Anam cara is an Irish Language term meaning "soul friend."
"The anam cara was a person to whom you could reveal the hidden intimacies of your life. This friendship was an act of recognition and belonging. When you had an anam cara, your friendship cut across all convention and category. You were joined in an ancient and eternal way with the friend of your soul."
this OS is for my jaani Jazzy and my Riyasatians
hope u all like it
After yet another eventful day I sat there with my companion Drinks! Who helped in my thick and thins 'I made plain drink for myself..as the rough liquid passed through my throat I felt at peace 'and my thoughts drifted back to the happening in the day..woho! it was indeed a stressful day with manyata and her heart wrenching acts 'manyata.. I shook my head to keep my thought away from her, which will lead to yet another battle between my heart and mind..i already have enough for the day 'I closed my eyes and rested my head on the couch'and my mind started playing its very own movie..MY life!! Which is a roller coaster ride everyday..every minute
And my train of thoughts stopped a its very favorite junction..my childhood'.days when I was just a kid..hmm normal kid to be precise..away..very far away from politics'and loneliness where..the only things hurted me was my broken toys and my dear frenemy manyata..we were best of frends..and also enemies..yes enemies'.at the age when didn't even knew wat it meant to be enemy we consider ourselves as each others enemies..and for wats..TOYS!! jees..we consider each other enemies for the sake of toys'golden days..an unknown smile crept over my face..that was the best days of my life..but we cudnt live without each other..it was our routine to meet every morning and spend whole day with each other..where our elders where busy with themselves..them being busy didn't bother us much..as we were pretty busy with our little fights and our nagging nanny who opposed to every single we actually wanted to do " rajkumar jii wo nahi kijiye" " rajkumari jii aapke hath kharab hojayege" as if we actually cared but still we had to take care to minor things..coming from a prestigious family costs u your childhood..I realized late very late'.a day filled with fun ,fight and again reunion and looking over for the next even before the day ends.
After bidding bye to manyata..i ran to my room to freshen up..as this was my fathers strict rule I shouldn't be roaming about the palace in these dirty clothes ..Well my clothes weren't as much dirty as my father considered it..Elders are strange..after getting freshen up..i ran to my mother with my nagging nanny following me with her daily rant "rajkumar ji dhere" I ran and hugged my mother..though she looked fat..but she was the prettiest woman..next comes aunty komal.. "udayveer aap aagaye..aapne kuch khaya??" my mother showed her concern caressing my cheek "mummum I had my cheese sandwich already" " good boy..ab batao aap daudte huwe kyun aaye..dad dekhlete toh daant padti na"
I gave an irritating look to nanny.. "sharda aap jaiye" ordered my mother to nanny'. " mummum this nanny is very bad she says u doesn't love me..and ur are bringing another child for urself..u really don't love me?? " she asked me to sit on the bed..and sat just beside me " kaun kehte hai hum aapse pyaar nahi karte hum aapse dhair saar pyaar karte hai.." kitna?? I asked curiously ..she stretched her arms wider and "itna.." I hugged her.. "so don't get this new kid..u love me ,I love u ..and this new kid will not love u " she laughed " nahi beta aisa nahi hum aapke liye ek dost la rahey hai..jisey aap khel sakte hai.."
I thought for few minutes and then said " I already have one frend..manyat..so now u don't get this new kid"'. " par manyata to aapki dost nahi..yeh toh aap hi ne kaha tha..kal" "mummum wo toh kal kaha tha par aaj manyata meri best frend hai..and now I don't want any new frend..manyata ko bhi accha nahi lagega..so don't bring this new kid..and u know what this new kid will take away all my toys and also manyata "
"Uday beta ye hum jo aapke liye new frend la rahey hai na..wo aapki chota bhai ya behan hogi.." I again thought for few seconds.. "mummum let the kid be sister no brother'brothers are very bad" "ye aapse kisne kaha??" "wo humare dost hai na rajdeep unhone kaha..and also vijay banna is no good he always fights with manyata" " okay ..aapki behan ..jab aapki behan aayegi aap unse khel sakte ho aur aapko unka dhyaan rakhna hoga.. warna sharda unhe bhi daantegi..aur dad bhi..aap dhyaan rakhoge na"
Sharda never let me do things wat I actually wish to do..i wont let her boss over my little sister.."promise mummum I will take care of my sister..hmm manyata will also take care of my sister.." mummum smiled at me..few days later I and manyata were playing with swords..not real one's though..i accidently hit on her back leaving a bleeding back..i really felt bad for manyata..more than her I was the person who was crying..okay I was a kid at that time and kids are suppose to cry..it was the time when my mummum told me " jab humein kisi ki takleef se takleef ho toh iska ye matlab hai ki hum apne kiye par guilt hai..aur aapne to ye jaan bujh kar nahi kiya na..udaybeta,.." "mummum still manyata was bleeding and she have a big scar on her back ..and also she is in pain.." I and my mummum went to see manyata next day..
