FF:MERI ADHURI KAHAANI last part pg-62& nt -64 - Page 16

nice promo cant wait to read it I hope we get to know naku past to read what happen you here and
not letting here move on with her life

hi rose

😭😆Finally I'm here!

Ch 6

Sisakti aahein, with dutta being s caring, even I'm having sisakti aahein which often goes unnoticed by you when you make dutta all "payaar mein deewana munda! "😆 Okay this was a fabulous update I have mentioned earlier too that I love to read naku's narrative, naku's character is a little bit of complex, less expressive and often gives mixed reactions, for instance, even if she's happy, there's a hint of sadness, even when sad, has a touch of sarcastic humor, and often her reactions reflects a glimpse of her unrevealed past, so whenever a incidence takes place in a story, naku's reactions often makes me curious to know the how and why behind it. Just like the handing her the studies document incident, her reaction has been read perfectly by dutta, not even a single detail of her expression got missed by him, through dutta you as a writer too managed to describe it aptly, yet a constant urge go a little more deep was felt by me, and here in this update, in the opening scene itself, you have managed to do that perfectly, I must say you are doing a brilliant job. She's wondering why he arranged for her studies, even I do, and would really love to read about it in any of dutta's narrative, hopefully! I loved where she was all getting breathless thinking about her past and raising out for help, and he entered and deviated her attention from her past, a true knight in shining armor!

LOL, the alarm sequence, but you know characters like dutta when cares often turn into dangerously caring! The whole sequence, his going back to sleep after telling her to study, her irritation, everything, it was so real, and I enjoyed every bit of it! And the scene followed next, was just superb, an example of typical men behavior, but what I found remarkable was the fact that this is first time dutta has expected something, no matter as small as keeping the watch at the table but at least something from her. Earlier, either he used to be bad to her or good to her, but for the first time he been NORMAL with her!

You know, I really like the mention of how, when dutta enters naku starts adjusting her suit or dupatta''a comfort zone is yet to be formed and shared by these two! It's nice to see naku trying to fulfill a wife's responsibility, but waiting for the day when she'll do chores for dutta not out of responsibility but something else! And, and, and just look at this thankless girl, here my sweetu is taking such a nice care of her, he even left apples for her to eat, and she is doubting her intentions, aarggh!😡

It was really sweet, of patil clan to help naku with her studies, esp. madhu, she is a mahaan aatma, man, even if dutta would have taking exams, I won't have prepared note for him. Preparing notes is not easy, apne notes bana bana ke halat tight rehti hai! But dutta caught the biggest share of attention, whatever he does for her, apart from his goodwill, it also reflects an innocent approach, a attempt to revive his youth days, I guess, I'm imagining things..lol But the best thing is that all this has left a positive effect in naku's mind, and boosted her willpower to fight!

Okay tell me, is rubbing balm is rocket science?😆 But I'm glad that for once he didn't took his asprin, he seems addicted to it. I hope in future, he reduces his dependency on tablet, I know, for this I'll have to witness many such "erotic head massage sequences" but for his well being main dil pe patthar rakh key yeh bhi bardaast kar loongi . No that was a fantastic sequence, though for once I dreaded that he might not kiss her..lol . but this sequence is something which I would like to read from dutta's pov, I mean, it was great as a part of naku's narrative too, and played a key role in moving the story further.

You wicked girl, you didn't let me imagine myself keeping head on dutta's shoulder. You made her cry in the bathroom.😡😆Fine, from nowonwards, I will imagine you in every naku and his ex's sequence😆 No seriously the bathroom was the best sequence of this update. Poor girl, life's being really harsh on her, I mean she's feeing guilty for feeling something which is her right. But somewhere I'm relieved, if she had a disgusted feeling upon dutta's touch, it would have been more difficult for them to get close! He wanted her to cry, to vent out, he did that and he didn't even know about it

Aww..he draped a shawl around her! You know what in the show, when naku did this to dutta, I had wished to witness dutta someday doing this to naku, thank you for keeping this in the story!Okay, one thing, which I find indigestible in this FF, how come naku manges to study with such concentration with dutta around, for the past 2 and a half years, I'm trying to do that and I fail, this must be a liberty you have taken!😆

Ch10:

Lovely siggie, by mimi, could have been looked more beautiful had dutta been a little away from that rose!😛Beete pal''.hmm, the title is making me curious, let's see what's in!

