-dreams- maaneet FF THREAD 6 - Page 5

Beautiful update Muskan. :D

Brij rocked he actually ruined the bajaj muahahah.
Aww and Geet didnt want Maan to read that news :)

Ooops Maan is feeling guilty all over again seeing his princess life style. :(

Cant wait for next part dear :D

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awesome part!!!!!

congrats on the new thread Muskaan!!!

congats 4 new thread. waiting for another update

Originally posted by: smj1977.shruti

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sruti di when r u updating ,"my only mistake that i m female"

Dreams
part 40

It was easily 10 times his mansion.. that he was so proudlly showed off infront of her. He felt to timid today infront of his own act..of sin. Every word he spoke came to him.. deeper..sharper..his words her so shallow.. & meaningless.. hurting her.. shattering her..

as Geet entered the room..her eyes fell on her mom.. in white dress.. she broke down...& sunk on the bed.. always she had seen her with red bangles..bindi..sindor..mangalsutar.. royally rich silk suit. Now seeing her in this dress..she cried..howling.. mama.. mujhe maaf karodo..I am so sorry
plz..mama...
maans foot froze at the door stop..he wanted to hug her take her in his arms & console her, but did he even have the right to .. when he was the only reason for all this..

rano's eyes fell open.. hearing her cry.. her hands weekly tried reaching her.. she smiled..smiled after so many months.. mera bacha.. she cried...pulling Geet into her embrace..
sorry mama...I am sorry mama..
geet madly.. caressed her mothers..bare..mang.. her bare wrist...
rano... cried painfully hugging her.
Rano pointed at dad's huge portrait. Maans eyes was drawn to it.. he head automatically bowed infront of the magnificent personality. Honor pride.. principles..royalty. oozed
brij helped rano in the wheel chair to reach the portrait...geet fumbled..she dipped her head in guilt..not meeting her gaze to her dad. She led him down..
rano..cried..aab tho hume maaf kardejiyen..yeh rahi aapki shashadi...aab tho humse bolyen..
humne jaan ke ussen nahi kaha tha.. hum tho bas dar gayen then aapki halat dehken...
Geet hugged her mom..I am sorry mama
rano cried - I am sorry beta..mujhe tumse aisen nahi dant ke phone nahi katna tha .
uss baat ko lekar aapke dad ne mujhe jathen huwen baat bhi nahi ki...
geets heart felt s sudden anxiety in her.. like she got a new life..like new spring of breath..
rano.. held her heart...that ached ..papaji ne kaha ki.. aapko kisi ne galti se..aapni Gf samjh ki...maan felt the whole world seemed to vanish in that moment..
rano paused.. