Awaarapaan Banjarapaan...

Hello Everyone!

I have one solution to relieve ourselves of the torture we are being made to go through… Ram! If I can have my way I will ensure Ram doesn't turn up for shooting for another week atleast😕. I am ready to do anything it takes to keep Ram away from Jai… from puncturing his car to kidnapping him… ANYTHING! I seriously need a break from Ks… It has been a highly emotionally charged week… and the makers and esp Ram has kept up the intensity of the show… it leaves u drained when you are supposedly watching it for the sake of entertainment😕! Am I glad or what that the weekend is here… atleast 2 days of break!

Today's Episode left me numb… esp Jai and Aditya's scene😭. And then they have to follow it up with Jai's monologue Back to back! It really couldn't have got more heavy with emotions…😭

I am still confused as to where Bani is staying? Pia-Pushkar's house or Pushkar's guest house? If she is at the guest house has Pia-Pushkar moved in with her?😕 If Bani is at the guest house and Pia-Pushkar in their house then what was Pia doing loitering around the two houses in her night suit?😆

Bani thinks Jai took away her everything and even the reason for her to live. She hates him but more that she is ashamed of still loving him😭. Bani, it feels really sad to hear that from a person how has been an epitome of unconditional Love. How can u insult the same by saying u are ashamed of it? Love is in itself far to divine to demean it. Having someone to love so unconditionally is in itself a blessing. There are so many people who are loved but are deprived of that ONE special person who they can love and cherish for a life time. Why do u want to look far… look at Jai, There are so many people who love him… Roshini, Sonali, You… but he never had someone who he could love with depth of his heart and soul until he found his soulmate in you. We crib about having lost our love and missing them… but what we don't realize is that we are lucky there is someone that special who is worth all that love and pain in our lives. For your sake Bani, don't demean yourself by being ashamed of your ability to Love and to Love Unconditionally! Your ability to Love is what makes u the most beautiful person… don't hate yourself for that. And remember you have a Baby in you who is the very symbol of that Love… and for the sake of the child's dignity and honour you have to hold this Love responsible for it with just as much of Dignity and Honour.

Now for the most heart wrenching scene of the day/week... Jai was standing with his back towards the camera…Aditya called out for him… I was not prepared to what I saw, I was thinking it would a business talk… No, it wasn't. Jai turned around and his tears were fresh and still flowing… Aditya asked 'Bahut pyar karte ho na Bani se?' I was expecting a simple 'Haan' or complete silence… but these days Jai seems to have a way with words that it simply overwhelms you. He said 'Bani se mere rista Akelepan ka hai, Bebasi ka hai, Aasoon ka hai aur yeh rista pyar se kahin upar hai' Now what can you say to that? Nothing! A person like Aditya who always has a calm, controlled comforting ways of putting across his thoughts didn't have a word to say… he just hugged Jai to ease his pain… but even that was not enough to comfort to Jai's trouble heart😭.

I just fell in love with that line of Jai's. He summed up his entire relationship with Bani in that one sentence👏. 'I doesn't just love her…. but I shares every emotion that i feel with her and Love is just a part of it' is what Jai said. There is a Jai Walia the world knows, but there is a Jai who Jai keeps under covers… his fear factor is his perfect armour… no one manages to breach through it. Remember the image of Jai Walia when he appeared on the screen of the 1^st time. He came across a Powerful, Arrogant, Royal Aristocrat who sat back gauging the 3 sisters and their intensions almost intimidating them. One look at him and u will bet every penny on the fact that this man cant be lonely, helpless or on the fact that this man would have ever cried. That was the Jai Walia the world knew… and then there was a Jai that only Bani, Massi and to an extent Aditya knew. A Jai who was lonely… Massi and Aditya were always there to support him… but it was Bani with whom he shared that space. He allowed himself to be vulnerable and helpless with her around… and not for once did he feel awkward of showing his emotions to her. He never masked his pain or helplessness from Bani… his display of emotions were as raw and strong as he felt them. She endured them along with him. Their relationship was truly what they call 'Dard ka Rista'. To love is easy, but to connect to a person's pain, understand and relate to it is difficult… coz it needs a lot of endurance of not only ur pain but the person's pain as well, a lot of compassion and lot of selflessness. It this what puts such a relationship on a higher platter. And Bani was all that for Jai… she shared his inner most emotions of fear, defeat, loneliness, helplessness… it feels really good that Jai has realized it. On the other hand even Jai has been such a support system to Bani… though at times he was the very reason for all the pain that she went through… but he has been there.

