..Prologue ... (Khushi's pov )..
This winter sounds bit unnatural to me .. With more chills , more pain's .. more wounds ...
Again .. i have ended my day crying ..Crying for him ..
Why did you left me..Left me with heaps of memories .. and love which we had ..Incomplete one..
Why you left me alone in this cruel ..world ..
After that misshappening .. I was left with my gallons of tears .. Starving for his touch ..
He was a guy .. with a pure heart .. Different from the flock .. He talked less but ..His eye's says a lot more ...
He was , Arnav Singh Raizada .. son of a rich family .. though his parents died year's ago but his family supported him always ...He use to be a topper .. ..With sharp brain.. He came in my life .. like a soothing breeze .. and went away .. like a destructive storm ... How we fell in love .. we don't know .. But always we felt that Destiny guards our Love .. But it did'nt . Our dreams were shattered on one day ... our lives fell apart .. I was left crying on this earth and his soul departed to heaven .. Leaving several wounds on my undernourished soul ...It still deprived energy ..Still lacks vigor .. Lacks happiness .. I Still remember .. my dreams shattered on 31 st december ..The last day of the year and last day of my love also ..
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I , Khushi , an ordinary girl of a middle class family .. lived a very simple life .. was confined to myself untill i met my other half ..my love who was my batchmate , Arnav .. But soon He died ..very early . i was still studing ... and i was broken also .. Now I ' m 23 , Working efficiently .. though those memories of past still buggs me .. but now i'm am mature enough to stand those bewildered storms ... Soon going to marry ..But not with him ..Sigh .. i cannot imagine will i'll be able to love that man .. the way i loved him .. My first love .. Obviously "No " is an answer ... It's like i'll be dimished ..somewhere between these cruel norms of society .. Though i don't want to marry other person.. But for the sake of my old guardian's .. i have to marry .. the other person ..
How i hated to be loved by my family .. I need all the pain's of the world .. To come and play rubbish games with me .. I also want to die .. Die and go to his place "Heaven " .. But i can't .. Also my fate .. don't wants me to cherish my past .. my dark past ..
But still now my heart !! It say's he's there .. Alive somewhere .. Waiting for me to rush and embrace him into my arms ..Give my warmth to him ..My love to him ...
Is he hearing my cries .. Will he come back if he know's that i'm gonna marry someone else next month ??? God send him back to me .. back in my life ...
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A cool breeze passed me by everytime when i recalled him .. I don't know why .. but still I feel His heart beating somewhere .. His faint voice reaches my ear's .. send shiver's down my spine .. But again a feeling of dispair rushed down through my veins .. saying that "He is no more .. remeber what his relatives told you ..!! he is dead !! " and again i'm shattered with my beautiful pile of dreams ..Untold sorrow's of trust I had in destiny who bound us together was deep.
This painful life is worse than Death.
Each Day i die thousand times .. and at night .. I born again while remembering those sweet moments we spent together .
Day's and night passed like this only .."Miserable , Painfull , numb " ..
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But Today my heart beated after many year's .. My eye's were pleased yet shocked to See His sight .. I saw him .. was it just an hallucination ...??? Was He Real ... He was Dead 5 year's ago .. then the person whom i saw today @ that busy market was My Arnav ... I screamed his name .. But he just passed me by .. like i was a stranger ..
"Arnav ji !???? " I said .. holding his hand .. But the reply i got was heart breaking ..
"Who are you .." he said .. with complete shocked reaction ..
Who i was ?? was this question asked by My Arnav ?? My ??? ..He is not the one .. I deviated my path ... and he went .. ahead ... Later .. when i turned back .. I saw A girl clinging into his arms ..
I was shattered .. yet again ..
"No he is not Arnav .. My Arnav died year's ago.. Year's ago !! "
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