Suit!😲 I was expecting it to be a dutta's narrative! I think you took my interest for naku's one quite seriously'.lol. Let me tell you no one is more dearer to me than your jeeju😳.Aaah! Naku being away from him for 15 days😆. No seriously, I'm getting excited about her college re visit, may be we'll get a closer look at her past! Aww'..he bought a phone for her, what for? Dono baat hi kitna karte hain?😆 He kind of enjoys her sarcasm, or god knows, may be her sarcasm shows her a glimpse of the "lost lively naku", with whom he hadn't been introduced even.

She went, to meet her aayi, in the past four months this is the first time, I have heard her mentioning about her family, and in this ff, I have never ever seen her using her takia kalam "meri aayi kehti hai'", is there something unusual in her family? But the sequence reflected a normal mother daughter equation between them! Uff! I'm confused, and I know what's your answer gonna be'.lol So, he didn't came to drop her, (though didn't missed to warn baaji to be careful) and she was disappointed, but what I liked the most was where she reasoned with herself that even if he would have came, he wouldn't accompany her during her encounter with the past, I mean it shows that she wants to lean on dutta, hide herself behind his shield. Would like to read in dutta's narrative about this sequence, want to see, that he didn't accompany her purposefully or he didn't felt the need to do so! Okay, so the money matter is yet to settle, as you mentioned earlier, and I'm perfectly fine with it!

And finally a close look at the past. Okay before I move further ahead! I OBJECT! A girl with such yucky taste, I mean a nerd with oily hairs, who, even when a beautiful girl asks for a book, keeps a condition of having another book for it, she was interested in him and what she got? DSP, the ONE N ONLY DSP, when girls (read girl) with better taste and more eligibility were present, this is SHEER IMPARTIALITY!😭

Now coming back to the update, now would not like to comment on her love story now, will do when it'll get unfolded completely. A shawl in her luggage, who else than gadha cn do it, ek who bangles wala sadmaa kam tha, jo ab yeh bhi!OMG! Subalaxmi, I love you for keeping her, one of my favs from ltl. It's great to see someone in naku's life with whom she open's up, strange this time it's not babi. I hope subbu proves some help to naku, poor girl is suffering a lot!

Wow'the sequence you were talking about has finally arrived, and trust me it's far too better than I expected, firstly the "some one" who asks this question is not a random but subbu, a memorable character of a memorable track of the show, secondly it's followed by a SMS of dutta, which was really a touching gesture, so, the fact that she doesn't dine before didn't went unnoticed by him and most importantly the treatment, the way she has reasoned her "saab calling act", sounded so genuine, sahi hai nothing suits him more than sahab>

Finally dutta's part''so janaab is all being tybical hubby sounding total lost without wifey! Oaky, this builders meet, is this just a random backdrop used to show dutta at work, or this issue has something important to play in the story? Don't bother to answer, I know, what's the answer gonna be..lol.

Dutta toh gaya kaam se, aur mere haath se bhi,! Even at the second time, he was distracted by the broken bangle pieces, poor baaji, god knows how many times he'll have to repeat. And, OMG he collected her bangle pieces and kept it with him, this is unbelievable, you know rose, now my expectations are rising, I'm eagerly looking forward to how you actually reason this drastic change in dutta, what was it in naku that he has fallen for her to this extent in just four months, where then had hardly even spoken to to each other properly, not even shared a meal. Okay one more thing naku's look have never been mentioned, I mean the way supriya's was done in one of the initial updates, I hope someday we get to read about naku's too,

Both, the updates was too good rose, remember you have said that this time you feel, dutta acting a lot like naku and vice versa, I still feel close to this dutta, am able to relate to it, and find him in character. I've often wondered, after tasha's first marriage that if minus the betrayal factor, how would have dutta acted around naku, today I got my answer!

Thanks for the update!

