Originally posted by: kim.rayat
Hi mani, reading ur post now, i think this is the problem every next student is facing in India. I must say SG is showing sumthing that every viewer could relate with, even our parents could๐. There is sumthing similar with my life too. I belong to a doctor family and since my childhood i was supposed to be the same in future. I wanted to be a hockey player but some how the brain was programmed to opt medical I was also thinking that its good coz of its repo. To top in exams, we were kept away from all distractions. when i opted medical, i found interest in research, but still i opted dentistry, just coz i wanted to fulfill my father's dream. I was disrict topper till 12th. but when i reached college my marks became average. I completed dentistry in a hope that i would further do postgraduation in research. but after graduation, i was gifted a clinic. For my father's happiness i accepted that. but today i'm not satisfied at all. I remain so much disturbed that now i don't even speak properly to anyone. My whole frustration is poured onto my mother. Everyday keep on repeating that i don't want to be just a dentist coz having a clinic was last in my priority list. Now i can't change my line niether can get ride of it. Getting admission in dentistry is also an honour and i respect my proffession a lot, but i'm not able to avoid my dreams and that makes me feel so insecure. I know my mom gets hurt, but now things arn't getting any better, I love my mother a lot, but can't hold myself back in rage. I always knew that things won't work properly, thats why i always kept a backup plan. This all happened coz my father thought that he knew wat i want and i thought i should always listen to my father. we never had an argument like one between suvi n her dad, during studies, but now twice i had loud arguments... even then i said vague things, couldn't tell the reason y i'm upset. My father is not wrong, its just that i never found courage to say anything.My father still don't know anything. My frnz say wat u want more than this, but the thing is just that its nt matching with my thinking.
Ya i too wrote a long story๐ I don't know in wat way my experience would help you but i just want to say, watever u want to do, think twice, coz u need to earn money, but mental satisfaction is also important. My each day starts and ends thinking wat i wished to do. Even if u won't be able to join acting course, don't leave acting untill u are graduate. Join any local acting school or crash courses in holidays. keep ur dream safe untill ur parents feel secure abt ur future... They arn't wrong, neither u r,,, either change the situation or change urself, otherwise u wouldn't be able even to share ur regression with anyone coz, no1 else can sense wat u feel or think...all the best...
Thanx a lot Kim. Very true..every child in india is going through the same...our parent's love itself is turning out to be a chain tat captures our fellings, our dreams, our expressions and also our freedom to think...Kim I am sorry for wat happened with you...we need to change this thinking of our parents...but with love...and care...i too have a lot of backup plans...but let see..what happens...but i am not going to let go my dream so easily...thanx a lot for this much support...u all really my true friends...than a lot...u all have filled me with so much of power that YES I CAN BE AN ACTOR..!!!!! yes i can...!!!
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