FF:MERI ADHURI KAHAANI last part pg-62& nt -64 - Page 30

Originally posted by: aishwish

Yipee! 😃A sweetu's narrative! But kya faiyda, all he has done in this update is shrugged his shoulders😆 and acted like a joru ka gulaam,..ohh that means u didnt like the updt ..i am so heartbroken.. through out! Indeed it was bheegi palkein.

Now coming to the update, there have been a lot of moments in this story which I felt would have been a beauty if visualized but this time the whole update would have been a visual treat! ...WOW ..that means u enjoyed the updt ..i am so relieved now ..one day u will give me a heart attack for sure...Right from the beginning when tasha ascends down the stairs, I can totally imagine naku with her simplicity, elegance and natural beauty complimenting DSP , I have always mentioned and repeat yet again, that the look you prescribe to your female leads, is always a high point for me...thanks so much and the credit goes to u coz u imagine things the way i want to even when i dont go into details . Now, that was a good baaji moment, do I need to say that you know very well when to use which character and how. And the way she chose to offer him the cake, was cherry on the cake..lol. no seriously even if she had fed him, wouldn't be a big deal, but the fact that she didn't made the whole sequence perfect,...agree with u tasha are still not so close that they will feed eachother ... it was nice to see DSP enjoying her wife getting all shy!..u remember in the show also there were times when dutta used to enjoy seeing nakku go shy because of him , his eyes reflected that naughtiness .. It was a new experience; I guess it was the first time she acted a coy bride blushing at mere mention of his hubby, love d this part.

LOL'certainly she is a full competition to DSP and that's what is my most fav,..lol..why do i get this feeling that u too wish for the same in ur marriage..i mean u will love to dominate ur husband ..lol.. aspect in the whole story. He chose to have dinner over drinks, okay for once I'm thankful to nakusha, indirectly it's she whom should be credited for this new development in DSP. The whole sups sequence was so balanced,..really ..happy to know that .. don't get happy I've my share of complains...ohh i began celebrating early ..ok ..so madam what do u want ..''.I wan't a lot more solid humiliation for her!...humiliation ?? how about a confrontation that is more civil and will suit tasha ..dont u think so Now, when I said balanced, I meant that DSP's take on her was exactly balanced, neither he was shown too casual, nor too agitated. Exact amount of emotion for him''good job! ...thank u ..sometimes i get a feeling that u praise me unnecessarily ..lol..

Now comes a series of heart touching conversations! Dialogues kaun si film se churaya..EXCUSE ME .😲..this ff is 100% original and writing dialogues for tasha is no big deal for me its just that they are a silent couple so dont get an opportunity to write dialogues for them that often!😛

Beach! The moment rains got discarded coz of both the leads hatred for it, I knew that a beach is on it's way..really ..thats amazing ..! But rosie, I want rains too and a song asap *pouts*..rains , song , romance u will get everything infact more but not the way ur expecting ..and hey no pouting shouting ..only smiles .. So, coming back the sequence, aesthetic it was, but not romantic,..yup romance can wait .. and that's what I loved about it, the fact that you chose to schedule this sequence at this point of the story, where there's still a degree of aloofness between the leads. The first word which comes to our mind at the mention of beaches is romance, but there's another aspect too a beach can be a soothing element, an anti dote, ..thats exactly what i felt when i visited a beach in Goa ..it has such a calming effect on u ..and the sequence focuses on these aspect, slowly and gradually a comfort zone is forming between the two, I mean if I see 3 or 4 updates back it was hard to imagine that naku will sit back closing her eyes and resting in the presence of dutta,..yup she is getting comfortable around him , now no more adjusting of dupatta infact now dupatt is flying in the air ..lol.. now she's absolutely okay with it, I know, still there's a long distance to be covered! Aaah! A plilosophical DSP! Jaldi kahna milta hai dekhno ko!😆 I loved every dialogue right from there where she asks dutta for a outing and still dutta escaped a heart attack!😆 The conversation at the beach build up a lot suspense for dutta, I loved his reaction, the fact that he was frustrated, this is the first time this cold broody man had to act an sensitive consoling figure and he's having tough time,..and for a moment i felt that dutta has gone out of character but what to do story is like that .. the kind of impatient creature he is finding hard to hold back his urge to probe naku to let him know more about her''but he's managing things perfectly. I must praise you rose, even this time we got to witness a DSP lot more softer than he usually is yet he is DSP!..u seriously think he is dutta ..m having doubts