Waiting for the next❤️

Rose, my much delayed comments on pg 19 in res spot. Hope u can make sense of d same as dis is my first experience wit cell .. 😉

Originally posted by: aishwish

😭😆Finally I'm here!...tears n smiles at the same time ...i hope these are khussi ke aansoo

Ch 6

Sisakti aahein, with dutta being s caring, even I'm having sisakti aahein which often goes unnoticed by you when you make dutta all "payaar mein deewana munda! "..but i thought u always imagine urself in nakku's shoes ..then why these sisakti aahein ..😆 Okay this was a fabulous update I have mentioned earlier too that I love to read naku's narrative, naku's character is a little bit of complex, less expressive and often gives mixed reactions, for instance, even if she's happy, there's a hint of sadness, even when sad, has a touch of sarcastic humor, and often her reactions reflects a glimpse of her unrevealed past, so whenever a incidence takes place in a story, naku's reactions often makes me curious to know the how and why behind it...agree with u completely , nakku's story isnt that simple so its more intriguing .. Just like the handing her the studies document incident, her reaction has been read perfectly by dutta, not even a single detail of her expression got missed by him,...see my dutta is so vigilent ..lol.. through dutta you as a writer too managed to describe it aptly,...if u say so yet a constant urge go a little more deep was felt by me,..i didnt know abt this urge of urs 😕, how come? and here in this update, in the opening scene itself, you have managed to do that perfectly, I must say you are doing a brilliant job...brilliant or not that i wont say but this ff is really taxing for me esply putting together both their pov's She's wondering why he arranged for her studies, even I do,...yaar whats the big deal in that, she likes to study n had she not been married then probably she would have been pursuing them and thats why dutta allows her to study , to divert her mind and would really love to read about it in any of dutta's narrative,..i think he has made it clear in one of his narratives earlier.. hopefully! I loved where she was all getting breathless thinking about her past and raising out for help, and he entered and deviated her attention from her past, a true knight in shining armor!...thanks a lot

LOL, the alarm sequence, but you know characters like dutta when cares often turn into dangerously caring!...seriously ..my dad sometimes tries to help mom and ends up messing things completely ..lol.. The whole sequence, his going back to sleep after telling her to study, her irritation, everything, it was so real, and I enjoyed every bit of it!..hmm me too had a grin on my face while writing it .. And the scene followed next, was just superb, an example of typical men behavior,..i swear .. but what I found remarkable was the fact that this is first time dutta has expected something, no matter as small as keeping the watch at the table but at least something from her. Earlier, either he used to be bad to her or good to her, but for the first time he been NORMAL with her!...thank god u found his behaviour NORMAL ...lol..

You know, I really like the mention of how, when dutta enters naku starts adjusting her suit or dupatta''a comfort zone is yet to be formed and shared by these two!...and i must thank u for noticing such small things and that too so rightly .. It's nice to see naku trying to fulfill a wife's responsibility, but waiting for the day when she'll do chores for dutta not out of responsibility but something else!...for that dutta should allow her to enter his domain. and that too in clear words...she still remembers how he had reacted the first morning of their marriage .. And, and, and just look at this thankless girl, here my sweetu is taking such a nice care of her, he even left apples for her to eat, and she is doubting her intentions, aarggh!😡...lol...

It was really sweet, of patil clan to help naku with her studies, esp. madhu, she is a mahaan aatma, man, even if dutta would have taking exams, I won't have prepared note for him...really u wouldnt have prepared notes for ur sweetu ?????? 😲😲😲 Preparing notes is not easy, apne notes bana bana ke halat tight rehti hai!..i know .. But dutta caught the biggest share of attention, whatever he does for her, apart from his goodwill, it also reflects an innocent approach, a attempt to revive his youth days, I guess, I'm imagining things..lol But the best thing is that all this has left a positive effect in naku's mind, and boosted her willpower to fight!