Bani wants a job to support her and her kid… and she is off for an interview! The interview was quite funny in that sense. But loved Bani's stand👏. Couldn't help but smile at the number of times she mentioned 'mere Pati'😳! She still wont hear anything against her husband, will she? Those creeps deserved that dose from Mrs. Walia😡. Btw I cant stop grinning when she what she was expected to do would be the death of her 'Wajood, Identity and character' Lets hear it for Mrs. Walia. She did admit that her wajood and identity was Mrs. Bani Walia. She wouldn't tarnish the character and dignity of her identity, her name👏. She wont betray Jai's trust (or that of anyone else… can we ignore that? I assume I heard only Jai😳😆) even for all the riches of the world. Apse yehi umeed te Mrs. Walia.

God this Pia is forever confusing! She is good aslong as he keeps her nose away from Jai-Bani's affairs. I wonder if the fact that the Mt Abu project fiasco even affected her remotely? She was more worried about the over budget of the party. Pia wants to work and Pushkar is fine with it. Why am I so surprised that Pia asked for Pushkar's permission? She found an ad for a PRO or event management job and called up that place… the last date of interview was today… so she is all set to attend it. Now why on earth do I think it is the same place Bani went to? Will those creeps use Pia to get inside info? Don't ask me how pia can get access to the information. But it rally doesn't make sense that both Bani and Pia go for an interview the same day! And since Bani does have a experience in hotel management… profile must be something similar… so that does mean… I don't know! I just felt so. 😕

Yeh hero wapas agaya😡! He was sat with a drink in his hand and lost in Bani's thoughts… happy ones and then followed by the sad ones. He gulped down another glass as 'Ab tho adath se hai mujhko aise jeene mein' played in the backdrop😭. He was waiting for Ranveer. Ranveer walked in his confident self. The minute Jai said 'aao bheto' in his cold. Commanding voice… u could see Ranveer's confidence being rattled. Jai asked him if that was his sign, Ranveer said yes. And Jai just said 'Tho deal cancel kardo' Ranveer knew the game was over… but he tried for the last time to convince Jai by saying they will sue him, and moreover they have bought the property for 45 crores . Jai was not interested… 'Mujhe wo makaan jaise ta, waisa hi jahiye. Unhe 50 crores ka offer do' Ranveer dared to interrupt again… with threatening finality Jai said "JUST DO IT!" Ranveer meekly agreed and left. 👏

Hmmm, I knew it wont be a big deal for Jai to handle this situation… but I didn't want to see him use his money power. But then given his mental condition… there was nothing else Jai could have thought of. I gave him one hour time to deal with it… he was finished in 2 mins! I am totally impressed Mr. Jai Walia😳. Btw when am I not???? 😆 I dont trust Ranveer to give up so easily... but then i know Ranveer is no fool to want to mess with Jai on this front and risk being disowned!

After Ranveer left, the room was filled with silence Jai walked to the window and the song broke the silence 'Ab tho adath se hai mujhko aise jeene mein' It was similar to the day Jai came home drunk and Bani was in his room.

It was time for some more introspection of his emotions😕. Jai wonders why he is feeling so much of hatred and anger for himself after Bani left. He says even though Bani broke his heart why is he not able to forget her. (Duffer what kind of a stupid question is that? Why r u thinking of forgetting her😡???) He says Pia broke his heart, but with Bani gone his faith and trust is broken. Pia broke his heart??? I chose to disagree, she just bruised his ego! But for him, bani is a part of himself… he doesn't mean to say that Bani broke the trust that he had on her… she was the trust and faith he had on himself… that is broken and that is what has broken this man! He doesn't have a sense of self anymore… he is devoid of his peace… he comes across so restless. 😭

Awaarapaan Banjarapaan Ek Hala Hai Sine MeinHar Dam Har Pal Bechaini HaiKaun Bhala Hai Seene MeinIs Dharti Par Jis Pal Suraj
Roz Savere Ugta Hai
Apne Liye To Thik Usi Pal
Roz Dhala Hai Seene Mein😭Jane Yeh Kaisi Aag Lagi Hai
Is Mein Dhua Na Chingari
Ho Na Ho Us Par Kahin Koi
Khwaab Jala Hai Seene Mein😭 Jis Raste Par Tapta Suraj
Sari Raat Nahi Dhalta
Ishq Ki Aise Raha Guzar Ko
Hum Ne Chuna Hai Seene Mein
Kahan Kise Ke Liye Hai Mumkin
Sab Ke Liye Ek Sa Hona😕
Thoda Sa Dil Mera Bura Hai
Thoda Bhala Hai Seene MeinAwaarapaan Banjarapaan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein

He said "bani ke aane se zindai ka akelapan dur hogaya tha, lekin uske jaate hi wo akelapan wapas aya hai. Ab ehsaas huha hai ke insaan duniya mein akela aata hai, akela hi chala jata hai. Kehne ke liye itna asaan hai, lekin use samajna utna hi muskil and usko jeena use bhi mushkil"(something to similar effect) He walks upto the photo on the table and picks it up. It is his and Bani's snap. He wonders who did bani come so close to him, when she was never his. Just look at that snap… no wonder he said that. He was holding Bani so close and it looked so perfect…when in reality they thought they were faking happiness for Massi's sake!

