Fiza'a OS gallery thread 1 - Page 68

Fun filled nd happening OS..
Loved it...

nice os...really enjoyable one...!! but next time i want an os solely on mayur...😳 dats too a romantic one ok??🤗

for those who havent read it

AETIBAAR

Blue: mayank

Pink: nupur

Past: brown

College bolay tu….life…listening to these gang of teenagers sitting beside me…a smile appeared on my face…true…. life at an academic institute is beyond one had expected …beyond one dreamed about..v dream n planned ambitions, the practical life …but wht life actually holds at the moment …far beyond once imagination……

Closing my eyes whn I feel so…..Even in these sunny hot days…the memories engraved in side me …made me feel serene….memories of our strange togetherness….strange relationship…n strange confessions…..

Acoo(cough)…no u dnt dare think so ……je nhi….i haven't grown old, nor my hairs have turn gray due to this..its just pre mature graying….kya maynk tu bhi na larkiyoon ki tarha age chupha tay ho…mjhy dekho…mein tu tumse bari hoon..kabhi bhi chupaya..aur tum….mein tu abhi sirf 22 k hoon….jhota…

Ya I speak loads of lies to u …the feeling u always caught them is more bigger then the punishment lords hold for me for lying…..ur expression..ur irritations….so beautiful…true n puure…..

sitting like this in my apparently lonely days …I thnk my self for being like this to u…tht made us hold n cherish ….moments tht are bliss…….people say I behave impractical….im still stuck where we left….but life for me stoped at the very moment ……the day……

The day whn I last saw you …the last day of our academic year….i was looking at u fantically ..i know I was making u uncomfortable…but so I know tht its mayb the last time im seeing u…mayb ….

Nupur: lowering her eyes to hide the droplets of pain tht are emerging inside her eyes….speaking low to cover the choking voice due to fear..fear of losing evrythng ….mayank I cant leave my parents …im sorry …..tum buhat..

Mayank: shh…..showing his hand to stop giving any explanation…..i don't want to question her feelings for me….i trust them more thn any thng in ths world….or mayb more thn this world…

Nupur I didn't confess my love to u because I want any answer from u….i respect u for ur decision n u don't need to explain…I just said tht so tht we have a moment to cherish in our cold nights….the sound of these 3 words…echoning in our hearts…making us feel serne n complete….

Nupur: if even u haven't said tht ….. I had lots more thn this living inside me of urs…..u promise to take care of urself…haina…

I can see u blinking ur eyes rapidly to make the tears flow back……

Mayank: hmm….n need the same from u….

Nupur: mayank….with broken words

Maynk: han….

Nupur: can I touch u…just once…..pls

U asked to touch me…I felt sumthng broke inside me…the way I was holding myself strong….the way u were holding urself….all was fading away…..i can see pleaded in ur eyes…as if they were craving to ask me stay forever...

ur hand was moving fwd towards me…I can feel a droplet moisture on my skin… I grap ur hand n put on my check near my lips to let thm feel…..but im sorry I wasn't able to hold myself next …. I pulled u to embrace my self in ur arms…maybe I shed same tear on nap of ur neck ….i can feel ur hiccups too near my ears ….u broke apart n looked at me…..i want to stay ….i'll stay for ever…u read my eyes n shock ur head…..no pls don't ……don't make ur self sufer….. with this…..turning ur face away u moved as fast as u can

I too move my eyes away from the path ….i didn't turned around to see u going …I cant …I am human n it pained a loot seeing u walking away from my live…but I m so proud tht im being loved by a woman like u .. I certainly know ur parents are old n weak n need u by ur side…..having me always around u will grow a guilt emerged inside thm ….but once I want to tell u im not suffering in ur love……

….so im aound u alwys her with u …watching u from far away put still beside u ….i was there whn ur father was in hospital n u where consoling ur mom n was trying to act strong…even till his last breath…I so want to hide u in my arms n let u get weak..u always donot need to be a "jahsi ki rani" u too need support n a moment to show the vulnerable side…..but u wiped sum tears n stood up taking a deep breath….with trembling hands doing all the formalities…

It isn't a surprising thing …if I have been with u….u were also there I know….n I need no justifications of tht too…..whn I was weak…. ur eyes were there to ask me stand up n walk agin with strength…..whn I missed u n cryed whole night….i have the warmth of ur hands tightly engulfing me inside……whn I was too stubborn to gave up life….i can see ur scary n numb face….asking me u need me…..lets me remember …I don't owe my life alone….