Manyata wasn't leaving aunty komal's side "manyat..m really sorry".manyata wasn't ready to listen me or any1'she was a stubborn kid from childhood..ohh she never grown up.."aunty komal m really sorry..main tumhe apni saari toys dunga and also my choti" "maa mujhe uday k toys nahi chahiye "
I felt really bad I was being with her silence and ignorance..i left all my toys and ran out of her roomshe came running behind me "uday..dont leave me alone we are friends forever" "manyata aap hi mujse baat nahi kar rahi thi na.." "im sorry uday" "its okay manyat" "we will share our toys and also ur choti "
There were two ladies smiling at our on off friendship..two days later there was a grand pooja at devgarh palace'.i and manyata were important people in that pooja..dadisaab did our tika..i don't know y ,but I I really felt nice with manyata on my side'.after pooja was done we were being introduced to people from other raaj parivars..manyata was absent throughout the function'.aunty komal looked tensed when she came ruuning to uncle brij and dadisaab "manyata rajmahal main nahi hai" everyone was shocked hearing this'aunty komal was in tears..and mummum was on her side and dad on uncle brij side..and I should be on..manyata's side..i went to aunty komal and asked where manyata is..??
And again aunty komal was in tears.. "uday beta manyata ajjaiyegi" said my mummum..but we couldn't find manyat for many days..and the atmosphere was gloomy in both the palace we used to spend most of the time at devgarh palace..that was the time when I got closed to dadisahab..aunty komal was unusually silent and manyat wasn't been seen around'.stupid manyata she didn't tell me she was going..if not I would have accompanied her'.here im alone and manyat is also definitely alone'I asked mummum "mummum will manyata ever come back??" " manyat zaroor wapis aayenge..hum sabk liye.."
"mummum why cant she see we all are waiting to see her and aunty komal is crying all the time for her.."
"who dekhti hai aur samjhti bhi hai beta..bas kuch aur waqt lagega par wo zaroor aayenge dadisaab,uncle brij,aunty komal k liye" "aur humare lliye??" "haan aapke liye..wo aapki best friend haina" "haan mummum she my best friend..i promise when she comes back I wont fight with her..and never let any pain come near her..promise" mummum hugged me ,I felt she had tears in her eyes..
Few days later mummum wasn't well and aunty komal was taking care of me'.when asked where my mummum is aunty komal replied "aapki mummum aap k liye aapki choti lane gayi hai" ohh that means mummum will bring my choti ..aunty komal smiled and nodded at me ..same day aunty komal tok me to hospital I was the happiest person firstly I'll get to meet my mummum and and my choti ..i wished manyata was here with me sharing my happiness'.i saw my mummum with a small id in her arms..that was a beautiful moment..aww my choti is beautiful just like my mummum'.i kept looking at my choti with aww..she was too small.. she had tiny hands and legs.. I kept smiling at her every act..i did not like when she cried..my mummum and aunty komal were smiling at us ..
Few days later I was always busy with my choti I never had time to think about anything else..i never knew my mummum's health was weakening day by day..one day she called me near her.. "uday bet..hum aapse kuch klahenge aap humari baat manoge na.." "sure mummum" " agar hum aapse door jayenge to aap apni choti kakhayal rakhoge na??" "mummum y will u go away from us?? I and choti both will accompany u " " na beta ..the place where im going..i cannot take u both there " her voice cracking with every word.. and also she was in tears "mummum why do say so..i will accompany u..first manyata didn't took me along and now u want to leave me alone as well??" " nahi beta hum aapko apne saath nahi le ja sakte ..aap mummum k acche bte ho na..mummum k best friend..aap apni mummum ki baat manoge na" I can never say no to my mummum " haan mummum I will take acre of my choti..but promise me u will always be there with me " " promise beta" she hugged me tight ..that was the llast time she hugged me..
Present
I felt tears pricking corner of my eyes.. "mummum u promised to be with me always'.manyata came back..but im still alone" I felt my mummum caressing my hair "uday beta im always with you'.manyata did came back and she will be your best friend but for that u have to fulfill your promise..never fight with her and never let pain come near her" "mummum I try it every day..but manyata fails to understand my concern, friendship and my love .." " she will understand ur concern and love one day..she will have to'.because ur the best for her and she is best for u.." "mummum will she ever love me?? " "yes beta she loves u ..par thoda waqt lagega..pyaar k liye jitna hum intezaar karenge utna hi gehra pyaar hota hai " she smiled..i opened my eyes and did not find mummum any where'but like everytime she left a ray of hope for me..my mummum ,my soul friend .
~shab😊
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