Sorry

I am going to keep this msg short and simple. People in the RBO forum probably think I am some mahaan insaan or someone good but in reality I am not. I am not the best person in the world, I have done a lot of mistakes and this was one of them that I did. You would say that everyone should be given a chance so why not me...but the fact is I made mistakes again and again and I do ask for chances again and again. For me, my ego is never big when it comes to family and friends. Whom I feel close to, I fight with them and out of frustrations I say things that I never mean. Of course family and those close to you would always forgive you. Right now a selected few members of RBO are angry with me on something I did unintentionally. Although I claim that I am misunderstood big time on certain things, but I know there are other things that I did wrong. I do admit my wrong doings and I am sincerely and genuinely sorry for it. Some of my these friends think that I am not really sorry because as one person, whom I considered so close to me, said to me that my sorry means nothing to her and another said that she wouldn't even bother reading my msgs because it gives her headache and she doesn't feel I am genuine in what I say and another never felt close to me. Of course it hurt me when they said that to me. Another don't want to get involved and talk to me because I am emotional fool. I am hurt but then i realized that I am at fault too.

I may have hurt them time and again and because of that they are angry with me and would not talk to me.

I am not the perfect person and I don't think I ever will be. I always said it and I always will say it that please don't put me on a high pedastal. I was part of such a great group of people and I still do consider them my friends, however they are angry at me and don't think of me as a good friend or hate me or just simply are hurt by me. They even kicked me out of that group and are happy with themselves and I am feeling miserable here. I am writing this to apologize to them. I wanted to say sorry because I genuinely feel sorry and in return I just want one reply from them. one reaction from them and I am genuinely trying to manao them but I don't know how.

I am not asking the forum to help me but I wanted to say sorry to them. My only mistakes have been that I have always considered friends close and done so much for them that I took them for granted and unintentionally I have said things or done things that may have not been one of the greatest and it probably was not to their liking. I have always spoken my mind and honest that it has hurt them. however I do feel sorry, from the bottom of my heart. If I didn't then I wouldn't be apologizing publicly. I don't want to name them and I do not wish to tell you either who they are and what the issue is or was. I would share and in the end I would look like a fool but I am sorry.

I regret things and this is a public apology to them. Even after this they don't have a bigger heart to forgive then I don't know what to say or do. I have always believed that forgiving even your enemies lightens your heart. I am not a perfect human being and never will be but if God can forgive then who are we humans to question Him. I hope they would forgive me like I would've forgiven them and have forgave people in the past.

I hope they heard my apology (which does come straight from the heart and after this will accept me back with the same love and affection that they showed me before because I still feel for them and by doing that I am not losing self-respect, at least not in my eyes).

Here are few quotes:

"Forgiveness means letting go of the past."

"Forgiveness is the final form of love."
Reinhold Niebuhr

You can't undo anything you've already done, but you can face up to it. You can tell the truth. You can seek forgiveness. And then let God do the rest. Tertullian Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness. Tina Dayton This final quote should apply to me because the last part of the quote is me: If someone does you wrong, keep in mind that everybody makes mistakes. Forgive and forget. No one wants to be around someone who constantly makes them feel guilty. Unknown and the last two fits the situation. Rejection doesn't hurt, expectation does. Lying doesn't kill, denial does. Forgetting doesn't heal, forgiveness does. Unknown To be able to move on, one has to learn to forgive not only the person (or people) who have done one wrong but also oneself. Eugenia Tripputi