Okay tell me, is rubbing balm is rocket science?😆..YES ..it is ..it needs to be done technically and methodically to get the desired results n EFFECTS ..lol..but seriously u dont massage ur aching head on ur own ..someone else does it for u normally .. But I'm glad that for once he didn't took his asprin, he seems addicted to it...drinking leads to headache n headche leads to asprins ...though this time without drinking he's having headache.. I hope in future, he reduces his dependency on tablet, I know, for this I'll have to witness many such "erotic head massage sequences"..what 😲😲😲 am i reading right ?????..my sweet romantic head massage scene is perceived like this ?? UNBELIEVABLE .. hope the dev team doesnt read this or else i will be thrown out of the forum but for his well being main dil pe patthar rakh key yeh bhi bardaast kar loongi . No that was a fantastic sequence, though for once I dreaded that he might not kiss her.He would have certainly had u been in nakku's place ..just kidding ...lol . but this sequence is something which I would like to read from dutta's pov,..surely maam ..everybody wants to know what had made dutta do that .. I mean, it was great as a part of naku's narrative too, and played a key role in moving the story further.

You wicked girl, you didn't let me imagine myself keeping head on dutta's shoulder. You made her cry in the bathroom.😡😆Fine, from nowonwards, I will imagine you in every naku ..till here its fine ..and his ex's sequence😆 No seriously the bathroom was the best sequence of this update....aish u have this habit of 1st pulling me down n then appreciating ..lol..never mind .. Poor girl, life's being really harsh on her, I mean she's feeing guilty for feeling something which is her right. But somewhere I'm relieved, if she had a disgusted feeling upon dutta's touch,...who would have felt disgusted upon dutta's touch ??????? not me n u atleast ..lol.. it would have been more difficult for them to get close! He wanted her to cry, to vent out, he did that and he didn't even know about it..how ironic nah ?

Aww..he draped a shawl around her! You know what in the show, when naku did this to dutta, I had wished to witness dutta someday doing this to naku, thank you for keeping this in the story!..aww i love showing dutta go all caring ..thanks again Okay, one thing, which I find indigestible in this FF, how come naku manges to study with such concentration with dutta around,...see she there's a time for everything ..and she has her whole life to drool over him ..lol.. for the past 2 and a half years, I'm trying to do that and I fail, this must be a liberty you have taken!😆..with u around how can i dare to take any liberty ??? lol..

Ch10:...what ch 10 ???????? its still saved safely in my lappy ..its ch 7 my dear

Lovely siggie, by mimi,..glad someone appreciated it ..coz i LOVED IT .. could have been looked more beautiful had dutta been a little away from that rose!...dream on girl that will not happen ..just to bring to ur notice i have always said that i imagine myself in nakku's place ..right ..so in all my siggies either he is alone or he is with me i.e rose never ever with mahi/ nakku ..😛Beete pal''.hmm, the title is making me curious, let's see what's in!

Suit! I was expecting it to be a dutta's narrative! ..an imp clarification ..whenever u see only a dutta / rose siggie then assume that the narrative is of dutta/ nakku but when dutta n rose are together then the updt shall have both of their pov's .. I think you took my interest for naku's one quite seriously'.lol. Let me tell you no one is more dearer to me than your jeeju😳...no comments ..Aaah! Naku being away from him for 15 days😆...wow see the grin .. No seriously, I'm getting excited about her college re visit, may be we'll get a closer look at her past! Aww'..he bought a phone for her, what for? Dono baat hi kitna karte hain?..they will my dear ...have patience ..😆 He kind of enjoys her sarcasm, or god knows, may be her sarcasm shows her a glimpse of the "lost lively naku", with whom he hadn't been introduced even.

She went, to meet her aayi, in the past four months this is the first time, I have heard her mentioning about her family, and in this ff, I have never ever seen her using her takia kalam "meri aayi kehti hai'",..i told u nah this ff is different ...here nakku n babi dont share such a strong relation also nakku doesnt wish to burden her mom with her worries .. is there something unusual in her family? But the sequence reflected a normal mother daughter equation between them! Uff! I'm confused, and I know what's your answer gonna be'.lol So, he didn't came to drop her,...good u didnt ask ..lol.. (though didn't missed to warn baaji to be careful) and she was disappointed, but what I liked the most was where she reasoned with herself that even if he would have came, he wouldn't accompany her during her encounter with the past, I mean it shows that she wants to lean on dutta,..she wants to but is holding herself .. hide herself behind his shield. Would like to read in dutta's narrative about this sequence, want to see, that he didn't accompany her purposefully or he didn't felt the need to do so! ..there's loads of time for that ..Okay, so the money matter is yet to settle, as you mentioned earlier, and I'm perfectly fine with it!..right ..it will settle in times to come ..slowly ..

