she can't deny this fact that no matter what but he really cares for her a lot nd therefore only he can do all this to bring smile back on her face nd as the realization dawn upon her she instantly turned back to look at the door only to find Maan standing over there leaning against it looking at her smiling conforming all her thoughts.

As soon as Maan saw her turning nd looking towards him he instantly held his ears mouthing Sorry all the while looking at her expectantly. Geet don't know what she should do now after seeing his gesture. In these 6 days he had not left a single chance to make her feel special nd she just wanted to run in his arms nd hides herself in them forever yet she couldn't able to forget his words. She could see true remorse in his eyes yet she was unable to say to him that she had forgotten each nd every thing so he also forget all this. Nd Badi Maa's words were just adding more fuel to her miseries. She was so confused with her own feelings, with her own turmoil nd now what Badi Maa had suggested. She can't see him like this neither did she want to fail all his attempts but she can't bring it in her to forget everything he had said. At one tym she wanted to run in his arms nd at the same tym his words stops her from doing so nd she was just not able to understand which way should she choose to get rid from all this restlessness nd turmoil. She really needs a good amount of tym to think where their relationship is leading, she thought as she looked back at Maan who was still holding his ears waiting for her to react. Unable to say anything she just left for washroom from there leaving Maan behind confused, hurt nd dumbfounded at her reaction.

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BANG!!!!!!!!

The breaking sound of Wooden Planks echoed in the whole Gym as it became the victim of someone's helplessness nd frustration. Maan was standing there with his bleeding hand looking at the broken pieces of wooden Plank just like all his hopes nd expectations that broke Everytym like this only. It's been an hour since he was in Gym practicing his Vigorous Tai-chi but nothing was calming down his restless heart. He was vigorously throwing Punches nd kicks in the air since the tym he had stepped into gym but with every move Geet's hurt face came in front of his eyes making him realize the intensity of his words that hurts her. All the muscles of his body were aching yet the pain that he was feeling in his heart right now was much more then the pain he was feeling in his body. his hand got injured nd was bleeding due to continuous breaking of Ice Slabs nd wooden planks but it was as if he was not feeling any pain for the pain he was feeling seeing Geet's indifference was way too much to feel any other pain.

Geet's indifference was now getting unbearable to him. To cry out loud it's gonna be whole week but Geet didn't talked to him forget about talking she's completely avoiding him. No matter what he does, to which extent he goes but nothing seems to affect her. It was at this moment he realizes what Geet must have gone through when he was behaving so indifferent with her, when he had distanced himself from her, when he had gone to London for whole month without even informing her. She too must have felt same what he is feeling right now. He's not able to take her indifference for just one week nd here he had been indifferent with him for whole 2 months. She too must have been feeling miserable yet she didn't complaint once.

He's not unaware of the fact that she had waited for him every night to come home early so that she could talk to him nd how purposely he came late at night only to find her sleeping on couch while waiting for him. Even during his visit to London she use to wait for his one phone call but he like always turned down all her expectations. Then why he's feeling bad if Geet is also doing the same with him. Didn't he deserve it? Ofcourse he did nd Geet had full right also to do this to him. But he just wanted her to talk to him once. He just wanted to tell her that what led him to behave like this with her that night nd after that whatever punishment she'll give he's ready to take. But Geet was not giving him that chance also. just like now how excited she was after seeing Gol Gappas but when she saw him her face once again become gloomy nd she once again left from there leaving him behind hurt nd shattered. He had done everything that he can in order to bring her back to normal but nothing seems to work nd he really had no clue now what else should he do to make everything normal, he thought as he keeps on punching, kicking nd breaking the planks until his legs gave up nd he fell on the floor nd a loud howl escaped from his throat reflecting his agony that he was facing right now. Finally after what seems like an eternity he was able to pull up his tired body dragged his legs outside the gym towards his room hoping Geet wouldn't be there to witness his worn out condition

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"Maan" he heard a familiar voice from behind nd as he turned to look, he found Vidyut standing over there looking at him confusingly. He instantly turned his back towards him not wanting any kind of encounter with him after him seeing his this state but guess it was too late

"What happen to you? Nd how did you got injured?" Vidyut asked as he came nd stand beside him looking at his bleeding hand.

"Nothing just got hurt while exercising. Nothing to worry, its usual" Maan replied coldly clearly indicating that he don't want any kind of conversation right now.

"Look Maan, I know you since childhood therefore don't even think of saying lie to me. I know you get hurt like this when you vigorously take out your anger or frustration on those wooden planks." Vidyut said sternly nd Maan just looked other side feeling caught.

"I know Maan what you have been going through from past few days. I mean the way Geet is behaving is really very much hurting. But you hurting yourself for that is not at all acceptable. Maan I am your friend therefore I am concerned for you nd therefore I am saying you that don't run after her like this." Vidyut said as a matter of fact nd Maan snapped up his head looking at him questioningly.

