MN FF-*Kuch to hain Tujhse Raabta* Prt-14,Pg-83 - Page 34

Seeing them he remembers one of his poems...Which was really close to his heart.

He has written when e had lost his mother and with that had lost all the hopes and possibilities.

The darkness surrounds me
It's getting so cold
I'm all alone
With no one to hold

My world is so empty
All what's left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never ending rain

I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice
My soul is dying

This poem actually shows the mirror image of his heart, his soul.

Shows how his heart is craving for love, for pure love .He does not want any materialistic love, he want a sense of belonging to someone like he was to his mother.

He went inside and opened his laptop.with slow movements of hands he logged on India forums Fanfiction, he certainly don't know what was waiting for him next.

He quickly went to his Inbox to check whether he got any messege from Nupur or not.But to bad luck or good luck Nupur didn't send him any messages after their last night conversation.H e was completely unaware what to do , what step he should take now.

His fingers were moving aimlessly on the mousepad of the keyboard as if they were searching for an answer.

After lot of thinking finally he made a decision that he'll just send a morning message to her and will observe her reply and then will take any decision on it.

He truly wants that no matter what will Nupur reply but her doesn't broke off their friendship or just shows pity on him, this will cut him to the core.

He typed a message'''''''

"GoodMorning Dear'.."

He can't type more nor were his fingers supporting him anymore.He quickly logged off and shut down his laptop.He feel so guilty of hurting her.

He don't know whether she will read his messege or not,but still he will wait for her reply.Shutting s laptop he went to washroom to fresh n up himself as of now only the cold shower could make him calm down.

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The chirriping of birds, the waves of leaves of trees enters her room and bright light

Falls on her face, she flicker her eyes again and again as they got stuck due tears and opened them.

Her face clearly show the traces of the last night that she cried miserably'Even she was also not feeling well.She got up and went to the balcony of her room,she badly needs fresh air .Inhaling the freshness of the morning she felt a little relaxed as if her soul is slowly coming back to her body,she herself don't know why this truth of Mayank's life affected her most,she is just a stranger to him well now she can't say a stranger as he has shared his life's biggest truth to her still she don't know where he live ,how he look,if she had any idea of it she would have surely went up to him and console him all the night and day till he get relaxed,but here the situation is different.

She is unable to understand why she thinks of him most of the time, what effect he has left on her that compell her to think about him.

Leaving her thoughts beside for a while she went to freshen up as now only cold shower could able to make her nerves normal.As soon the water droplets fall on her face wetting her body has enable to make her think that she should apologise from Mayank.After the long time she has find a such a good friend and because of her mistake she don not want to loose him.Finishing her bath as soon she came out from her room her mother called her out to have breakfast.Sighing she went downwards after having breakfast.'

As son Nupur settle down to had her breakfast her mother exclaimed,"Nupur,what happened darling..Why your eyes are swollen dear'Haven't you slept last night?"

Nupur wanted to share the incident but she can't so she covered it up. "Mom, actually I was checking papers till late night so didn't able to sleep properly".Beliving her Mrs.Bhushan and Nupur continued their breakfast,"Okay... Dear I have to go to office; you take rest, and since you have a holiday today so better take rest today".

Nupur just nod her head she has completely lost the energy to speak,the last night hangover is still on her head.Seeing off her mother she closes her and thought to login to the account in hope that He might have replied or might have send some message to him.

As soon as she logged in it shows she has I private message, seeing this heart started racing a horse's speed controlling her heartbeat and shivering of her fingers she licked on the "OK" button of the dialog box that appeared.

As she clicked it ,her IF-account get open showing the Inbox which was highliting the messege from Hate_me that is Mayank.For moment her heart forgot to beat,she forgot to breath ,there was a complete slience outside and also inside her body ,her soul.with great difficulty wiping her seat from her forhead she opened his messege.

She was just dumbstruck'It was just a goodmorning messege.Nupur was in huge confusion '.she coul not able to figure what does it actually mean,does Mayank still wants to be her friend or just it was his last messege.His simple messege has increased her guilt as earlier Mayank used to messege her which were so casual and informal but seeing this messege one this was clear in her mind that an awkward silence has been prevailed between them which she has least expected.She don't know what to reply ,how to apologise from him how to regain their friendship again how..???

