Hello there, its just not you but most of us have the same question. I will post my reply from the discussion, some of us had.
In the SBB,
Sanaya says: Kushi is feeling bad but she does not know why ? She is not having any intention to feel bad about La and ASR being together, yet she feels bad (pardon me if I have not decoded it with my broken hindi)
So, Sanaya clearly mentions about the jealousy factor here. Kushi is feeling jealous at La-ASR jodi (cheek peck scene) but don't know why !
So far from all the encounters with ASR, Kushi derived various feelings. She felt lost when ASR was about to kiss her, she felt suffocated when ASR announced his engagement, she felt hurt when he spat out venomous words and atlast felt jealous with cheek peck.
[ Not to mention that autowala, dhobiwala feeling were resorted to black magic. Even after clearing that up, she was just thinking about how badly she hurt him., not more than that. ]
But after each of the above mentioned incident, she did not dig those feelings to derive a deeper meaning. Everything with ASR during diwali was too quick - one after the other. At home, she cried her heart out but when she was trying to decipher her feelings - the whole Shyam fiasco happened. On the same night, she told Payal that she has made her decision. Hence, she put an end to her about-realization and decided not to delve or meet him again.
So, Kushi basically has not realized that these feelings combined together attribute to "love'. She knows she feels for ASR, but did not name it.
Iss pyaar ko kya naam doon ?
Seriously, I don't know. Phew !
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