"I mean to say that let her be the way she wants for sometym. After all how long you'll run after her like this. You may be not understanding that she's just taking you for granted because she knows that no matter what but you'll come behind her. Here you are hurting yourself like this nd there does she even care? I don't think so because if she cares then she should have given you a chance to speak but no she didn't. Look Maan Geet is my friend too no doubt but you are my best friend therefore I am more concerned about you. Please for god sake stop hurting yourself like this nd just leave her in her own condition for sometym. I mean you too had your self-respect. She'll come after you when she'll realize your worth but if you keep on running behind her like this then she'll definitely never understand your worth. You understand what I am saying." Vidyut said putting a comforting hand on his shoulder showing his concern or should I say Fake concern for him to which Maan just smiled slyly nd removed his hand from her shoulder.

"Thank you Vidyut for being so concerned for me but Vidyut I think you are not able to understand Geet till now. The thing which you are considering her attitude is actually her hurt whose source is none other than me. It was me who didn't trust her, who didn't let her say what she wanted to say so it'll be only who'll bear the aftermath of it. She had full right to behave with me like this not only because I had hurted her but because she's my wife nd as a wife she had full right to behave with me the way she want. I know from past few days I am disturbed due to her indifference but even in her indifference she didn't failed to care for me. You know she may not show but her care, her concern oozes out in every act of hers no matter how hard she tries to be indifferent with me yet she never fails to make sure that I am all fine nd not playing with my health. Therefore your saying this that she don't even care what I am going through is not at all correct. She's very much hurt thatsy she's behaving like this but I know that soon everything will be normal." Maan said patting his shoulder while smiling faintly while Vidyut looked at him speechless.

"Look Vidyut I know as a friend you are concern for me nd its actually a good thing nd I am really thankful to you for that but yaar there are few matters which are between husband nd wife only so better let them only sort out this. Whatever issues me nd Geet are having we'll sort it out sooner or later. You don't get worry for it unnecessarily. I'll definitely seek your help if I feel that I am not able to sort it out alone but till then let me handle all this alone nd you just relax ok." Maan said smiling though genuinely but unknowingly like Geet he too had shown Vidyut his actual place to which Vidyut just nodded in affirmation nd Maan left from there to his room leaving Vidyut behind gritting his teeth on the failure of his yet another move.

He thought that he'll take advantage of Maan's vulnerable condition in creating distance between Maan nd Geet as he knows it very well that Maan's ego is his everything nd therefore he had purposely rubbed that side but what Maan has said had really made him speechless. He really don't understand that what kind of relationship are they having which is not normal like other married couples yet they cant hear a word against each other. No matter how hard he tries o separate them but Everytym he just gets is failure. Probably he had forget one thing that he's not bigger then God nd god had already decided the fate of Maan nd Geet which is to be with each other. But it seems that Vidyut is not able to understand this universal fact till now hence he still didn't accepted his defeat yet

"No matter how much I try to separate them yet they always come close to each other. Both are hurted due to each other yet they cant hear a word against each other. But I had also not accepted my defeat yet. No matter if my this move fails too but Maan sooner or later I'll take Geet away from you nd she'll be mine only mine." Vidyut muttered under his breath as he looked at Maan's retreating figure until he disappeared from his eyes nd left from there

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Geet was folding clothes in her room but her mind was somewhere else. Again nd again the flash of Maan's hurt face was coming in front of her eyes making her feeling guilty for her behaviour. She can't deny the fact that in these past 6 days maan had done everything that he can do even the things that he may not even dream to do be it sending flowers or chocolates to her or arranging Gol Gappas for her yet she is not able to bring it in her to forget everything. But isn't she's dragging the matter too much now, she thought as she sat on the bed absent mindedly. She remembered what her Badi Maa has said regarding her mother nd hers nd Maan's relationship. Her mother too had faced almost the same thing but still she hasn't lost her patience then why is she shunning herself around him. She could see true remorse in Maan's eyes nd may be she had forgiven him also for that night but his words were still haunting her.

She's trying really hard to forget everything especially after her conversation with Madhu she knows that she needs to keep her patience. She knew it from start that the journey of their marriage will not be smooth like other couples yet she agreed to it even when she has been given a chance by everyone including Maan to back out from this marriage still she agreed. Probably at that moment she didn't knew that she'll fell irrecoverably in love with him nd his words were hurt her like this. But whatever she really needs to sort it out soon. She can't see Maan like this. She can't see his hopes nd expectations being crushed like this Everytym. She needs to talk to him nd tell him that she needs sometym to forget what happened between them that night nd she is sure that he'll understand nd will give her some space. If nothing then atleast he won't be get hurted more due to her cold behaviour, she thought with a deep sigh nd get up from the bed to go towards cupboard when she saw Maan entering in the room but the sight she saw is enough to take her life away.

She saw his worn out condition nd tired form but what caught her attention was his injured hand which was bleeding nd she knows that reason behind this. he had once again practiced his intense tai-chi nd hurted himself in the process, she thought as she looked at Maan painfully who seems to be lost in some other world nd her heart went out for him realizing that she's responsible for this condition of his. And as the realization dawn upon her she rushed to her lyf immediately leaving all her thoughts, fears nd insecurities behind

"Maan" she shrieked in horror as soon as she reached near him breaking Maan's reverie nd it was then he realized Geet's presence near him.