Thank you for making her not wear that saree, OMG! If instead of dupatta her saree's pallu would have laned onto his headrofl poor aish wuld have collapsed out of shock ....nahinn! pata nahin aaj kya ho jata.Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Now, an important mention, the golgappas, yummy'I loved the sequence esp. the fact that she had .. But that's not why I'm mentioning it so precisely. It's because you chose to show DSP some one not interested in having golgappas, seriously some how, the idea of men esp. those alpha men personalities having golgappas don't go well with me,...word ..me too cant imagine dutta having golgappas ..and yes boy shouldnt be fond of khatta stuff ..lol.. having one or two piece is okay but relishing it is something I find hard to swallow, I know I'm weird at this issue,.no...i agree with u but that's me and thank you for not making DSP have those, else it would have been tough for me to imagine him, frankly speaking I would have skipped that part!..what u would have skipped my part ??????????

I need not mention what a brilliant job you're doing rosie!...brilliant ...thats really sweet of u ..thanks .. And ever since we have came back from flash back mode, the updates are becoming more and more interesting, it becomes so hard to wait for one long week for the next! Thank you for providing me this pleasure! ..the pleasure is all mine dear

Waiting for the next!❤️

Chapter 13 : Thaam le haath

Forcefully I put a few morsels of dal and roti down my throat but it wasn't long when I felt nauseated once again and ran up to my room. It was for the fifth time in the day that I'd thrown up. He left early in the morning for his meeting and since then I was visiting the washroom on a regular basis. My stomach was beginning to hurt and I sat on the couch holding it. Madhu came in hurriedly and asked," kya hua vaheni ..fir se nikal diya?" I nodded my head, she sat next to me and said," lagta hai raat ki party ke khaane mein kuch tha ..jisse apki tabiyet kharab ho gayi." I remembered having nothing at all in the party in fact last night I just had a few golgappas for which I even got glared by him and till now I'd taken out all those small and tasty golgappas along with the porridge that I had in the morning. I felt too exhausted at the moment, madhu wrapped her arm around me," vaheni main AS ko bata ti hoon ..woh apke liye koi dawai de dengi." I shook my head instantly, there was no need to disturb her, I would be fine in some time and said," main thodi der araam kar lungi toh theekh ho jaungi." She didn't argue and stood up to leave but stopped on seeing me adjust the cushions on the couch," aap yahan kyun so rahe ho..wahaan bed par araam karo." Biting my lower lip I glanced at the bed and wondered how could I sleep on his bed? And at the same time I couldn't tell her either, what we shared remained behind the closed doors of this room. I stood up and replied," haan ..main wahin jaa rahi thi." She smiled and left the room, I shut the door and went back to the couch.

We both went to a nearby nursing home, there was a long queue of patients waiting to visit the physician. Sitting on the bench patiently I looked around and spotted aayi, she was a few meters away from us on the opposite bench, our eyes met and she hurriedly came to me leaving supriya tai outside the gynaecologist's room.

" nakku, tu yahan kya kar rahi hai?" she asked worriedly. I held her hand and replied calmly," kuch nahin..aayi ..woh peth mein thoda sa dard hai aur halka sa bukhar hai ." in the mean time a nurse passing by recognized me and madhu, she at once urged me," arey vaheni ..aap line mein kyun lagi hain ..aap aayiye main abhi doctor ko dikhati hoon." I smiled and nodded a no," nahin main apni baari ka intezar karegi." All the respect that I was getting today was because of him and everyone in patil vadi showed that respect not out of fear but out of love, I glanced at tai, hope she got the message. Lowering her eyes She stood up carefully and took a step probably to meet me but was stopped by the ward boy who informed her that her turn had come. I looked at aayi and gestured her to accompany tai.