"Kaisa yeh pyar hai' he wondered looking at that snap and contemplated if it was coz of the attachment he feels for the kid. His Own kid…for the 1^st time someone he can call his own… someone who is his 'Apna' and he finally realized that this kid was the only link that will get back Bani into his life.

I was wondering what nonsense was he talking when he said this is the 1^st time he will have someone he can call his own… then I understood. The relationships he has in life till date have been on a compromise basis. I mean to say… look at Massi, she is the mother figure in his life, loves him just like mother… but then she is not his mother. Bani is the best that has happened to him… but there again, it wasn't a matter of choice… it was circumstances that got her into his life and they worked through their relationship to make it a success. (When I say success I don't mean a happy relationship. The mere fact that the two of them are shattered to be away from eachother is proof enough of the fact that they did have a heart warming relationship) Then there was Pushkar, Ranveer, sahil and Anu… they were all like his kids, but all of them broke his trust… and he found himself questioning if he did have any right over them in the 1^st place😕. This kid will be HIS… the 1^st time a relationship that he will bind him naturally and with all the right… no doubt this kid is that bit more special for Jai.

I was wondering Jai has all the support system, he has Massi, Aditya and yes Rano, Pushkar, rashi are on his side aswell and not to mention his fanclub her. What about Bani... she is all alone. That is when i realised we want her happiness too... but she is against her own happiness coz of which she is on the other side. Jai is a part of the Jai-Bani camp and so are all the others... but Bani is against the JB camp coz of which we are against her. Bani cross over fast... u really are lossing big time😕😆

Ok, did I actually finish the analysis? I seriously had my doubts when I was seeing the episode… but I decided to do it and take a break for the next 36 hours till Jai returns to make my life miserable! Btw I am serious about stopping Ram from going for the shoot😕!

Though it was a quite a depressing episode… have to hand it over to the makers, creatives and the directors for an amazing, captivating, overwhelming episode👏. A special mention to the dialogue writers who are penning down some exquisite, heartwrenching dialogue for your grief struck hero👏. And Ram, Hey Ram! He had me wishing he wasn't a good actor… well that was how good he was today👏😕! Prachi… she was ok, she has this far away look coz of which I really not able to sympathize with Bani's character.😕

That's it from me… see u around. Have a wonderful weekend

Lots of Luv and Hugs

Anu.

aah finally something good to think over the weekend after a series of depressing episodes.....Ram has made all of us cry all week.....god not one episode that he has not cried and not made us cry.....

I really need a break and i agree to Anu....am i happy or what that finally weekend is here....

btw did i say to you Anu ... great analysis as usual 😊 thanks for the soothing effect that this has brought and the song selection and title selection.....i am not sure if you would believe...but i just heard that song and thought of Jais todays dialogues to Aditya and himself....I am playing Jism and rog songs all evening today....what a coincidence....

Very insightful perspective. Could bear to watch it only for JW monologues(very depressing)/dialogues and his above par emoting./CAT

I think the way the story is affecting the viewers emotionally as a measure of the sucess of the soap...but do not brood over it too much..I am sure Prachi and Ram are enjoying their weekend and so should all of u!!

Cant say that for myself coz my weekend just ended here in UAE and its back to work.. 😭 😭

Thanks Anushka for doing this. It is a wonderful analysis and thank you so much for clarifying and explaining the last scene - Jai's introspection and his monologue. Did not know how to take it after reading the update. But your analysis put it in the proper perspective.

As I have said before if Jai Walia ever needs an advocate it is you.

Cheers and have a nice weekend,

Pinky

Hi Anushka

(but it was Bani with whom he shared that space. He allowed himself to be vulnerable and helpless with her around… and not for once did he feel awkward of showing his emotions to her. )

The reverse is also true. Bani has probably shared more of her private thoughts with Jai than any other person including her sisters- in fact almost from the day of their marriage.

I have often wondered why this has been so? What made them open up to each other so easily when they so rarely open up to others, except maybe Bani to rano to some extent? Is it just that Fate has destined them to be each others life partners or is there something else?

How I wish Jai had fallen for Bani rather than that stupid Pia. But would their love stories have touched us as much.

Rgds

Priyanka

Just Wow Anu! Today's Analysis was exceptional! You put your thoughts very very well! Thanks.👏👏👏

Originally posted by: anushka_5

Hello Everyone!

