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Sorry guys, couldn't post it one thread, as it confuses the hell outta me, though I dunno why! But I can definitely give you all the links to all the parts in every post! :)
PART 5: The Realization and hurt.
Arnav(To himself- What have I done?...He was in pain. His head and heart hurt. There was a strange sensation in his chest...he felt as if something was burning inside, something that was eating away at his insides...and it was guilt. The Arnav Singh Raizada was feeling guilty.) 'Guilty' was just an understatement...I need to make her listen to me at least...at least just ONCE...yes, i'll go at her place in the morning...(With that..he closed his eyes...but sleep evaded him. For long, her memories haunted him, her sweetness, her innocence, her beauty...inner and out...he sighed. Turned sides, yet sleep didn't come. Finally he decided to meet her right now. He glanced at the clock, it was 10 :05, in the night, but he didn't care, he just wanted to talk to her. So, he messaged his Di, that he was leaving and left RM.)
Bua ji's house...10:25..
*door bell rang*
Bua ji: Hai re nand kishore...etni raat gaye kaaun aaya hoga? (Who would have come at this hour?)
Opens the door to find Arnav standing...
Arnav(Looked at Bua ji's shocked face and thought that Khushi must have told them everything...and why shouldn't she..he thought grimly. He deserved this...when bua ji said...)
Bua ji:(Smirking in an "all knowing way" and teasing him) Kaa babbua? Apni patni ke bina naahi reh sakat ho ek din? (Can't you live without your wife for one day?)
Arnav(surprised that Bua ji didn't know, he shook his head and was about to deny when Khushi's mother entered...)
Garima: jiji, kaun hai darwaje par? (who's at the door?)
Bua ji:(Very happily) Arreh Garima, ee dekho...humre daamad ji aayen hain (ushers him inside)khushi bitiya ke bina chain se nahi reh sakat hain..(look garima, our son in law's here...he can't live without our khushi)
Garima:(Shyly) Oh! aaiye aaiye na..Khushi apne kamre mein hai...kaafi thaki hui thi...toh abhi so gayi hai...chaliye...aap aaj raat yahin rukk jaaiye...
Arnav:(gets a bit uneasy at the thought of spending the night with her at her place, but thought ...what the hell! I'll sleep on a chair if I have to, but I'll definitely talk to her and then leave...) Yeah! okay..(he says)
He was about to enter the room when he heard Khushi's mother say to Bua ji in a quiet tone... "Accha hi hai jiji...Arnav ji aagaye, abb shayad Khushi thik hojayegi...pata nai kyun, badi udaas thi...aisa laga hi nahi ki oo humri Khushi hai..."
Arnav(closed his eyes in pain as guilt washed over him...Khushi was in pain too because of him, she was sad because of him...and she didn't tell anyone about what happened with her...how could he ever say that she was selfish?...he sighed and closed the door and approached her on the bed...where she was sleeping like a baby...he sat down near her...and looked at her innocent beauty...he was about to caress her face when he noticed the residue of her tears...and a small tear still clung at her lashes...he gritted his teeth...and clenched his fists...god...she's hurt so much...he thought. He slowly wiped away the residue with his fingers when Khushi suddenly turned in her sleep...afraid he had woken her up, he started to get up when something got tangled up in his legs and he fell flat down on top of her with a thud.)
Khushi(Woke with a start...her big almond eyes were wide with shock and she thought that she was still dreaming...her lips were fashioned in her typical "o"...if she was dreaming, it was one of the most beautiful dreams she had ever had...so as if testing herself, she hesitantly touched his face, his face seemed real...she slowly traced her fingers on his closed eyes, his nose...his lips...but she thought -'why did my Arnav ji's face look so haunted..he is so handsome usually'...when suddenly Arnav's eyes flew open...and in a strangled voice he said..'Khushi..'...the sweetness with which he took her name gave her a strange satisfaction...she smiled...but suddenly she felt as if she couldn't breathe...as if something was weighing her down...as if sensing her discomfort...Arnav shifted his weight...and then she could finally breathe...or NOT. She realized she was not dreaming and sat up. That magical moment, gone. )
Arnav( Knew she finally came back to reality and was angry at himself for not being able to control his feelings...he spoke) Khushi...woh main...actually tumse baat karni thi...toh main aaya tha..( Actually, I wanted to talk to you...)
