How do I describe my feelings when you look at me?
Too pure and too honest in aught to disguise
The sweet soul shining through them." [1]
Your eyes captivate me. They tell me so many things. I am afraid to read what I see in them. Without my will, I am drawn to you. You make me feel again... Those feelings, those pain, those emotions I had turned my back on. I have been alone for too long. The walls around me are thick. You, with your sweet smile and kind heart have shaken them. I can feel them crumbling. How do I stop you? How do I stop myself from feeling? I can close my eyes and not see things I don't want to see. But how can I close my heart from feeling things I don't want to feel? I am afraid... Afraid of being vulnerable again... Afraid to trust again... Afraid to love again... I had built up defences and a whole suit of armour. But you wandered in, unafraid. Your eyes see the real me, behind the mask I wear. How easily you read me... Yesterday, Today...
The glitter in your smile, the sparkle in your eyes, the softness of your touch, the goodness of your heart... They tempt me like never before. You ask for nothing from me. Unknowingly, unwillingly I have given you a piece of me. You didn't ask for it. You just smiled at me and now my life isn't mine anymore. Oh, What pain this is! I cant let you near. Yet, I bear to see you go.
[1] Owen Meredith
Lesson for the day"There is a road from the eye to heart that does not go through the intellect."
- G. K. Chesterton
Thought for the day
What the eyes don't see... The mind knows...
What the mind doesn't know...The heart feels...
What the heart doesn't feel...The soul follows.
- Thami Moyo
Edited by applenpeaches - 12 years ago