Closing my eyes, clutching my stomach I leaned my head against the wall behind and recalled the brief conversation that I had with aayi last night. It surprised me a bit on seeing how easily my parents had forgotten what tai had done. The news of their becoming grandparents might have cooled down their temper, also being a mother how long could she have stayed annoyed with her daughter. They had buried the hatchet and wished me to do the same by attending her baby shower which aayi was planning to organize next month. I'd refused point blank, there was no way that I would attend her baby shower. Her pregnancy did make me happy and I would have thought of being a part of that celebration had she been regretful of her acts, but clearly she wasn't. It was easier for others to let bygones be bygones but not for me, coz I'd witnessed what he'd gone through because of her, his pain, his anguish couldn't be condoned so easily. I'd told aayi about the conversation that we had the other day, hoping that this might make her realize the extent of bitterness tai still had against him even though he wasn't at fault. But aayi thought otherwise and suggested that I should instead take her words as her concern for her little sister. I'd shaken my head in disagreement, there was no point in arguing with her, she wasn't willing to understand my perspective and when tai had joined her, I preferred to leave. In the huge crowd with my family around all of a sudden I'd started to feel so lonely, there was nobody to support and understand me. No wonder the whole atmosphere had become heavy and suffocating for me to stay there so I'd asked him to take me out. Madhu pressed my hand and said," chalein vaheni..humari baari aa gayi?" her voice brought me out of my reverie and I opened my eyes.

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Taking the medicines along with a glass of juice I decided to take a nap. But it wasn't long when the feeling of sickness in my stomach came back and I wished to throw up once again. Coming out of the washroom I began sweating profusely, may be my blood pressure was dropping, still somehow I managed to reach the couch and sat on it holding my head which was aching badly. I was feeling worse when he returned from work in the evening.

"kya hua tujhe..aise kyun baithi hai?" he asked in surprise.

" subha se tabiyet theekh nahin hai..peth aur sir mein dard hai..ulthi (vomiting) bhi ho rahi hai."

" kal tujhe intne golgappe nahin khane chaiye the." He said softly after a moment which surprised me, I thought he will scold me for being careless about my health but his tone was low and concern filled, had I been in his place I would have surely gone after him for not taking care of himself. I nodded my head, yeah maybe I shouldn't have had them.

" doctor ko dikhaya?..dawai li koi?"

" hmm li thi ..lekin juice ke saath woh bhi nikal gayi." I wasn't able to digest anything , not even the medicines. With lot of effort I stood up on my feet as I felt like vomiting again, he came close to help me but I said," main chali jayegi." I did go but didn't know that coming back would be such a big problem. With no energy left, my eye lids began to drop, the whole room seemed to fall into darkness and I called out " sahab" before collapsing. I thought I'll touch the floor instead I felt his strong arms holding me and the next moment he lifted me in his arms, through my half closed eyes, I saw his worried face and faintly heard him calling my name out. He placed me on the bed slowly and I left the collar of his kurta which I'd held in my fist. He stroked my head and said," tu chinta mat kar ..main abhi doctor ko bulata hoon." I sighed deeply before murmuring," sahab aapke rehte mujhe kya chinta?" seriously I had nothing to worry about when he was by my side and soon exertion took over me and I dozed off.

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Some time later I opened my eyes and saw AS sitting next to me caressing my head, I gave her weak smile and turned my neck to find a drip attached to my vein. I raised my eyes and spotted a glucose bottle hanging on a pole.

" ghabrane ki koi baat nahin hai..tujhe dawai glucose mein daal kar de rahe hain…doctor ne kaha hai thode din ghar ka halka (light) khana khayegi aur araam karegi toh bilkul theekh ho jayegi." AS said seeing my creased forehead. I lifted myself to sit up leaning my back against the pillow behind. My eyes travelled across the room, he was standing near the window with his hands in the pocket. My closed palm felt something, opening it I found the button of his kurta, maybe I'd clutched his collar really hard. I kept the button on the side table.

