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Yash is a very self-centred person and he also perceived Aarti as unbreakable, thanks to her resilience in standing by him no matter how insanely he behaved. Now that his problem was solved, that is his guilt regarding Arpita, and that whole phase of his madness, he expects everything to go back to normal, for Aarti to be ecstatic and for her to once more be his friend. Just because he understood that she didn't manipulate him or plan what happened between them, and now has forgiveness and sanction of Arpita, he expects his angry words, said in a state of rage, to be null and void. This comes from his lack of belief in the power of his own words, which has been a problem for him from the beginning. He does not realise that he himself has changed the status quo by wearing blinders in this whole affair. Being able to enjoy moments with Aarti, enjoy her friendship and work through the feelings he has for her were supposed to be the outcome of the fight and Arpita's blessing. He had a plan, a very linear one, but he didn't stop for a moment to consider what he was knocking over as he forged this impossibly straight path, refusing to turn or follow where the actual road was leading.
The scene with the kids was absolutely heartbreaking and really the trigger for Yash's thought process. Aarti, who was having unrestrained fun with her kids was suddenly made aware when she found herself in Yash's presence that he didn't like childishness, so she acted as "adult" as possible in that moment and shouted at her kids, full of authority and without reason. The same Aarti who believes in communicating with children on their level, never saying the old "because I said so," is suddenly screaming at them without a trace of sympathy or empathy for their feelings. At first, I felt like Aarti was not being fair on the kids here, which is one way of looking at it, but then I realised, maybe she was screaming at them to protect them from a much, much worse possibility if Yash were to lose his cool again and get violent. She knew that it hurt the kids to have her shout at them like that but if she were to accept their wishes and play with them, then Yash might misinterpret her intentions and go back into the state he was before. What's more, now she has yet another life, inside of her to look after. In short, she doesn't absolutely trust Yash with the kids anymore because he has shown that they don't serve to stand in the way of his blinding anger. By shouting at the kids, she may have hurt and confused them but she also gave them their father back, both because he had to take care of them after that and because from her perspective, she made sure she didn't do anything to make him lose his cool.
And here comes the dialogue that I felt really started Yash's thought process: Ansh and Palak asking, why is mumma angry like papa now? Once this fight was over they were so hoping for their Mumbai time family to come back again. These are children that have grown up either almost all/all their lives with one parent and an overwhelming sense of something missing. When in Mumbai, they finally felt like they had a complete family and before they could absorb and enjoy the feeling, it was snatched away from them. In their own way, they are trying desperately to conjure it back, and they thought that after the fight and coming back home, they were entitled to it once more. Instead they find that the trade off for finding their father, was their mother's happiness. And because they compared Yash and Aarti, Yash really got a sense of what they went through when he was angry...and what Aarti had to deal with. This is why he immediately covered for Aarti and took responsibility for the kids. Realisation is dawning on him slowly.
In the scene where they show the kids sleeping, I found it really interesting that while Ansh had his arm wrapped around Yash and was within the circle of Yash's arm, Palak slept away from him, and Yash had to reach out to her after she was asleep. This to me was really prominent because she was always the one who was most like and most attached to Yash. When he shouted at Aarti on her birthday, she was all out defending him and saying that her papa could never be wrong. Today I sense a disappointment in her for Yash because just as she was protective of him and stubbornly loyal, she is that way for Aarti now. It took her a long time to accept Aarti as her mother, but once she did it was for keeps. Now every stubborn, loyal and defensive instinct she had for Yash and Arpita is there for Aarti as well and she is a very just little thing...much like her father. She doesn't take well to a sense of injustice and I think she senses, more than Ansh, how much their mother has been wronged. I am interested to see if the CVs develop on the idea of Yash winning her full trust back as well, because if you think about it, he wronged Palak quite deeply in his behaviour. Without talking to her, he brought this new mother and expected her to be okay with it, he left it entirely to Aarti and Palak to figure out how this would affect Arpita's place in Palak's life, and just as Palak had let her guard down and accepted Aarti, he threatened to completely alienate her once again. I can see why Palak is still aloof.
Ansh on the other hand, is a lot simpler. For him this is not the first time Yash has been away from him (since this happened after the kidnapping), and the fact that Yash has always come back after a separation, more loving and invested than before makes Ansh very faithful this time around too, and ready to accept Yash back the moment he asserts that he is no longer angry. Ansh is also used to seeing his mother go through sad and angry phases sometimes, and he knows she comes out of them eventually, whereas for Palak, for whom Aarti has only ever been gentle and kind, this is kind of a shock and I think she is less open to accept that things are actually going to be okay than Ansh.
Geez, I had planned to write one paragraph about the kids and then go into the song sequence, but I guess that didn't work out! I always get carried away when I am talking about the kids. But the song sequence was beautiful in Yash's restlessness and his longing for Aarti. She held the light at the end of the tunnel for him and she was supposed to be there when he came out, beaming and proud. Instead, he finds that she just left the lantern and has moved somewhere far away from him, a fact that is upsetting him both because he needs her to guide him, as she did in Mumbai and because he feels like he did this partly for her and the fact that she is not allowing him to enjoy the fruits of his new clarity is bothering him. When he was pushing her away, she refused to budge and now when he feels free to be around her and enjoy her company she refuses to be there with him. What he needs to realise is that he has to pick up the lantern now and find her so they can illuminate the path ahead together.
But the thing that was most significant about the whole sequence was the convergence of Yash and Aarti's past in the frame when the song sequence started. As Aarti entered the room, from outside where it was raining, Yash was captured with a wind chime behind his head!* Brilliance, or what? But because all the doors and windows were shut to the rain, the wind chime, that is Aarti's true self was silent. I think it represents the fact that Aarti has shut herself off from the elements and so her "self" is also still and soundless, though still moving gently. Just as Yash said, she no longer responded to the thunder or felt fear of it, which he clearly missed because he liked the feeling of being the manly protector, and that is because she has shut herself off completely.
This took me back to the scene when the Prashant confrontation had just happened. The wind chime was being violently blown in the wind, just as Aarti's feelings were in havoc thanks to Prashant's accusations, and suddenly they fell down. That day also, by denying her past with Prashant, Aarti had lost her fundamental sense of self, but the difference today is that while Prashant brought her crashing to the ground, Yash merely stilled her music momentarily. She has closed all the doors and windows because she is convinced that Yash hates the rain, that he is still haunted by his past and that the night where he said otherwise was in his own words, nothing but a "paap." But unlike Prashant, who broke her completely, with Yash, her desires, her dreams and her love are all still there, hanging and even moving gently but without making a noise, just waiting for Yash to open the window and allow the elements back into Aarti's life so her soul can sing merrily once again.
*This is the frame I was talking about.