And finally a close look at the past. Okay before I move further ahead! I OBJECT! A girl with such yucky taste, I mean a nerd with oily hairs, who, even when a beautiful girl asks for a book, keeps a condition of having another book for it, she was interested in him and what she got? DSP, the ONE N ONLY DSP, when girls (read girl) with better taste and more eligibility were present, this is SHEER IMPARTIALITY!😭.. ur objection has been taken into consideration we shall deal with it later

Now coming back to the update, now would not like to comment on her love story now, will do when it'll get unfolded completely. A shawl in her luggage, who else than gadha cn do it, ek who bangles wala sadmaa kam tha, jo ab yeh bhi!OMG!..u r such a dramebaaz ..i tell u cant see my dutta showing some concern ...😉 Subalaxmi, I love you for keeping her, one of my favs from ltl...mine too ..mine too .. It's great to see someone in naku's life with whom she open's up,..so now u get instead of babi , subu is her supportsystem coz she's spent a lot of years in hostel .. strange this time it's not babi. I hope subbu proves some help to naku, poor girl is suffering a lot!

Wow'the sequence you were talking about has finally arrived,..lol.. and trust me it's far too better than I expected,..a big thanks and i know u must have expected that dutta would have asked instead of subbu ..but kahani mein twist .. firstly the "some one" who asks this question is not a random but subbu, a memorable character of a memorable track of the show, secondly it's followed by a SMS of dutta, which was really a touching gesture..so here the cell phone comes handy nah ?????, so, the fact that she doesn't dine before didn't went unnoticed by him and most importantly the treatment, the way she has reasoned her "saab calling act", sounded so genuine, sahi hai nothing suits him more than sahab>

Finally dutta's part''so janaab is all being tybical hubby sounding total lost without wifey! Oaky, this builders meet, is this just a random backdrop used to show dutta at work, or this issue has something important to play in the story? Don't bother to answer, I know, what's the answer gonna be.at the moment i just want to show dutta works too besides caring for nakku , so dont expect dutta getting injured n nakku attending him ..that was an old ff .lol.

Dutta toh gaya kaam se, aur mere haath se bhi,!...grt as always dutta is n will be only mine.. Even at the second time, he was distracted by the broken bangle pieces, poor baaji, god knows how many times he'll have to repeat....seriously . And, OMG he collected her bangle pieces and kept it with him, this is unbelievable, you know rose, now my expectations are rising, I'm eagerly looking forward to how you actually reason this drastic change in dutta,...listen me n dutta are not going to clarify each n every action ...somethings are not meant to beexplained but to be felt ..* sirf ehsaas hai yeh rooh se mehsoos karo* what was it in naku that he has fallen for her to this extent in just four months, where then had hardly even spoken to to each other properly, not even shared a meal* phew* seems like i will have to explain on behalf of dutta ..ok ..see sometimes u cant clearly pin point as to what n how u fell in love with a person ..it just happens ..for instance there are times when u r upset or frustrated and u visit a place like a t a beach side or u listen to music which manages to calm u down , makes u feel better n relaxed then u wish to go back to that place again n again or attempt to hold on to those memories , the same is happenning with him as well ..her sheer presence , her words though bitter calm him down and he feels a pull towards her so in her absence is trying to hold on to anything that reminds him of her ..* god ..m tired * ..hope the explanation helps . Okay one more thing naku's look have never been mentioned,... u can assume she is fair n pretty I mean the way supriya's was done in one of the initial updates, I hope someday we get to read about naku's too,..lets see

Both, the updates was too good rose,...thanks so much and i must mention that i wish u could see the braod grin that appears on my face whenever i read ur comments .. remember you have said that this time you feel, dutta acting a lot like naku and vice versa, I still feel close to this dutta,..baby u will feel and want to get close to every possible dutta ..lol.. am able to relate to it, and find him in character...he is in character ..grt ..relieved to know that . I've often wondered, after tasha's first marriage that if minus the betrayal factor, how would have dutta acted around naku, today I got my answer!

