So here are the bad times for SwaRon now. Yet again. But I have gotten used to it. I have learned to love SwaRon by reliving old times. They are not the same anymore.
Yes recently we got some good memories of SwaRon but the old loser with the creep smile (this time with loser partner) is here to ruin it. I don't mind anymore. Maybe the phase will pass & we will be seeing happy SwaRon again. But it officially bugs me how SwaRon are prey to constant MUs n baseless fights, how unhappy and disturbing their lives are portrayed. I might just be losing that magical feeling for SwaRon.
So as sad as I was, I decided to walk down my memory lane to get the answer why in first place I fell for SwaRon. And yes I got it.
That intensity. That deep look into each other's eyes as if breaking all the barriers inside the other person. That is what I first fell for.
At their peak of fighting they still cared about each other. More than anyone else. Outside, hurting was the best thing they could do to each other. Inside, it was the worst.
There were fights & they swore they wouldn't see each other's face but yet they couldn't. Every promise they made to themselves were broken by them alone.
One moment their eyes were hard towards each other and the moment they remembered the close moments they had shared their eyes would go soft and numb as if giving in to the other person.
They were always like daggers drawn at each other & cursed when they had to do a job together yet deep down they yearned to be with each other & thoroughly enjoyed every second of their time alone.
At first, she would say "you are a nobody" but her eyes would say "I like the way you look at me". And he & his eyes both cried out loud "I love you more than anyone can ever love you"
Then, when Swayam changed she would show "I don't care about you" & he would show "I don't love you anymore" but her eyes shouted "why don't you love me like before?" & his would go "I can never stop loving you".
She wanted to show everyone that she wanted to throw away his gifts but then she herself would put her hand in the fire to save the gifts Swayam had burnt.
She hated it if any guy came within a 20 yard circle around her. Yet somehow she never was able to stop Swayam coming so close to her. And not once did she regret it. And how much she denied, she knew that she loved it when he was close to her.
He always stayed away & aloof so that Sharon wouldn't be hurt yet whenever Sharon was in trouble he was there to defend her, save her, & be with her. He might have stopped showing, but he never stopped feeling.
Sharon, as rude & the diva she was, never failed to be concerned about Swayam's injury however small it was. And Swayam however aloof he stayed could never stop admiring her more with every single passing day.
Yes. Outside they hated each other, but whenever situations got them close & intense, none of them left the opportunity to make the moment special.
One close moment with Swayam, and Sharon would be thinking about it, reliving it again and again, his look, his touch, his way of holding her protectively, whereas he would carefully keep the moment locked in his treasure box not demanding for anything more.
And then she confessed. Not that she was in love but that it tore her from inside to think that he didn't love her. That she wanted this to happen. He confessed. That he had always loved her. The first time their eyes and speech thought of going along hand in hand.
All along they said something but felt something totally different. And funny thing, they both understood the underlying real feeling the other person felt . That is what I fell for.
They might have thought that they were successful in hiding it from each other but both knew she was his life and he was her world!!
These are just some of the infinite reasons why I love SwaRon. And I know they will match with yours. Being a Swaron fan is not easy. You need to go deeper than just their physical gesture, you need to understand what their eyes are saying each other, you need to feel the strong yet subtle emotions that they do. You need to be a character of deep thinking. SwaRon is everything but superficial, they are all about what you feel inside, what you can't share but the other one always gets it.
And yes! Thank you to the people who gave birth to Swayam and Sharon through their writing and lastly...Thank you Shantanu Maheshwari and Sneha Kapoor for portraying SwaRon. They are maybe the most important reason why I started loving SwaRon.
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