" main madhu ko kehti hoon woh tere liye abhi soup le kar aati hai." Saying so AS moved to get up but he came forward and said," main bol kar aataa hoon." It was close to dinner time when madhu came up with the bowl of soup, AS lifted the spoon to feed me, I glanced at him and he blinked his eyes before I parted my lips to have the soup. After finishing half the bowl my stomach again started paining slightly and because of the sedatives I began to feel drowsy," bus AS aur nahin piya jayega." I said, she gave me an understanding look and got up to leave before saying," tu so jaa..kisi cheez ki zaroorat ho toh bula lene."

I gazed at my right hand where the drip was attached, the bottle was now empty and I thought of removing it. Bringing my left hand I tried to remove the bandage when he hurriedly came up to me. He held my hand and pulled the bandage carefully then asked," lagi toh nahin?" I shook my head, how could he ever hurt me. My hand stayed in his for some time till I slipped it back slowly. I brought my legs down to get up when I heard him say," aaj tu yahin so ja." I nodded a no and said," nahin ..main wahan.." before I could complete myself he cut me and said firmly," main tujhse pooch nahin raha..tujhe bataa raha hoon." I didn't have the energy to argue with him so gave into his wish. Resting my head on the pillow he covered me with comforter, switched on the lamp on my side and went to the couch to sleep.

Couple of hours later I woke up when my stomach rumbled, thankfully it wasn't hurting anymore on the contrary I was feeling really hungry. Getting off the bed I walked towards the door but stopped midway on seeing the way he was sleeping on the couch which was far too small for his height. I smiled at the way he had curled his body to fit in that couch, still his head was dropping. Lifting his head carefully I placed a cushion underneath it, my gaze halted at his face, even though he was in discomfort, his face was calm and serene. I sat on the floor rested my arm on the table to support my leaning head and watched him silently. This was for the first time that I was seeing or should I say admiring him from such close proximity and that was only possible because his eyes were shut. His sharp and intense gaze don't allow me to look into his eyes and follow me everywhere, in fact there are times when I have to drop my eyes to prevent him from reading them. What my lips refuse to say my eyes say and sometimes I feel he hears what they say but fails to interpret them correctly, there's always this confusion in his mind to know clearly what's on my mind, no wonder last night at the beach he couldn't stop himself from asking me the reason behind my pain. Like always my lips were sealed but my eyes didn't support my silence and became teary. I don't share my past with him because I don't want him to get upset coz of me, he has gone through a lot in life and deserves only happiness, if I cant bring a smile on his face then I don't wish to bring tears in eyes either, I explained myself. Last night seeing me turn bitter he desired to change my perspective towards life, towards myself , his eyes urged me to be happy. For a moment I'd felt guilty for hiding my past from him, as a husband he had every right to know about it more so when he himself had not hidden anything from me and that made my eyes turn moist. His undying concern and care for me had made me go weak in front of him for the first time. I'd hated myself for making him suffer because of me. All along the six months that we'd spent together I'd wished that he came out of his past and refrained himself from stepping into mine. I didn't and still don't want him to get emotionally attached to me but with each passing day he is attempting to cover the distance between ourselves and I don't know how to stop him.

Sighing deeply I got up to leave to the kitchen when his right hand dropped in his sleep. I lifted his hand to keep it by his side, the same hand that subu tai wanted me to hold on forever because she thought that this hand will lead me to the way of happiness, the same hand which he'd outstretched last night not just to make me stand but also to step out of my past and walk into my present which as per him is not that unpleasant as I make it out to be. I freed my hand from his grip and went out silently thinking that after returning I will ask him to go back to his bed.

