OS- Kushi has a mind of her own ~updated part 2

Im kinda new on writting OSs and this is my first one! Hope you all will like it 😉

Kushi has a mind of her own!

part 1

Kushi walked slowly towards the small mandir in Raizada house and looked directly at her Devi mayya's eyes. "Yes Devi mayya, I am at the brink. There is no way I will be able to hold on to this for long. Give me the strength devi mayya, give me the strength to resist the onslaught I suffer. Let me be strong and not weaver in front of him"

She closed her eyes and remembered the many instances he brought her status and their economical differences to the conversation. He never seemed to miss a chance at assaulting her already broken down heart. That very morning when she wore that beautiful leghna with the expensive price tag, he didn't miss the opportunity to taunt her one more time. Did he really find pleasure in making her feel as she felt right now? Deep down in a tangled, confused part of her existence she knew that he didn't find pleasure in it.

The scathing, insolent remarks had left her wounded. Her heart pined for one kind word from him. One gentle look with his intense eyes would have healed her instantly. And it's not as if he's incapable of it. She felt as if she knew him. Knew him in such a way and to such an extent she herself is unable to explain.

Her heart poured in warm gushes as she yearned for'.yearned for what? Her mind drifted back to the Diwali night when for a brief, magical moment her heart gushed that warm delight only love can inflict. It was hope and desire and passion as she had never felt before. She had realised she did feel something for him earlier. Yet in that sudden awakening of the moment she realised what it meant. She was in love. In love with the very last person she would have thought to have fallen in love with. She remembered his hands gently caressing her cheeks. His warm breath already kissing her lips as he bent forward to graze those lips in earnest.

What did she feel at that moment when she closed her eyes in anticipation? She felt alive as if she had never felt before. Her heart had exploded with a happiness she never thought she would know. She was aching for him. Wanting him to go to the very end of it and not stop. Never stop! Her love for this man had pored out from her entire being and engulfed her in a moment that seemed to have stopped the time to a stand still.

Yet she was mistaken. Very much mistaken. She had thought he was returning the feelings. But no. he made sure she was broken to the extent that there would be no return. She knew that night when he uttered those harsh words that there is no return back. She was broken and she knew that how much she tried she would never be the same again. She had innocently given him her heart, her essence of life, her fragrance of the mere existence and she watched him as he shredded it into pathetic little pieces before flinging them on the ground near his feet.

A sliver of anger engulfed her. "How dare he? How dare he mock my feelings. How dare he continue to do so? Doesn't she have her own self esteem to establish? How can a mere human being affect her to this level and leave her helpless and shivering for life?" A new feeling is taking over her as her spunky feisty self rose forward to decipher the injustice that meted her way. "He gave me a fake relief of life and watches derisively as I gasp for life with that sardonic smile in his face"

A waver of heat was shaking her being and she felt her neck prickle with the familiar sensation of burning resentment these new found emotions have evoked in her. It was indignation, hurt and more over, her yet intact self respect that he tries so hard to smoulder down with his manic words. She felt her countenance writhe and shudder and she opened her eyes.

Taking a deep breath to calm her raging heart, he walked purposely towards his bedroom. There was one final business she had to take care of, and then she would be done with him. She no longer wanted him nor will she ever think of him AGAIN! She would be gone from his life. Yet there was one last part of the puzzle she wanted to fill and Kushi Kumari Guptha will make sure he listened to her for that one last time!

Precap- he slowly undid her dori with one gentle arm and grazed her exposed back with smouldering kisses as she clutched the beam of her sulvar kameez in sweet agony. Turning her to face him, he looked straight in her eyes and bent down and kissed her tears away from her cheeks''

''..Kushi instinctively ran a soft hand down his muscular back as he lifted her and slowly carried her towards his bed and laid her down and looked her in the eye. She felt a raw energy she knew she possessed took over her whole being as she returned his intense stare right back at him. A wave of emotions engulfed her and the raging passion she felt a few minutes back downstairs possessed her once more as she grabbed him towards her and kissed him hard on his mouth. Every ounce of frothing emotion and passione she felt for him projecting towards him in that one kiss''.

Sorry guys, this is supposed to be a one shot but I got carried away with the writing. But I realised I should explain how kushi is feeling before progressing towards the rest of the story. This is built on how she feels and the actions related to how she's feeling. So the above part is essential for the progression of the story. Anyways the best part is coming next!! 😉

Part 2 is right below!!

Part 2

She marched firmly and briskly towards Arnav's room and banged open the door to find him sitting on his bed punching away at his laptop. His eyes flew up in surprise as he saw Kushi; her eyes were narrowed and she was breathing hard. It was obvious that she was worked out over something.

