continuation of the new Park road raaz. See the post under
"Park Road Raaz- Big mistake"
Well Bani is stunned. She is shaken, speechless , thoughtless. She moves away from Jai and goes towards the door(in the Godown). She tries to sit down on th steps and barely makes it safely. Her whole life flashes in front of her eyes. The happy faces of her parents come to her mind. She questions it. Were they really happy or was it just a front for the sake of the kids. For the first time she realises that her family was like any other with problems. She had believed that they were different. Their happiness was unique, nothing compared to others. Others would envey what they had. But now, she felt like a commoner. She felt cheap.
She needs direction now. Could Mr. Walia be lying about what had actually happened on Park Road that night 7 years ago? She doubted it. He was not that terrible. He would not say things like this just to make her life more miserable.
Jai comes towards Bani, not knowing what to say or do. He sits on the steps few feet away form her. He can feel her termoil, her doubts about her parents, her doubt about her belief, Her doubts about him. Could she be angry with him for what he did. He should not have told her mom about her husband's affair with Roshni. May be there was another way he should have followed to get roshni to leave Nishikant. He was so angry with roshni that all he wanted to do was to get her and did not care who he hurt. Maybe Bani's mother could have forgiven her husband and they could have patched up their problems and decided to forgive what had happened and moved on. This way the girls would have had there parents around. He is definately the one to blame for the girls having to grow up without their parents.
At last he musters up some courage and says to her, "Bani say something. I dont even know how I can apologise to you. I am responsible for all you troubles. I have felt so guilty for so long that I dont even know how I have been living my life for the past 7 years. Then you and your sisters came into my life. I thought this was my chance to repay your parents for what I had done. I thought it was God giving me one more chance and I took it. It was Pia that I began to notice first. She so reminded me of roshni and the good times I had with her. I felt so lucky. Then the whole marriage ordeal happened. That really threw a dagger in my heart. It was again a repeat of what roshni had done to me. But this time it was different. I was married to someone I had no feelings of love for but only of like. I got that hate back in my personality. This time it was stronger and more powerful. I could not handle it. Every time I saw you I wanted to make you more miserable. It took me a while to realise that this anger was more towards roshni and Pia, but you got the brunt of it as it was just so easy for me to be angry at you. You stood there hearing all the mean words without any reply. You took it day after day and still did not leave me. The more you took the more I gave. I wanted to break you. But you took it and found it in your heart to do more good to my family. The day I came to know that you actully took the blame of Anu's pregnancy on your self, was the day I realised who you really are. what character you are made up of. You were so different from Pia and roshni. How cheap they looked in fornt of you. You are a very strong ,beautiful person with a good heart. You know what is right and what is wrong. You are fair with everybody. You are respectful to elders. You are a true gem. I was just realising your worth and beginning to start liking you a lot, when Roshni reminded me of the Park road secret.
"Bani how could I tell someone that I cared for that I am responsible for her miseries? How can I, plz tell me how could I??"
There is a long pause. Jai thinks that this is over. This time he is not sure he wants to live anymore, he cannot take it anymore. Some how this time it has hurt him many times more. He is about to get up and leave when he hears Bani's voice, "Jai, please help me!!!" . For the first time Bani has not called him Mr. Walia. He goes to her. Puts his hand out and she takes it. Her tired eyes meets his. In a weak voice she says, "Jai take me away from here. Just for a few days. My head is about to explode. I am not sure what to do. All I want to do is go away from here and be by myself. can you arrange it?". " Of course Bani. I understand. The driver will pick you up and take you to the hotel. Nobody will know where you are and nobody will bother you. When you have sorted out your feelings and get a direction I will be there to help you".
"Jai I am not sure of anything anymore. I am not sure if there is going to be a Jai-Bani together anymore....... the future is very uncertain."
The car comes and the driver is given instructions and Jai sees Bani drive away.....
to-be continued
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