Khushi(really shocked) You wanted to talk? Right now? And, about what? (she suddenly notices that he was still wearing his shoes and she gives a little yelp) Take off your shoes, right now. If you want to sit here..
Arnav: Oh yeah..Sorry, I forgot...(he took it off and sat crossed legs on her bed...)
Khushi(narrowed her eyes suspiciously as she saw him sitting there like that) look, I am not in the mood to talk to you or anybody else. You can go back. (She gave him a no nonsense look.)
Arnav( His eyes were pleading with hers..) Please Khushi...? Just once ..please?
When they suddenly heard a knock at the door and Bua ji called in to ask if everything was okay, 'cause she heard someone shouting...and she giggled to herself, thinking the quite opposite of what was happening inside.. Both of them were embarrassed and decided that it was better to spend the night than getting everyone tensed because of their fight..
Arnav: Is there a lounge in here?
Khushi:(Made a face) Its not your luxurious home Mr. Raizada.
Arnav(embarrassed..) Oh..I didn't mean..I mean..um..okay, then a chair?
Khushi(looks around...and realized that she had left the chair in her babuji's room, when she had reached there in the evening, so that they all could sit together and talk...) No. Chair's in babu ji's room.
Arnav(confused) Now what? Where shall I sleep?
Khushi(mutters under her breath) mere sar pe (on my head)
Arnav: What?
Khushi( keeps a pillow in between them) Nothing. You sleep on that side, and I'll sleep here.
Arnav( thought-'She's not even fighting with me properly...he sighed again. Fine, I'll talk to her in the morning.' With that...he lied down to sleep...but again couldn't as he kept watching his beautiful wife sleeping beside him...how many times had he fantasized about this moment? when both of them would be together? Then he glanced down at the pillow and thought...but not with the pillow in between them and ...he turned to face her completely...he knew she was not sleeping...she was restless, like he was...he waited for 10 minutes to say something to her when he suddenl heard a soft little snore...and heard her mumble something in her sleep...he looked fondly at her...he raised his hand to touch her but caught himself in time...he was really frustrated...he wanted to get this guilt out of his system...he needed her in his life...he did...he wanted her...he...he...he couldn't think ahead...suddenly he heard khushi saying something...he thought she had woken up and was speaking to him...but soon realized that she was just sleep talking...he found that really fascinating...he closed the distance between them to try and hear what she was saying...and what he heard...broke his already damaged heart into billion pieces or rather healed his heart...he didn't exactly know which one of them happened...
Khushi:(in her sleep..mumbled) Aap humse pyaar kyun nahi karte?(pause) Lekin hum toh karte hain..(pause)..itni nafrat kyun?(pause) hum itne b-bure hain?(her lips trembled in sleep...she looked so sad, heart broken...)
Arnav(his eyes started to tear...and he whispered) No baby...I love you...I do...I do...I do...I never hated you. Never. Come here. (With that he took her in his arms...threw the pillow under the bed, and embraced her, with all the love in his heart...and promised himself that he was going to tell her about his feelings tomorrow morning. He would tell her he loves her. Always have.)'If that's the price she wants me to pay, I will.' (he felt Khushi cuddling with him, shaping her body to his and he immediately accommodated her, and they fit in together like a perfect jigsaw puzzle's two pieces fit together. And he smiled, for the first time, in so many days...he again whispered...'I love you. You are mine. Only mine.' A tear slid down his cheeks...he knew that like this, with khushi in his arms, he was complete. A complete man. And, he closed his eyes...as he awaited his morning...
*TO BE CONTINUED.*
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