"Yeh... How did this happen?" she asked as she took his injured hand in hers examining the wound but Maan immediately freed his hand away looking other side. Last thing he wants is to Geet witness his condition as he really don't want her to hurt more due to him.

"Nothing. I am fine." He said though normally but Geet could sense his pain.

"Nothing huh? Your hand is bleeding nd you are saying nothing." She asked as she looked at him with her teary eyes.

"Come with me." she said as sternly as she could, dragging him with her but he stood over there unmoved.

"Didn't you hear what I said? Come with me NOW!!!!" she said authoratively looking at him angrily dragging him nd this tym Maan just quietly followed her like an obedient kid

"Sit here till I come nd dare you move away from here." Geet said as she made him sit on the bed before leaving to get the first aid Kit from the cupboard leaving Maan behind looking at her retreating figure

In no tym she was back once again with first aid box nd took his hand in hers after taking out cotton from the box. Her eyes welled up seeing his blood as she slowly wipes it away from his palm with cotton. All the while Maan was just looking at her adoringly seeing her cleaning his wound with utmost care. She was so gentle as if his hand is a feather nd she would hurt it if she won't be gentle. He could see her eyes welling up in tears nd he knew the reason behind this also. His wound had always pained her more nd that he first witnessed at the tym when they were making their dinner that night in the kitchen where he had accidently cut his finger nd she had taken care of him in the same way. Though this tym he didn't did this purposefully but he was happy to inure himself as it was helping in breaking that shell that Geet had built around herself. Therefore he just sat keeps on looking at her smiling as she gently take care of his wound. Nd he actually liked the way she was caring for him. All the while she didn't looked up at him yet he could see her pained face as if it was she who got hurt. Maan hissed in pain as Geet puts tincture in his wound making her to shiver in pain

"Sorry, Bahut Dard ho raha hai." she asked innocently as she looked up at him with her teary hazels to which Maan just nodded in no while smiling slightly nd she once again resumed her work.

Geet gently blowed air on his wound as she puts tincture on it so that he wont feel the burning session of it but least she knows that Maan was not feeling anything at all for all his senses was busy admiring her nd her care for him. He didn't miss the restlessness in her eyes which he knew was for him, just for him. He noticed the drop of tear that fell from her eye when she bandaged his wound nd he slowly cradled her face wiping away that lone tear softly with his thumb. Geet looked at him with her teary hazels nd he just nodded in no gesturing "don't cry" with a soft smile playing on his lips nd Geet immediately looked away after bandaging his wound as she realized her proximity with him.

"Geet Pls stay." Maan rather pleaded as he holds her hand stopping her form going nd Geet was emotionally too weak to resist especially after listening to his pleading therefore she just stood over there still.

"Why Geet? Why you care for me so much if you are angry from me? I had hurted you a lot Na then you should have hated me then why are you crying for me on my small wound? Why you didn't left me on my own condition?" Maan asked as he came close to her from behind while turning her from her shoulders so that she could face him while Geet just dipped her head low.

How would she tell him that his smallest wound affects her because she loves him insanely? How would she tell him that she was never angry on him it was her fears nd insecurities which was not letting her forget everything. How would she say to him that she can never hate him even if he takes away her lyf also yet she could never see him in any kind of bad condition? She wanted to say all this to him but could say nothing rather then standing over there quiet wishing that he could understand her unsaid words like always but least she knows that her quietness is just increasing Maan's restlessness

"Please Geet for god sake say something. I had hurted you a lot na then complain me, yell at me, shout at me, hit me, take out your anger your hurt on me, give me any punishment Geet but please don't remain indifferent like this with me. Please I know I did a big mistake while accusing you, I know I was a jerk when I said those mean words to you which had hurted you like this nd Geet you are free to give me any punishment for that but please don't distance yourself from me like this. I am not able to bear it Geet I am not. Please speak to me once; Take out what all is there in your heart once. I promise I won't say anything to you but please don't remain aloof like this with me. Your cold self is getting unbearable to me Geet please don't do this to me nd especially to yourself. This is not you Geet, please don't be like this. Please speak to me once just once. Please." Maan literally pleaded as he cupped her face in his hands nd tears started to flow from Geet's eyes as she looked at his pleading eyes which was urging her to speak but words were not forming in her throat to tell him what she was feeling right now. She can't see him like this yet she was unable to comfort him as she still don't know whether she had this right on him or not.

"It's getting late Maan nd you must be tired. You need to take rest." Geet said after a while as she removed his hand from her face with a deep sigh before turning to leave leaving Maan bewildered.

But this tym Maan was not in mood to let go like this. He had enough of her running away from him like this from past 6 days but today she had to speak to him anyhow. She had to let out her bottled up emotions in front of him. today she had to take out her hurt on him because it was now unbearable for him to see her dyeing every second, to see her fighting with herself every second, to see the clouds of fear nd insecurities getting darker in her heart by every passing minute. Today either there will be this side or that, he thought as he holds her wrist halting her steps that was heading towards the door nd next moment Geet found herself pinned against the wall near the door with Maan's body plastering on hers hence blocking her between the wall nd his hard body.