Thanks for the update!...thanks to u for taking time out to read n comment

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Chapter 8: Khaamosh Tanhaiyaan

In the quiet room my footsteps echoed distinctly. After scanning the empty and deserted room I stood near the open window and gazed out. Even at this hour there was lot of hustle and bustle on the street. Maybe they were in a hurry to go back to their homes, to someone waiting for them. My eyes travelled to the balcony which was silent and empty like the room and of course quite similar to my life. Silence and emptiness have always been an integral part of my being, the silence broke once on hearing her sing and I brought her into my life to fill that emptiness but I guess, silence and loneliness are my best pals, they didn't wish to leave my side so easily thus returned as soon as they could and this time not alone, they brought along another deserted and quiet soul with them. Initially I tried hard to shun away silence with my violent outbursts and it did leave me for some time but that emptiness in my heart just refused to go. They say when the world steps out, the true friend steps in, same happened with me as well, silence once again spread in my life but this time they had competition from none other than that quiet and lonely soul. No thing or body lasts forever, same was the case with the quietness which surrounded me, it would get distracted sometimes by the bells hanging from her dupatta or by her green glass bangles which tinkled in the room and around me. With her coming in, slowly silence exited along with loneliness as her presence could be felt not only in the room but somewhere inside me as well. Things had changed not drastically but still there'd been some movement in my otherwise stagnant life. My eyes had got habitual of seeing her around, if not in the room then in the balcony and my ears no longer found her bangles and bells irritating. If she'd speak something no matter how sarcastic or bitter it'd be then not only my ears but even my heart and mind would pay full attention to her and also think over her words later on. In simple words I wasn't alone in this room and world anymore, she had managed to enter my domain, whether as per my will or not, whether as per her knowledge or not.

Life is a long journey where we stop, meet several people and then move on. Sometimes fortunately or unfortunately we bump into them again. Much to my dislike but after a very long time, today my old pals were back with me. I sighed deeply and slipped my hand in my right pocket and took out the broken pieces of her bangle. Pulling out the bedside drawer I dropped those pieces making some sound then walked to the couch and brushed my fingers over her ironed out clothes letting the bells tinkle in the hope that my friends would get the message. But they are deaf and dumb I thought, as they failed to understand what I was trying to suggest.

The door knocked, I turned my neck and found madhu standing with the dinner tray. Her eyes were heavy and she looked too sleepy. I smiled and said," tu rakh de ..main kha lunga." She kept the tray and left. My eyes shifted from the plate to the porch outside and then one more time to the balcony, knowing very well that they wouldn't find who they were searching for but still they took a chance. I had heard somewhere that the person who eats alone is the most lonely one in the whole world. Before marrying her, I'd had several meals in isolation and it didn't bother me because I had lived that way, there was nobody to share my thoughts, my feelings even this room then how could I expect to share a meal with somebody. Therefore having food alone had become a normal routine for me which I used to follow quite religiously thus when she started waiting for me, initially I had found it quite odd and uncalled for but since we hardly spoke to each other, I let it be, unaware that this might disturb me in the future, like it was doing tonight. Taking a deep breath I took a spoonful of rice and thought, what's the big deal in having food without other family members or her in particular? I have done it in the past and I can do it again. Had she been here even then we would have had our meals separately then why should her absence or the fact that no one is waiting for me in this room affect me? I brought the spoon close to my mouth and parted my lips. I dropped the spoon, I am not feeling hungry tonight and its got nothing to do with her, I said clearly in my mind.

Pushing the tray aside I lifted my legs and rested them on the table leaning my back against the couch. I tried to relax in the darkness that appeared before my closed eyes but the next moment her innocent face came up in the darkness. I attempted to block her image but failed miserably as once again her eyes caught my attention. I breathed in slowly and looked deeply into those eyes which are a mirror to her wounded soul. Every little change in her emotion reflects in those eyes, although she tries hard to hide her feelings by keeping quiet and dropping her eye lids but whenever I get a chance to look in them I feel they wish to say a lot to me but her lips just don't cooperate with them and remain tightly sealed making her heart bear the brunt of her silent lips. Even when she was leaving for her college, I felt that she had this strong urge to say something but she was holding herself back. I pursed my lips and thought, if she can point out my mistakes clearly and fearlessly then why cant she pour her heart similarly? Why does she suffer silently? Why is her happiness so short lived? If she loves to study then why did the idea of continuing her education sparkled her eyes only for some time? And why on earth did she appear so restless at the time of going back to the hostel? I banged my fist in frustration and opened my eyes as I didn't have an answer to any of the questions. Why the hell am I thinking about her so much? Its her life and she can lead it the way she wishes. I did the best I could for her, rest is up to her and her destiny, my mind screamed loudly.