Switching on the light near the stair case, I stepped down and had barely reached the hall when the power went off and it became pitch dark. I clutched my dupatta firmly and strained my eyes to look around but failed to see things clearly. Stranded in the middle I couldn't go back nor move ahead. Beads of perspiration started to form on my forehead as I began breathing heavily. The clouds thundered outside bringing back the memories of that fateful rainy night. I can face my fear of darkness and for that I only need to reach the kitchen and find a candle, I told myself. Gulping the lump in my throat I concentrated as to where I was standing and how far was kitchen from there. Just a few steps and I would reach the kitchen, little bit of light was coming from a far away window which I needed to follow. I began walking slowly trying to maintain my balance when all of a sudden lightning struck hard, startling me and I stumbled on one of the dining chairs. Thankfully I didn't fall but when I felt a strong grip on my shoulder I screamed. Turning around I began struggling with the person hysterically who was attempting to hold me.

" nakku …nakku main hoon..kya ho gaya hai tujhe?" I heard him ask in shock and whispered " sahab" before throwing my arms around his neck. I clung on to him tightly as if my life depended on him and sobbed on his shoulder. He held me close and said softly in my ear," ghabra mat ..main hoon nah." Sometime later I moved back, he brought his hand up and wiped off my tears before asking," kya hua aur tu yahan kya kar rahi hai?" I licked my dry lips and replied," mujhe ..mujhe bhookh lag rahi thi..neeche aayi aur tabhi light chali gayi."

He cursed the guards for not doing anything to resume the power," fuse udd gaya hoga ..main laga deta hoon..par mombatti (candle) kahan hai?"

" kitchen ki uppar wali shelf mein." I told him.

" theekh hai tu yahin baith ..main abhi aata hoon." He said pulling out a chair for me to sit. I grabbed the sleeve of his kurta and said," nahin main akele nahin rahegi ..apke saath jayegi." No way was I going to stay back alone so went with him to the kitchen to get the candle and then to the courtyard where the electricity meters were put up, all the time holding his arm. He opened the fuse box as I held the candle for him, tonight I just couldn't stop myself from gazing at him. His face glowed under the candle light and I could watch him like this the whole night. He is my true light, he is the one who dispels the darkness around me, the hot molten wax fell on my thumb and I hissed in pain. He turned his neck immediately and asked while removing the wax from my thumb," dard ho raha hai?" I nodded my head slightly, It pained me to see how is feelings towards me were changing, the emotions that were floating in his eyes made me guilty for not accepting and reciprocating the same. His deep affection was melting me from inside, which hurt me. I was annoyed with myself for getting pulled towards him when I knew clearly that some things are not meant for me then why was I even thinking of challenging my destiny? He blew off the candle that I was holding and I realized that darkness had vanished , there was light around once again.

We walked back to the kitchen, he opened the refrigerator to find something for me to eat," doctor ne kaha hai kuch halka khaana hai …toh.." he said while looking into the refrigerator but failed to find anything suitable then asked, "toast? ..toast khayegi?" I nodded a yes, he placed 2 slices of bread in the toaster while I picked up the butter box to butter the slices. A minute later the slices popped up and I buttered them slowly then kept one slice on the plate and pushed it slightly in his direction. He stared at me for a few seconds before picking it up. While having the bread I lifted my eye lids and glanced at him, his eyes caught me and he asked softly," ab theekh hai tu?" I replied," hmm." But couldn't stop myself from thinking, why are things changing between us? Why are emotions changing into a shade which is not acceptable to me? I have only pain and tears to offer you, I cant give you back what you are showering on me neither do I wish to give you false hopes, I wanted to say all this and parted my lips but before I could speak he himself asked while wiping off the butter at the corner of my mouth with his thumb," kuch kehna chahti hai?" I gulped and then replied back," sahab ..aur nahin khaana." His eyes twinkled may be he knew that I'd lied to him, nevertheless he didn't question me again and I don't know why I didn't have the courage to tell him the truth, may be I was scared to break his heart, may be I couldn't bear to see him getting hurt or maybe I just wanted to enjoy this moment where we for the first time shared a meal together, where for the first time we were physically , emotionally and mentally together.

A while later we went back to the room silently, hand in hand. He held mine or I held his I don't know, he supported me on his own or I leaned on him I don't know, I was moving towards him or he was pulling me I don't know. Only thing I knew was that willingly or unwillingly our incomplete stories were beginning to merge and I could do nothing about it.

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