These question were roaming in her mind but answer nowhere to be found.After a lot she decided to reply.She tries to move her fingers but her mind was not giving any instruction to type a word so heart take a toll and orders her fingers to move.She thought may Mayank wanted to move forward and want to be her friend, for the sake of their friendship she replied to hin

*Hy!!!Good Morning...How are you'!!!

Listen before you think furthur I just wanna say something...Mayank I am really sorry'At times I become very stupid but I do not want to ruin this friendship'

This friendship means a lot to me'Hope you able to accept my apology though I don't deserve it'

Please forgive me'

Waiting for your reply'*

After replying she was not in any mood to be on I-f 'she logged off from her account and shut down her laptop.She laid down for a while as her heart and mind were already occupied in the last night event.She herself don't know when she drifted to sleep,may this short nap help her lot.

Her eyes got open when hears a sound of horn near her gate, she opened her eyes and realised it is afternoon.She washes her face with cold water and headed down to prepare the lunch.She was Busy preparing the lunch when her mother had called up to inform her that she'll be coming home in a while .So Nupur start preparing for both of them.

She has just finished her preparation when her mother entered .They both settle down and had their lunch.Mrs.Bhushan was busy telling about their meeting and all but Nupur mind was occupied somewhere which didn't go unnoticed by her mother.After finishing their lunch Mrs bhushan called Nupur and made her sit infront of her.She loving carressed her had on her forhead and asked,"Nupur..!! What happen, it seems you are physically present here but mentally you are somewhere else, what happen beta tell me, share your pain', there is something bothering you'"

This time Nupur couldn't hold any longer and shred everything to her mother from where she opened her account, how he used to mock her till the conversation of yesterday's night.Pouring her grief in front of her mother she lied down on her lap and slowly few drops of tears make a way out from her eyes .Mrs.Bhushan listens carefully to Nupur, she was lost somewhere as is she went to flesh back.She raised Nupur Head and asked her a question,"What did you tell the name of the boy"

Nupur answered in a very low voice,"Mayank..."

After listening this name her mother went down in a long memory lane this created more confusion Nupur not able to understand what happened,she asked her after a long pause her shared something with her which was like a cloud burst to her.

"Nupur after listening your story, something struck in my mind as if I know this boy.Actually were very small around 5 or six I had newly shifted to this place,one day late night I got a call from hospital it was urgent so I left you with your maasi and went there.I get to know that a husband has killed his wife and then shot himself,their child was left alone and the lady was saying my name while taking her last breath.As I reached to the dead body I realised she was none other than my best friend Shilpa.Shipla has shared everything from me ,she was my best buddy,but life has played a cruel game with her , her husband was a alcoholic and gambler,but she loves her son very much, I had met twice or thrice he was really very cute and loveable boy and when I saw him that night it was life he has lost all his emotions and sense of living with the lost of his mother and I could certainly able to get why she was saying my name because with help of mine she had collected enough funds for the future of her son,she doesn't want that the shadow of this money should be known to her husband so I helped her in saving that money in my personell company's account unknown to anyone and if I am not wrong this was reason of her death , may be her husband get to know and when she refused to give him he had shot her.But the most important was Mayank at that time.

I bring him home but he was lifeless,as he doesn't have any desire to live.He asked me dropped the hostel where her mother wanted to take education'and now he became a very big man 'But Nupur he is very much in pain from inside ,he has been deprived of love from last 14 years even he refused to take shelter from me and asked to me never to meet him,he is very much alone and I can't do anything for him'..Nupur please bring happiness in his life child..please'I had promise to Shilpa'for sake of my friendship please'"Saying so her mother couldn't hold her tears and burst them out.Nupur consoles her mother,"Maa'Don't worry I promise you that I will regain the lost emotions in him, I will teach him to live the life '.I promise you Maa...I'll fulfill your promise which you made to aunty."

Nupur promised herself that she she'll bring Mayank out from his shell.After consoling her mother Mrs.Bhushan went to office to complete some pending work but Nupur was reluctant to allow her to go office but she promised her return soon.

After sending her mother Office Nupur brings her laptop in the living room and logged in the account in a hope that may he had replied to her and determination in her mind of the promise she made to herself and her mother.