-An Ounce Of Love-AR FF//DISCONTINUED-

If you are reading this it means I have chosen to end my life. Please do not try to find me or stop me. I have made up my mind and do not wish to change it. Who am I? Where am I from? That doesn't matter as I am soon going to be nothing but a body without a soul. I have a name an identity that separates me from everyone. It helps others to identify who I am in a crowd. I loved my name once upon a time it was one of my favourite words but now when I hear my name being called I feel disgust! My ears no longer tolerate the sound of my name. I hate it! I hate my name! I wish it was never mine! I wish my parent's had named me something else! I wish I didn't have to live with it for 25 years!

I wish it had never been associated with me in anyway and maybe my life would have been different. Maybe I wouldn't have had to go through a pain so deep that it pricks at me like a thorn on a rose. Hell I wish I had never been born and I wouldn't have had to see the cruelty of this so called world. I wouldn't have had to endure a family that didn't care to even give me an ounce of love let alone care about me. I wouldn't have had to be the laughing stock in my neighborhood. I wouldn't have had to grow up with a sibling that didn't seem to see that I was there and only lived in a world that consisted of only her. I wouldn't have had to hear curses and stares from those around me. I wouldn't have had to be separated from the one man I loved more then myself. I wouldn't have had to spend my days and nights hoping that my life would turn around at any moment. But it's all soon going to end. I will be free from it forever. I will no longer have to hear my name being spoken ever again or taunts being directed towards me and I am content with that, it almost makes me happy knowing that I won't have to ever utter a word again to anyone. I know that whoever is reading this must be very concerned and desperate to know why I have chosen death. I myself never thought that one day I would chose to end a life that I treasure so dearly. A life that had begun with so much happiness and love turn into a living hell but that is a different story which is no longer worth telling as my life is now coming to a close and so I bid my life and this world a good bye and hope that as I leave this world my existence in the lives of those who knew me will fade away like a raindrop merges into the ocean and becomes one with it and disappears. As I leave I have only one request please do not cry for me or pity me there is no need and with that I bid this world adieux and embrace the arms of death.

'Riddhima

Hi! Well that was the intro to this ff. This idea/concept just came out of the blue and I just couldn't help it and so I penned it down. If it's decent and worth reading then let me know if I should continue or not.

-Tashu-

Edit: PM box inserted!