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Another emotional episode. Do enjoy it but can't take so much pain yaar...
So episode starts out with "I love you" and Siddhi is all for it. Kunal is sure very happy but extremely emotional. Siddhi is asking do you need proof, well I am willing to give proof; let's get married again. Siddhi saying here I have given you proof of my love, now why aren't you saying anything? You too provide me with proof. Siddhi is trying to read Kunal's eye, actually watery eyes. Reason Kunal is not saying anything is, he is out of words. He does not know how to respond to Siddhi's confession and is overwhelmed by what just took place.
Siddhi again asking Kunal what are you thinking? Tell me you love me, too. want to restart life with me. Here Kunal finally takes Siddhi's hands in low tone asking her if she realizes what she is saying? Kunal is not able to understand if this is really happening? Did Siddhi really say what she said or? Siddhi saying yes I do. What ever I said is from my heart and they are true. Can't lie when it comes from heart. Siddhi saying after so much trouble I have explained my heart, you too understand. Tell me you too love me and want to live with me. Kunal is still very much overwhelmed.
Next Kunal questions you love me so much, Siddhi nods yes, then why did you leave me alone? Do you know what I went through and you didn't come back once released from jail. Here Kunal put forth his pain with valid questions. Siddhi saying you too didn't come to meet me and Kunal smiles. (Don't know about Siddhi, but I sure want answers for that) Siddhi saying but I still waited for you (after saying get out as our relation is no more?) and never thought you don't love me. Love is not just about being together but being with one another no matter what. Kunal lived with pain of love in his heart and she lived with hope. Here the difference is expected as Siddhi knew what she did and why she did it. But Kunal had no idea what went wrong? All he had was questions so yes his love would pain him with each passing day.
Siddhi going on about hope that once she comes out, she will tell everything to Kunal and he will forgive her and she did come to meet him. Kunal reacted to it suggesting he is believing whatever she is coming out of her mouth. But due to R𤢠she left; well so did many loyal fans. But not anymore, now she wants to live with him forever. Here Kunal has to take in one deep breath and move away. (would love to know or see his expressions there) Kunal did so because he does need a moment to digest everything. After 9 years Siddhi confesses her love, says she wanted to tell him truth about what really happened and she did come to meet him and all; it is just too much. He doesn't know how to react or react at all? Siddhi takes this as nothing else left and leaves but when Kunal turned back his hands were open and was about... I wonder what?
So now when Kunal approaches Siddhi, he is bit more confident. His voice, overall tone and expressions are somewhat more cheerful when asking her why not wait for him to speak? So he does have something to say. When Siddhi is saying what's the point as you don't care. I know your answer is NO and it was my mistake that I confessed my feeling to you. Listening to all these, Kunal is smiling. I sense that is positive. Siddhi too may be saw that smile so she confronted him does he love her too? Kunal again tries to avoid it but his look is something else.
So Siddhi decides to note down proofs or actions from Kunal that suggest he too loves her. So she too has noticed everything Kunal was doing for her. The look Kunal has during this suggest if he is thinking about something and is trying to respond very casually while whatever happened is not casual matter.
Now Kunal asking for guarantee, well I say it was good move. He does acknowledged Siddhi loves him but this talk about marriage and relation, what if she puts it off next morning. Here he is being veyr cautious given Siddhi still hasn't revealed why she left him 9 years ago. He accepts she loves him and wants to be with him but without knowing what was the reason, how can he too just give into emotions so easily. Siddhi is drunk and overtaken by her emotions, but what if again for whatever reason she decides to leave? These are valid questions and he needs clear this mess up before moving forward.
I also liked Siddhi's answer as she could never provide proof of her love. Dear you don't need to. She has her answer (obviously you don't). But she asks Kunal to fulfill her one wish. When she said, "ek aakhri baar mujhe gale laga dijye na". boy her pain and yearning for him was so evident, no words can do justice.
Kunal sure noticed her pain and moved towards her hesitantly as he either wants to be careful or control his side a bit. Kunal giving into Siddhi's request suggest he does have belief in her confession and whatever she said. If we look past instances in park or even trip, Kunal had not responded positively or held back on Siddhi's initiation given he felt she doesn't love him or given his insecurity. But here he himself takes her into his arms in very protective manner.
Siddhi in Kunal's arm feels so secure and at content. There is pure bliss and peace on her face is priceless. It proves how much she wants or rather needs him. I think she fell sleep in his arms and nothing to worry about there. Kunal on the other hand appears as if he is thinking about something. He is going down the memory lane from the day they became one (c-night) and what took place during this trip from car falling down the cliff to her confession. One can sure see the care he is providing to Siddhi with his hand on her head and very protective posture. To me it appears he is admitting to himself yes he no longer can deny their love? By the end we see Kunal too closes down his eyes as may be sign of feeling content?
Pre-cap: all I can say is Kunal's breakdown. I want to see Kunal's breakdown for so long. we have seen parts of it with few self-talks and what not. But I want to see full fledged sequence where he covers his pain of 9 years, what he went through and his pinning for Siddhi. So happy...
I know Kunal's behavior seem quite confusing and pre-cap only added to it. But that is Kunal being Kunal. It is next to impossible predicting how he may react or behave. We don't know until he does something so I say we have to wait for it.
Anupamaa