N so the time passed…u loved me with all ur love……

Wao it has been 20 years of togetherness….we live inside each other so wht not with each other….we have our reasons for tht…u have ur responsibilities…I have u to honor n respect..though I thought maybe life will act its own way ..n mayb we bth will move on with sum1 else in life…but it seems to b near to impossible

I tried …..my parents were worried but i just couldn't ….mayb tht girl was right whom I last visited for same reason

" ur heart is too much filled with her love mayank…u even don't have place for urself….dont make it stress by asking it more….isnt it enough u have love to hold…to feel…to live…throughout ur life….

She was so write..i have everything I want….i have peace inside me…when I have u in me….

U have even lost the hope to see me again….i know dear…so has I ….i have been waiting for u from past 15 years….i am here with u always..ur heart knew this….my heart told u that….this is the unspoken promise..the un broken trust…..

Life has always been like this too us……strange n mean….or mayb jealous…with wht challenges it has came up….we have fought no matter wht…we were dying to talk to flirt to irritated, to get nuts…..but we n our principles…u were scared to trust me…I was scared to make it fade….i took a decision to make u mine….whole soul mine…to bound u with me…with knot of love n trust…for tht v wait..v where to young tht time….but thn I came to know…u didn't fear to trust me…..u feared to break me..whn I'll get to know u cant be mine…but thn again I fall for u…heads over heal…or heal over heads….wht evr its is…I don't care …it s u n me….n there always us…..

Im standing in front of a mature women today….who has some how lost all expression on her face….but sorry ms nupur..your eyes still talks with me only…they are meant to convey all the emotions u hold inside for me..thy hold me…only me….

today seeing u infront me…im feeling too tired…sach…feels like it has been years tht im walking alone….i went to rest…rest on ur shoulder…I want my eyes to speak endlessly to u…..i went to ly on ur lap…with ur hands in my hair….the warmth engulfing me….soothing my soul….making me young again…..

wht I have made u…just look at u …wht I have done to the person I love the most…u look so weak..Torn n fragile.. the orator of mine u hold in u….ahhh….Orates the story of numerous sleepless night..silence..tht is speak volumes…I know thy r questioning ..y did this to u…but I was helpless..u know tht na..haina..…..ur soo weak n tired….im sorry …u know its hard to say im sorry or im proud of….im selfish I know tht…today I want to shout all loud… see…he is mine only mine no matter what….i know ur tired …losing ur strength to walk now…its has been years of lonliness n un complained love…n more over u have grown old Sharma…magr style woh hain…handsum as always ….

.as I am walking towards u today…I found courage n my soul slowly reviving me….slowy im founding my slight wrinkled face ….glowing under ur gaze….im finding my weak body revitalized with ur presence…..

Whn I now stand just few inches away from u….i have now lost words….or I just don't want to say anything….its silence tht has always spoke between us ….its peace today I want to feel ….the aura of u near me….tht enchanted me….

With shaking hands i slowly n caressingly slided my hand on ur cheeks..i want to feel the change in ur skin…the warmth tht now it holds with my touch…my fingers were enjoying there fortune to touch n play with ur tangled hairs….my palm still wants to feel th soothing smooth skin under it…..the flashes of ur blood with evry movement of my thumb……but wht my heart want to do…im reluctant I shud or not….but today I Want to forget ..evry principle…evry reason…the only reson tht holds within my gesture is the feeling inside all over me….

Nearing towards u ..i can feel ur heart rhymes with a faster pace…how much I love this effect only my heart can convey….it has itself ..strted to reciprocate the feeling….now to hold it is not in my hand..neither I really want to…proceed more n more towards u ..i can found ur hands crawling up on me…..ur fist getting closed tighly …u thought I will clame ur lips…but I didn't…I stil want just to touch not to do sumthing against ur principle….so placing my lips on ur forehead….i may have clutch ur head softly…..but I felt my neck on a tight hold….as if ur hands were not allowing me to detached from ur skin…..

Moving apart u looked in my eyes n pulled me in ur arms…..sobing more…

Nupur: im so

Mayank: tighten my hands…or maybe digging my fingers insde…...shh…just live it ….just trust it….i m with u …..

edited.

itne dino baad ye parh k bht acha laga.😉

beautiful one fiza
thanks for the pm

beautiful..
Even the pain of separation is sweet when u r in selfless love..

what have u done fiza...still feeling a huge lump in my throat even after finishing off reading it...this is a rare piece of creation,and wil always b kept safe in my heart...cant thank u enough 4 coming up with such an realistic as well exclusive thought...true,selfless as well unconditional love which is a rare species in 21st century...

is this it? theres a continuation na? this was nice