I am filling in for the CVs and doing the internal monologue
If he cares, then why?
Does he love me? But why isn't he saying it?
And then what about me?
Why does his gift of bangles make me so much more happier?
Why am I trying to make him confess his feelings for me?
If he confesses what will I do? But when have I ever resisted him?
I let him try and kiss me on Diwali
I let him touch me at the dance.
I have let him kiss my cheek.
I have myself kissed him.
I think of him all the time.
Is this love?
How can I be sure?
And even if it is love,
Will he give it a name,
Will he accept my feelings?
Or will he throw it back at me like Diwali?
Tell me once you care Mr Raizada.
I am all yours after that…."
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