Kushi took another deep breath and closed the door behind her, bolted it and walked in measured footsteps towards him. She looked straight him in the eye and;

"You asked me if I cared about you getting engaged to Lavanyaji. Well I will give you my answer and you better listen to me and listen to me hard. Yes I do care about it. I care about it to the extent I feel as if my heart will explode. It's eating me inside and out. I now know that I fell in love in vain. Yes I fell in love with a man who is stone cold and as brooding as the night sky. Yes I am going to admit it Mr Arnav singh rizada! I love you. I love you to the extent no boundaries can limit the feeling. I have no reasons to give you for falling in love with you and neither will I look for any"

She took another deep breath. She's going to tell this to him straight out and nothing could stop her.

"And no. Im not a coward. Unlike you I am not trying to shun away my feelings. I am not speaking to you as a woman hindered with petty reasons as social class and money. Im not speaking to you as someone who is always chided about her misfortunes by the society. I'm here, speaking to you as a woman addressing to a man, with no social conventions attached."

Now tears were stinging her eyes. Her composure, which was intact by the sudden surge of emotions and adrenaline, seems to have left her wholly and a dull throb of pain seemed to choke her voice out. Trying desperately to calm her hoarse breathing, she took another deep breath.

"Do not EVER think that I fell in love with you for your money or your high class social stature. I do not seek any return of affection from you nor I do I intend to make you love me. And rest assured I will not be returning here from today onwards. I will never set eyes on you and I implore that you will not try to do so either and respect my wishes"

Her breathing was ragged now. Tears were pricking at the corners of her lids. There was a curious rushing sound in her ears.

"If I had been born with more riches and little more social standing, I would have made it hard for you to leave me as it is hard for me to leave you right now. But no. I have not been born as such and I do not intend to be that way either. If that man cannot accept me as who I am today, and cannot value me for what I hold, I have nothing more to say to him."

It was no use. She let her tears fall down. Nothing would be proved in restraining them as she had already poured her heart out in front of him. They were falling thick and fast but her voice was steady and she had one final thing to say before she left him, with the memories he brought in with him, forever.

"So mister Arnav Singh Raizada, I hope you will be happy."

A sob escaped from her and she turned to leave him forever. She already had her back to him when she heard him jumping up from her bed and strode towards her in two long strides. She knew what he was about to do before he came within arm's reach of her.

Reaching towards her he grasped her hand and pulled her not so gently towards him so that she crashed against him. He broke the impact with a light restraining hand and looked at her streaming, mellow, tear filled eyes with a gentleness she had never witnessed before. One arm around her petite waist and one arm gently caressing her cheek, he peered into her eyes. His eyes, she noticed had turned into an irresistible light honey brown tinge. Those eyes she will never see again she thought and an involuntary sob escaped her parted lips.

Shhh said Arnav in his husky sexy banter and bending down, kissed her tears. His warm moist lips sending tingling feelings from her cheeks down the back of her spine. She felt hairs at the back of her neck straighten and she gasped in surprise at her own sudden change in emotions.

As kushi looked straight into Arnav's eyes, she realised at that moment the perfect emotional connection and coordination between them and she felt a wonderment and something close to desire stir inside her as if a sleeping lioness opening her eyes.

"Arnavji" she whispered and he again muttered a "shhh"….a gentler and a more deeper one. She realised he hadn't uttered a single word until now except for his shhhs. He picked her delicted hand in his masculine one and covered the palm, then her every finger in little nimbling searing kisses. 'Kushiii…he said breathlessly. "You have said enough for both of us" he said simply, looking down her deep soft eyes that played havoc with his masculine senses.

He bent down and slowly kissed the side of her neck, her long swan like neck with its delicate arc. His lips grazing her senses; her hands were clinging to his shirt as if it's her only life saver. She let out a throaty sigh as his hot trail of kisses down her neck towards her smooth shoulder got more and more demanding. Her neck arced back exposing her delicate neckline fully as sensation after sensation attacked her body in whirlwind of emotions. She felt herself stiffen as she felt his hands run through the length of her exposed back of her salwar kameez. Mesmerised and completely entranced by these newly evoked feelings within her, she began to run her hands down his broad shoulders up his neck playfully caressing a lock of his hair and finally rumpling it while standing on tiptoe and kissing and nibbling him in his stubbled jaw line.

Taking the cue, he slowly undid her dori, taking his time and grazed her exposed back with smouldering kisses as she clutched the beam of her salvar kameez in sweet agony. His kisses down her fully exposed back line were getting rougher and more sensual by the minute. He unloosened her kameez and slowly let it fall to ground.