I stood up, walked up to my bed to sleep and began taking my wrist watch, wallet and other things out. Dropping things here and there my hand stopped when my gaze fell on the handkerchief. My thumb slowly traced the letter S, supriya came and left my life in no time, her deceit left a scar on my soul but what amazed me was that how did I end up making a place in her life? What had I done that the letter S meant not supriya but sahab for her? Instead of being hated by her for being so rude and harsh to her why did I end up getting cared? What good had I done to her that she embroidered my initial on this piece of cloth? How did I manage to earn a place in her life? One more time I was left with unanswered questions, silence and loneliness. I lay in bed and spread my arms wide when my hand touched the cell phone. Just then it struck me that I had forgotten to message her that I was done with my dinner, why does she wait for me anyways?

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My eyes were tired as I revised the last chapter of the book, relaxing myself I lay in bed and continued to read , straining my eyes in the process when all of a sudden his words rung in my ears," let kar nahin padte aankhein kharab ho jayengi." I sat up at once, knowingly or unknowingly we were beginning to cast an effect on each other. Though we hardly communicated with each other but whatever little we did showed our deep concern for one another. His small little gestures like messaging me that he's done with his meals or his waking me up early in the morning to study by giving me a missed call daily said more than actual words could express. He had mellowed down a lot, rarely would I find him irritated or angry. He had even cut down on his drinking, though not given up fully but no more did he drown his miseries in alcohol. Maybe somewhere he had accepted or compromised with his past and it relieved me to see him that way.

I began reading once again when the window panes of my room rattled loudly, I looked in that direction, it was stormy outside. I walked slowly towards the window, the street lights made things visible, I wish they didn't as my gaze covered a huge distance and stopped at the tip of a tomb far away bringing back memories of that fateful evening. I held on to the window grills firmly and closed my eyes tightly as my mind travelled back and images of my past flashed before my eyes. I began breathing heavily as the scenes became clearer..i was in love and told him about my feelings ..wind was blowing heavily as we both sneaked out of the college fest to spend some time alone..it began raining when we reached the tomb..a place where I always wanted to visit…and then ..then..what happened devastated me.. I squeezed my eyes tightly blocking those images but couldn't, my throat went dry and I wanted to scream loudly as I saw something more …he had drunk secretly in the fest and was driving fast …his car hit the petrol tank and went up in flames.. I clutched the grills with all my strength and my heart thudded loudly inside my chest competing with the sound of lightning that struck in the sky.

Rain drops fell on my face bringing me back to my present and I opened my eyes slowly. Its past, its gone, it cant come back, my mind reminded me again and again. I stared at the tomb one more time, what happened couldn't be changed, I have no choice but to face it, accept it and bury it all here itself if possible. I calmed my racing nerves and leaned my head on the grills telling myself, I have cried enough over my past, now no more tears, if I survived then, then now also I can survive, I will not breakdown. Past no matter how bitter it was couldn't be erased neither did I wished to because it had some beautiful moments, the realization of love is an amazing feeling and I didn't want to let go that memory, the rest maybe.

My cell phone kept on the bed buzzed, I turned around and saw his name flashing on the screen. I took a step ahead when I felt a tug, I looked back and saw my dupatta tangled in the grill. Words of subalaxmi tai echoed in my ears," toh jo accha hai usey haath badakar apnaati kyun nahin?" what future held for me, I didn't know neither did I care, the past was gone leaving just the present and I wished to live in it. I moved towards the bed with determination, my dupatta tore off a bit, I didn't stop and picked up the cell phone," tu khana kha le." my tired and heavy eyes softened slightly, taking out the halwa box which aayi had given, I messaged him back.

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" sahab , aaj akele nahin saath mein khayenge..aap wahan ..main yahan." I smiled, smiled not only at her message but also on seeing my loneliness depart silently.