It was all so sudden that Geet didn't realized for few minutes what was happening nd when she did she felt a chill ran down her spine as she realized their proximity nd if that was not enough then she saw Maan's intense gaze boring into hers making her heart beat several beats. Its true that they had been close to each other before too but this type of proximity between them was new to her, never in their married life of 7 nd a half months Maan had been with her like this nd hence her heart was beating faster than usual as she realized that now there is no escape. Yet she didn't accept defeat so easily as she tried to free herself but Maan just pressed himself more closer to her if possible blocking her sandwiching her between his hard body nd wall. Geet tried to push him away with her hands but Maan just held her hands tight nd pinned them in the wall stopping her struggle all the while looking at her hazels deep with his intimidating gaze.

"Please leave me Maan." Geet said rather pleadingly with a weak attempt to get herself free.

"Not before you speak to me." Maan said in a intimidate voice which was enough for Geet to shiver making her realize that he wont leave her until she'll speak to him.

"I don't want to say anything." Geet retorted back knowing very well that she made a wrong move as she felt Maan's grip tightened on her wrists.

"Enough of your denial Geet. Enough of your running away. But not now, today you have to speak to me. Tell me why you are so cold around me? Tell me why you are not cribbing to me like before? Tell me why there is so much distance between us? Tell me why there's not everything normal between us like before? I know you too want to be everything like before then why are you running away from me like this? Why are you fighting with yourself like this? Tell me Geet. Answer me?" Maan asked as he bored his piercing gaze into hers feeling helpless with the turn of events forcing her to let out all that which she had bottled up inside her from past 2 months.

"Why you are asking me all this? Why don't you ask yourself? You know everything Na, had answer of every question? Then why there's need to ask me about anything? Why are you not getting your answers from you yourself only like you use to do Everytym?" Geet said in a hurt voice with a tinge of sarcasm in it nd Maan looked from her one eye to another in disbelief unknowingly loosening his grip on her wrists.

"Geet" This is what he was able to utter as he looked at her confused nd next moment Geet pushed him away from her making him stumble few steps back.

"Haan Tell me. You know everything Na even before a person tells you anything then why are you asking me? Had you asked me that day before when I was waiting for you outside KM that Geet why are you waiting over here like this instead of shouting at me for making you restless in my search? Had you asked me ever before taking out your frustration on me? Or had you asked me that night when you accused me for removing Di's belonging nd her pictures from our room? Had you asked me before accusing me for taking Sameera Di's place in your lyf nd heart? Boliye. Jawab dijiye mujhe." The sudden change in her voice surprises Maan. There was no more pleading or shivering in it infact it was now full of Pain nd anger. He looked at her in surprise trying to figure out wat is she trying to say

"Batayiye Hai koi Jawab aapke paas? Today my distance, my indifference is getting unbearable to you when it has been just 6 days. Had you ever thought that how I must have felt when I had bear your distance, your indifference for whole 60 days when I don't even know that what is my actual mistake. Had you ever thought how did I able to stop myself from breaking down in front of our family? No you haven't thought once, you just did what you feel is right without realizing how will it affect me. Have you asked my opinion that day when we had'.. When we had came close to each other that night after the party? No you haven't asked me but straightaway made your own assumption that you had committed a sin nd therefore you decided to punish 'YOURSELF' nd 'ME' by distancing yourself from me. Had you asked me that day when you had decided to go to London for an indefinite period so that you don't have to bear my torturing presence even for few minutes? No you didn't instead just left for London without even telling me once before going. Had you listened to me that day when I was trying to say that I didn't removed Sameera Di's pic from our room that I didn't renovated our room? No, instead you accused me for taking Di's place in your lyf. Then why all of a sudden is it necessary for you to ask me or listen to me or tell you my opinion on why I had distanced myself from you? Did you told me why you had distanced yourself from me or why had you accused me for the thing which you also know that I can't commit even in my widest dream? No na, then why are you expecting me to tell you why I am distancing myself from you?" Tears started flowing from her eyes. The pain, the agony that she has been bottling up inside her from so long has finally burst out nd all Maan could do is to close his eyes in pain realizing what damage he had done to her without even thinking twice. He himself could feel the corner of his burning but he can't do anything to sooth the fire of remorse inside him

"You know I was very happy that day when Dadimaa told me that you came back nd is in our room. I feel like I got my lyf back which was missing somewhere from past 2 months. I wanted to tell you so many things, I wanted to complain you for your sudden departure, I wanted to crib you for not calling me even once from London, I wanted to tell you that every second I missed you a lot, I wanted to warn you to not to leave me alone like this again. But you had not given me any chance to say anything but straightaway accused me for the renovation of the room. You know Na Maan that what Di nd her memories means to me yet you haven't thought once before accusing me. Kyun Maan? Kya itna hi bharosa tha Aapko mujh pe? Ya phir Aapko kabhi muhpe trust tha hi nahi" Geet rather stated amidst her tears as she looked at Maan nd Maan instantly shaked his head in no gesturing she's wrong, that he trusts her.