God this Pia is forever confusing! She is good aslong as he keeps her nose away from Jai-Bani's affairs. I wonder if the fact that the Mt Abu project fiasco even affected her remotely? She was more worried about the over budget of the party. Pia wants to work and Pushkar is fine with it. Why am I so surprised that Pia asked for Pushkar's permission? She found an ad for a PRO or event management job and called up that place… the last date of interview was today… so she is all set to attend it. Now why on earth do I think it is the same place Bani went to? Will those creeps use Pia to get inside info? Don't ask me how pia can get access to the information. But it rally doesn't make sense that both Bani and Pia go for an interview the same day! And since Bani does have a experience in hotel management… profile must be something similar… so that does mean… I don't know! I just felt so. 😕

This sounds fishy! Why would Bani and Pia, both, decide to take up a job the same day? I too have a feeling that perhaps Pia will go to the same firm for her interview....and they may offer her the same deal as they offered Bani...wonder what happens then😕 perhaps....🤢

Originally posted by: anushka_5

I was wondering what nonsense was he talking when he said this is the 1^st time he will have someone he can call his own… then I understood. The relationships he has in life till date have been on a compromise basis. I mean to say… look at Massi, she is the mother figure in his life, loves him just like mother… but then she is not his mother. Bani is the best that has happened to him… but there again, it wasn't a matter of choice… it was circumstances that got her into his life and they worked through their relationship to make it a success. (When I say success I don't mean a happy relationship. The mere fact that the two of them are shattered to be away from eachother is proof enough of the fact that they did have a heart warming relationship) Then there was Pushkar, Ranveer, sahil and Anu… they were all like his kids, but all of them broke his trust… and he found himself questioning if he did have any right over them in the 1^st place😕. This kid will be HIS… the 1^st time a relationship that he will bind him naturally and with all the right… no doubt this kid is that bit more special for Jai.

Thank you for that wonderful explanation there! That is soo correct! Although Jai has always been surrounded by family, he never had anyone that he could call his own! His relationship with Bani has never been steady and certain. By the time he realized that he wanted her to be his, she left him! And now comes the child, who is a part of him. This child is his, right from its conception.

Oh! Now I feel even miserable for what he is going through! 😭

TC, Jojo

Originally posted by: princessjojo

Just Wow Anu! Today's Analysis was exceptional! You put your thoughts very very well! Thanks.👏👏👏

This sounds fishy! Why would Bani and Pia, both, decide to take up a job the same day? I too have a feeling that perhaps Pia will go to the same firm for her interview....and they may offer her the same deal as they offered Bani...wonder what happens then😕 perhaps....🤢

Thank you for that wonderful explanation there! That is soo correct! Although Jai has always been surrounded by family, he never had anyone that he could call his own! His relationship with Bani has never been steady and certain. By the time he realized that he wanted her to be his, she left him! And now comes the child, who is a part of him. This child is his, right from its conception.

Oh! Now I feel even miserable for what he is going through! 😭

TC, Jojo

You amde me miserable in the process too. Poor Jai ... 😭😭😭

Missed the 1st few scenes and just started from the interview...Bani gave them a nice answer...but Prachi's eye expressions left much to be desired ! She is not the Prachi whom I know...but yes it was better from the earlier episodes !

and the last scene Jai was like ....Man JW bares his heart and it was like ..i just don't have any words to describe...the way he introspects abt his loneliness was something good...I was reminded of a few lines from a song from one title song of a old serial which used to come in Star Plus...'Tanha' was the serial name I guess..One of my fav coz of lyrics and am just writing whatever I remember !

Dekhiye to lagta hai..
Zindagi ki raahon mein ..
Ek bheed chalti hai..
sochiye to lagta hai..
bheed mein hai sab tanha..
jitne bhi yeh rishte hain..
kaanch khe khilone hai..
pal mein toot sakte hain..
Ek pal yeh ho jaaye.
aur hai woh ab tanha....

(some mistakes might have crept in sorry for that !)..somehow I was relating this song to JW yesterday !!!

It was an emotionally charged week and as anu says it was overwhelming..I guess from next week I wud prefer dashing JS back in action to get back Mrs W...no more brooding, self introspective W ....

once again a nice analysis...my fav part wud be ur analysis of the last scene ! loved reading that...

Swathi

awsome analysis Anu.... 👏
well i think for the first time Jai's introspection had clarity...he was sad... but then he has now started realising and accepting that bani and his relationship...is not a habit or need based relationship...its love... or like he said more than that too...
but i want him to stop crying... he's lost...sad...hurt but yaar yeh tears band karo... i want to see him get up... do something to win her back... i know he's trying but i'm eager to see more from his part... lets hope the next week will bring more actions and less tears...from him atleast...
bani... well ....she wants to stand up for her self... way to go girl.. 👏 ... but yeh kya... why feel ashamed of loving someone...wholeheartedly.. ab humare dil pe to kisi ka bas nahi chalta na....humara bhi nahi... i think feeling ashamed.. degrades the love itself... bani needs to get a grip of her feelings... this will take time... but please lets not stretch it tooo far...
n bani better not be wearing those heels again... 😡

Pooja