A sudden wave of self consciousness hit kushi as she felt herself being exposed in a manner she had never dreamed before. She saw Arnav admire her lushes breast held together by a skimpy cream coloured bra that left little to imagination. He unloosened her hair from her long braid and let it fall down her beasts down to her curvy toned waist line. He ran a hand down her smooth neck towards her collarbone and slowly down towards the cleavage of her exposed bosom. He sent searing kisses down her breasts as kushi let out a moan of desire. Shhh said Arnav, now fully turned on and slowly running a hand behind, unlatched her bra in one swift movement. Kushi shrieked in surprise as it fell to the ground in an abandoned coil. Shhh said arnav again as she buried her face in his chest, suddenly overcome with shyness; the tigress who confessed her feelings with such passion merely a few minutes back seemed to have subdued altogether. He lifted her face away from his chest and looked close into her eyes.

"Kushi, I don't want to force myself on you like this. I will stop right now if you want me to" he whispered. "No…no I want you! I want you so much!" said kushi in a throaty whisper. The mere fact that he was gentleman enough to ask her permission before proceeding made her engulf with love and affection for the man and an equal physical desire for him. And she knew he was restraining himself with utmost difficulty.

"no arnav! Don't stop!" she purred. Her voice and the desire and passion laced behind that sound itself was driving him insane.

"looks like Kushi's recent tantrum had left her quite the tigress" thought arnav with his eyes glinting as he slowly began to kiss her swooping shoulders, down her neckline towards her fully exposed breasts. Running his tongue down the parting of her breast, he began to kiss them one at a time and nipped her nipples in the process while kushi moaned and clutched him in a surprisingly strangling grip .

Pulling her close towards him until she hit his muscular chest, he ran his hands around her delicate neck, rubbing it and slowly and deliberately kissed her plump lushes lips moving, on her mouth carefully and deliberately and intensifying as he felt her responding back . As his kiss got more demanding, kushi felt the desire and hunger in her waken to such an extent as she had never known before. His dancing tongue played havoc with her senses and as she joined in with equal passion she felt herself vibrating with desire for the man in front of her who's assaulting her senses. She ran her hands under his shirt and began to caress her hand down his bare chest in a smooth sensual movement; the rhythmic movement of her fingers on his bare skin driving him insane.

Locked within each other, arnav slowly lifted her off the floor and striding towards his king-sized bed, laid her there gently while kissing her as if there is no tomorrow.

"Kushi" he suddenly broke away from their kiss and looked deep into her eyes, a searching look in his honey coloured orbs, his sensuous glint momentarily replaced by concern. "Are you very sure you want to do this?" Kushi nodded not answering him, too intensely wrapped up in her feel for each other.

There was no turning back, thought Arnav as his deepest carnal desires resurfaced in a monstrous eruption as he looked at the lushes form of kushi laying beneath him, her eyes closed, in total submersion to him and what he was about to do to her. Her bare breasts rising and falling in a mixture of anticipation, trepidation and longing.

Arnav bent down once more to gather her into his arms and kiss her profusely in every corner of her body… his body aching for her, to take her, to make her his, to make her his for the rest of his life. As he continued his thorough exploration of her body he felt her writhing and moaning in extreme pleasure.

It took little time for him to undress him self and undress kushi until they were alongside each other, in their true self, as they are made for each other. He momentarily looked down on kushi who was lying under him and he gently but firmly resumed his love making foreplay. Making her rise and fall, now swooping in on her, assuring her of his desire for her while releasing his love on her in a lavish down pour.

It was a long time before they resurfaced and found themselves wrapped in each other's arms. Breathing deeply, he looked at kushi who had her eyes closed. Concerned that she might be hurt by his animalistic pressure on her, he gently peered down her face to look in on better. He had completely forgotten that she was a virgin and this was her first time and she might not be able to bear on with his brute strength. First time was always a shock and kushi although was passionate enough was still very delicate and fragile…much like a porcelain doll. "what have I done to my doll" thought arnav, truly panicking as bile frothed in his belly. "kushi! Kushi!" he held her bare shoulders and shook her.

Kushi's eyes snapped open and to his utmost surprise saw that they were tearing. "oh what have I done? What have I done arnav ji?" sobbed a distressed kushi as realisation hit on what she did. He noted the 'ji' at the end of his name and something stirred within him.

"I ve broken thing! Everything I was brought up upon, everything my purity and integrity lay on. How did I do this!" her voice was low and she was crying, her tears running down her cheeks to the pillow her head lay on.

"Kushiii" whispered a distressed Arnav. "Kushi listen to me"

"No there is nothing to listen to. I have ruined everything. I have hurt and deceived so many people. There is nothing I can do. Im disgusted with myself. I have lost all self respect I had for myself"

"shhh kushi. Stop talking. I can't wait any longer Kushi. I want you in my life. Put on your cloths and get ready. No need to look fancy. We are getting married. NOW"!

That's it folks! Hope you liked it. Sorry I had to put the premarital sex scene. But it was done with discretion and they love each other deeply. They are bound for each other.

Anyways, hit like and comment :)

u write wonderfully!!

me likey!! hot precap and yes i would be righteously indignant too if i were in her place!! pm me please!!

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The prcap is so yummy LOL
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