"You know after that night 2 months before I so much wanted to talk to you, to tell you not to feel guilty for anything as you didn't did anything wrong, that you had full right on me nd each cell of my existence but you were too lost in your own assumptions that you didn't even bother to listen to me. Here, on this couch only I use to sleep while waiting for you till late night nd I know that you purposefully come after I sleep nd when you are sure that I am fast asleep you carry me to the bed nd next morning you again leave before I use to awake. What have you thought that I didn't knew that your secretary was just use to make excuse that you are not in office nd has gone for lunch meeting when I use to come with lunch for you or you thought that I believed your secretary then when I use to call you in London nd she use to say that you are busy in meeting. I was not a fool Maan, I could clearly see that you are avoiding me but you know why I didn't said anything to you because I want to give you your space so that you can come out from your guilt which was actually baseless. I thought that when you'll come back then I'll tell you that for me this marriage means as same as it means to other married couples but you crushed all my hopes that day when you said that I wanted to take Di's place in your lyf nd heart." Geet said as she looked at him painfully nd Maan just stood over there numb. He didn't have even single word to say to her or to comfort her instead listening to her accusations quietly.

"You know how much I craved to listen your voice just for once, how much I craved for that soothing touch or words of yours which use to make my restlessness vanish somewhere in the thin air when you were there in London but you never called me nd when you did you didn't talked to me. Why Maan didn't you remember me a bit. I know our marriage was a compromise to you nd I am nothing more then a responsibility for you but the care, the support I got from you in all these months had made me realize that this marriage means more then just a compromise to you nd I was happy that if not like normal husband nd wife then as a good friend we'll always be together but I guess you didn't even consider me even that also or else you could have told me the reason behind your aloofness around me. it was you only na Maan who had once said to me that I don't need to bother if anyone compare me to Sameera Di or if anyone say to me that I had taken her place in your lyf because you trust me nd knows that it's nothing like that then why did you yourself accused me for that. I had trusted you enough to know that whenever anyone will question our marriage or our relationship then you'll be by my side telling that person that our relationship is far beyond compromise but then why you yourself has made me realize that our relationship was nothing but a compromise due to Sameera Di's wish that now if anyone question our relationship then I don't even know how to defend it yet I try my best to not to be weak just for the sake of our relationship because at the end of the day I cant see anyone saying anything to you. Then why you didn't be strong enough to save whatever little relationship we are having from the conspiracy of those peoples who wanted to break our relationship? Boliye Na Maan kyun? You know today I don't even know that whether I had this much right also to say all this things to you or not, that out 'compromising relationship' gives me this much right also or not to say anything or do anything for you. But you know everything na then Tell me Maan that am I having this right or is it I am crossing my limit because it's not my right to say all this to you?" Geet said as she shaked his arm nd Maan shaked his head in denial telling her that she has all right to do or say anything as he tries to cup her face but Geet just pushed his hand away distancing herself from him.

"I know that I can't take Di's place in your lyf nor in your heart still you accused me for that but you only tell me that did I ever try to do that? Which act of mine had made you felt that I am trying to take Di's place in your lyf? Did I ever ask you for my rights? Did I ever expect anything from you? No I haven't nd you know why because I know how difficult it would be for you to move on nd I wanted to be your companion in your journey of life not your burden. But that day... That day you made me realize that I was only a burden for you all the while nd can never be your companion because if I could then atleast you could have given thought just once or had listen to me just once before accusing me for such thing or before distancing yourself from me like this. But no you didn't even listen to me nd given your verdict that I am a culprit in your eyes; a biggest sinner. I had not asked you for anything Maan neither did I expected anything from you but ya I did wait for you in those 2 months so that I could bring our relationship back to normal, so that I could make you realize that whatever happen between us that night was not a sin nd I didn't regret that moment between us, I never can because each second that I spend with you is the blissful second of my lyf nd that moment was the most blissful moment of my lyf, but thank you for telling me that I didn't have the right to wait for you also. I had forget the reality of our relationship in the amidst of your care nd affection but thank you for reminding me the reality of our relationship now I wont forget what I actually mean to you." Geet said breaking into sobs as she was about to thump on the floor on her knees when Maan instantly came nd hold her in her place nd raised his hand to wipe away her tears but Geet just pushed him away once again.

"It was my mistake. It was all my mistake since the start that I had forgotten my place, that I had thought that I could keep our marriage working without any expectations from you, that I would be able to take you out from your guilt of coming close to me. I was wrong in thinking that in all these months I had made not much but atleast some place in your heart, that you trust me enough to be my side whenever I need you but I didn't knew Maan that you don't even trust me enough to know that I cant do any think in my wildest dream that could hurt you or your feelings. Why Maan why can't you trust me enough to know that I can never hurt you? Why can't you think me worth enough to share your thoughts, your turmoil with me? Why can't you think our marriage apart from being a compromise? Tell me Maan what difference the things I said to you now will bring in our 'compromise relationship'? Will it bring remove that night from our lyf where you had accused me without even listening to me? Will it remove those 2 months of our lyf where I had craved for your just one look? Will it remove that restlessness, that craving, that aloofness which I had gone through when you had avoided me nd distanced yourself from me?

You are asking me to punish you Na, to shout at you, yell at you, crib to you, complain to you or anything to take out my hurt on you but before that please tell me that do I have this right also or not? Do I have right to boss over you when you ignore your health amidst your work? Do I have this right to hug you nd hide myself in your arms when I am restless on something? Do I have this right to do anything for you or to take you out from the world of your own logics nd assumptions? Tell me because I really don't know what rights I have in our relationship. Nd since when I don't know all this so its better if I stay away from you, if I distance myself from you just the way you did because I really cant bear any more accusations, any more harsh words from you. Yes I am insecure, yes I am scared because I don't know what I can nd what I can't do in our relationship. Tell me Maan what is the future of our relationship? Tell me what place I actually had in your lyf nd heart? Who I am actually to you; a companion or a burden of responsibility? Can you tell me this?

Why Maan Why had you been so caring to me all those months, why had you made me believe that no matter what but you'll always be by my side, that I had to forget my place like this? Why Maan why had you accused me like that? Why had you distanced yourself from me like that? Why had you punished yourself nd me like that? Why you didn't trust me Maan? you had said na that you can read my eyes, that my eyes are mirror of my soul then why you didn't read my innocence in them Maan? Why you didn't read that I had never regretted that moment between us, I never can instead I wanted to make you realize the same thing that you had not done anything wrong? Why you made everything so difficult for me Maan that now neither I can go near you nor I can stay far away from you? Why you made me nd my heart this much helpless Maan? Why? Why? Why?" She said nd broke down completely in tears making Maan burn in the fire of his deeds.

He can't take this anymore. He can't see her in this broken state especially when he knows dat it's just because of him. He wiped away dat smile from her face which always took away his heart nd as the realization hits him he quickly held her by her shoulders nd hides her in his embrace. Geet hits her small fists on his chest continuously in order to free herself but Maan just held her tight in his embrace closing his eyes which was continuously dropping tears seeing her suffering due to him. In true sense it was today he realize the impact of his actions on her innocent heart which is now full of fears nd insecurities. It was not just his one accusation that had made her distance herself from him, it was all those small-small stupid acts of his which was correct according to him which were making her insecure nd his accusation was just the final blow to those insecurities that had made her aloof around him like this.

Geet's strength finally drained out nd she stopped hitting him or her attempt of freeing herself nd just submitted herself in his arms crying bitterly because at the end his arms are her only solace. She don't know what will happen after this or how Maan will react to her words. She didn't even know what all she had said in her trance. All she knows that today she pour out all those questions which her heart was asking from past 2 months since he had been indifferent with her. She knows that probably today she had crossed her limits but it seems that everything went on their own accord nd she said all those things which she may not ever able to say to him. Maan felt her crying bitterly in his arms nd he just rubs her back to calm her down but at the same tym he knows that it won't be easy. This is for the first tym she has said all this to him nd he knows that she's right nd he deserves this. why it would be always him to question her or accuse her, she too had equal right to do question him nd today she had just showed her right nd nothing else nd he can never feel bad for that because he knows that she's not wrong either.

"I am sorry Geet. I am so sorry. I know I have hurted you a lot nd I can do nothing to undo that but please try to forgive me" This is all Maan was able to whisper in her hairs as he hugged her close to him taking away all the pain given by him while Geet was hardly registering what he was saying.

He wanted to tell her so many things, he wanted her to know what he was feeling at that tym when he had uttered those words but at that tym he could do nothing rather than just hugging her close to his heart kissing her hairs softly in hope that she could understand that how much he's burning from inside seeing this state of hers due to him. Yes he won't deny the fact that somewhere he had taken her as for granted nd may be because of that only he had been so insensitive towards her but not anymore. now he wont commit the same mistake that he had committed once.

After what seems like an eternity Maan felt Geet's crying subsiding guess all her energy has drained out but she was still sobbing in his arms. He gently pulled her out from hug still holding her close to him nd wiped away those tears from her eyes which was way too precious for him while Geet just looked at him lost with her teary hazels. Maan softly kissed her forehead nd next moment scooped her in his arms before heading away to their bed. All the while Geet was just looking at him lost not knowing what's going in his mind. Whether he's angry on her for saying all this to him or he's hurt due to her words, she thought as she looked at Maan who was looking ahead as he took his steps towards their bed.

Maan's condition was not less as he was not in the state to meet her eyes not now atleast. He wanted to tell her many things but seeing her condition he decided not to say anything now as she needs to be mentally relaxed before understanding his view nd right now she's too much emotionally wrecked to understand anything. Therefore he just looked ahead without meeting his gaze with hers for he knows that for once he couldn't read her eyes but she can always understand what he's going through by seeing through his eyes nd right now he don't want her to know how much he's regretting nd feeling guilty for his stupid actions because knowing her he knew it very well that she'll blame herself for making him feel guilty nd this is the last thing he wants. She had suffered enough due to him but not anymore. Therefore he keeps on looking ahead as he move towards heir bed nd gently places her down on bed before taking his seat beside her.

Maan don't want to leave her alone at this moment as he knows that his slight distance will only increase her insecurities nd he don't want that especially after listening to her turmoil therefore he just sat beside her resting his back on the bed post while still keeping her in his arms. Geet was emotionally too weak to resist or protest nd somewhere she's scared also to lose his warmth. Then as if in trance she gently wrapped her arms around his waist hugging him tight nd laid her head on his chest as if she feared for her this dream to be broken if she'll stay an inch away from him. Maan held her one hand with his as if assuring her his presence nd with other he gently caresses her head nd hairs to make her sleep nd soon she's drifted into deep sleep under the soothing caress of the person who is her lyf. Maan felt her heavy breathings on his chest making him realize that she has finally drifted into deep sleep but still he didn't placed her back on bed. For some reasons he just don't want her to keep her away from him. He was fool all the while by distancing himself from her but now not anymore, now he won't be able to stay away from her anymore. It was her distancing herself from him that made him realize how much empty he's without her nd as the realization dawn upon him he realizes that this is the only tym when he gives all the answers of those questions that she had asked him today nd he'll give it to her nd he was sure that she'll understand him, he thought as he looked at her angelic face which was looking more beautiful while sleeping nd gently kissed her on top of her head before drifting into deep sleep.

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Next morning when Geet woke up she found herself on the bed with the blanket tucking securely around her. It took her sometym to register the events of last nite nd as those images flashed in front of her eyes, her eyes instantly searched for Maan who was nowhere to be seen in the room. She clearly remembered what all she has said to Maan last night nd how he had carried her in his arms nd also that whole night she has slept in his arms only as she could feel her heart calm nd in peace then where is he now. Did he felt hurt of her words nd thatsy he's not here when she had woken up? May be he's angry on her or may be he's feeling guilty to face her after listening to her accusations, she thought as she cursed herself for saying all that to him. Fear gripped her heart as she felt that he had once again left her alone to distance himself from him nd a lone tear escaped her eyes as she felt empty once again when her gaze falls paper on the side table which was calling out her attention. She instantly get down from bed to see what's in it only to find it as a letter from Maan which he had written to her. Thousand butterflies started to run in her stomach as she opens the letter with her thudding heart to read its contents.

Geet,

I know when you'll get up then first thing you'll search is me nd when you'll not find me around you then thousand thoughts will cross your mind nd you'll again think that I am distancing myself from you once again nd I cant blame you also for that as you are not wring in your place. But Geet this tym the reason for my sudden departure is not because I want to avoid you; it is just that out Noida Construction site is facing some problems nd I had to go over there urgently as no one else can handle the matter. I wanted to tell you all this in person but seeing you sleeping so peacefully after god knows how long I don't have courage to wake you up nd therefore I am leaving this letter for you so that you should know about the reason of my sudden departure.

Geet there's something else also that I wanted to say to you nd not from today but from so many days but couldn't nd last nite after seeing your breakdown I just cant able to say that but Geet now I don't think that I'll be able to keep this thing to myself anymore as this guilt of hurting you is eating me from within. Geet whatever is happening between us from past 2 months nd the way I behaved with you all that while has really hurted you a lot nd I know that just my mere sorry wont undo the blunders that I had done but still I am saying Sorry for all those restlessness, all that pain, all that agony from which you had gone through due to me nd my indifference nd if that was not enough then i had accused you for something which even I know that you cant commit in your wildest dream yet I did that nd I can never forgive myself for that.

But trust me Geet I haven't done all that intentionally. I won't lie Geet but from past few months infact since the early months of our marriage I am feeling an unknown attraction towards you. Something is binding me from you nd I feel like attracting towards you in the same way as moth is attracted towards flame. I am having those unknown desires towards you which I believed is sinful in our relationship but I had always kept them in check so that I wont hurt you in my uncontrollable desires. But that night after that moment transpired between us I feel like that I am cheating on both you nd Sameera. On you because I thought that I am coming close to you just because of physical attraction I am having towards you nd you are also surrendering yourself to me because you think that you are my wife nd it's your duty to quench my desires. Nd on Sameera because I had claim to love her deeply nd promised her that I'll never give her place to anyone else then how can I be get physically close to someone else, how can I feel all those things that I had felt once for Sameera for someone else nd that someone else is none other then her own sister who is married to me because of her Di's last wish nd like me she too is trying to cope up with this change in our relationship. Nd that is the reason Geet I was feeling guilty for myself but more for hurting your feelings nd your trust which you had on me since the first night of our marriage nd thatsy I was not able to meet your gaze so I decided to stay away from you for a while so that I can keep my desires in check nd my this physical attraction for you also gets fade with the passing tym nd then we can again get back to our normal relationship.

But that didn't happened Geet instead I started craving for you more. Your voice, your musical laughter, your innocent antics, your care, your bossing on me everything that you do for me had not let me rest in peace even for a second nd more I try to get over from it the more I feel like getting pulled towards you. I had left for London not because your presence was torturing me nd Even I was not happy to leave like this but I had to Geet. Because I thought that if I had to make everything normal between us den I need to stay away from you for sometym. I don't want to betray you by giving you any false hopes for our relationship due to my uncontrollable desires when I had this belief that I can never give Sameera's place to you. So I decided this distance between us but I didn't knew that this same distance will be more torturing to me only nd I'll crave to hear your voice just once.

That day when I had called you then only my heart knows how much helpless it was feeling to choose between this distance nd the craving to hear you once nd finally I had given up in front of my heart thinking that you wont recognize me if I'll call you on landline but you proved me wrong when you recognize me even when I didn't said anything. Trust me Geet I wanted to say so many things to you but just couldn't instead of listening to your Khamoshi which was crying out loud that how much you are missing me. Sach poocho to at that moment only I realize that the thing that I am feeling for you is something far beyond just physical attraction nd I feared to say that I am falling for you as my mind nd heart were going in two different directions. Where my mind was accepting the fact that I had started falling for you, my mind was instantly denying it making me realize that I am betraying both you nd Sameera which is wrong.

This attraction, this turmoil was really taking toll on me nd making me insane Geet nd when I returned back nd saw the renovation of our room then the last strand of my same mind also blowed off nd I ended up in hurting you. At that moment I was too much burning in my own miseries to give everything a thought with my calm mind. I know I did a great mistake by accusing you like that without hearing you once but at that moment nothing was making sense to me. My turmoil, my frustration nd everything that I was going through since past 2 months nd what I saw that day had taken toll on me blocking all my senses to differentiate between right nd wrong. I had fund myself fighting a battle between my heart nd Mind yet again nd in daze I had chosen my mind over my heart which was always true in saying that Geet can never do such thing but I didn't listen to it nd ended up in hurting you.

I know that the reasons I had gave you now are nowhere to be said as the justification of my behaviour towards you not after listening to what you had gone through but still I felt the need to tell you what I was feeling at that moment when I had hurted you. I know I did many mistakes not only by accusing but by being ignorant to your condition also, by somewhere taking you for granted, by not listening to your side once nd there are lots more mistakes of which the realization dawn upon me last nite only when I listened to you. I know that I can do nothing to undo my mistakes but Geet just give me one chance to rectify them. Just give me one chance to remove those fears nd insecurities which are instilled in your heart due to me.

Geet I know that our marriage was a compromise but Geet now I want to confess that our relationship had gone far beyond just a 'compromise'. I wanted to confess that you are not a burden on me, you never were, you can only be my companion who I know will be there in my every good nd bad tym. I wanted to tell you that you had every right on me, you had right to care for me, to do all things for me, to boss over me, to be mad on me. I know my behaviour had hurted you a lot but Geet trust me I am regretting each nd every second for it. Our relationship is not a compromise Geet neither you are any kind of responsibility on me. I am sorry for making you feel like this. your smile, your tears, your innocent acts even your touches affects me Geet nd I wont deny the fact that you are becoming an integral part of my lyf nd even a second without you makes me feel empty. Please forgive me Geet for whatever I did nd give me chance to prove myself as a worthy husband just once.

Geet I won't say that I am ready to move on with you because it's really difficult for me to do so at present nd this you also know nd no one can understand me better than you but Geet I'll try nd all I need is some tym nd some trust from you. Please Geet just give me sometym to accept everything, just give me sometym to accept that what my heart was saying to me is true, just give me some tym to accept that I am ready to move on so that I won't hurt you once again. Please just forgive me for once. There's no hurry or any kind of pressure on you. if by reading this letter you feel that you can give me that one chance, that sometym nd most precious your forgiveness then only forgive me or else I am ready to take nay punishment from you. But Geet I just want to say that don't punish yourself by fighting with yourself like this, by staying aloof like this. Don't do this to yourself because of my deeds because at the end you are way too precious for me nd I can't see you in this state. you are an angel Geet nd you dont deserve to punish yourself due to my insensitivity... Please never do that. Geet i want to move forward in this relationship with you. i want you to be my side forever bas just need some tym to accept my feelings completely

If you think that you can forgive me then just give me one call or else I am ready to take any punishment you give except your indifference because I know that even you are not happy by distancing yourself from me. I'll wait for your call to know what you had decide nd Geet do what your heart says. You are free to take any decision. Will wait for you

Maan.

Precap:

What will Geet do...🤔

Socho Socho😉

nd my another tiny miny twist😲😲

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congrats for new thread

Originally posted by: spvd

congrats dear...

congrats awsem update geet broke down maan letter vidyut bas...

Congrats for the new thread
its awsome
vidyut apni kitni insult karvaga
seriously pathetic man
feeling geet apni dil ki baat bol di
updaye next soon

👏hats off yarr... kitni mehnat lagi hogi yeh sab itne ache tarah se manage krne mein. i m stunned... truly it ws jst mindblowing... i'll update my post aftrwards whn i'll be able to thing more coz its like i m numb reading it all in one go... wht to say... okay i'll post aftrwards...

Mind Blowing update.
Thanks a lot for this long and amazing update.
Loved theit confrotration.
Geet at last vented her agony out.
Each of her sentences brought maan in deep guilt. But he needed that reality check.
He hurted her a lot. But im glad he didnt fall in Vidyut's trap.
Maan's letter was very emotional.
Very touchy part. Cant wait for more. :D

congrats for the new thread👏
awesome update😊
finally they spoke ...
ye vidhyut ko kab akkal aayegi😡
ab kya tiny miny twist dene wali ho😲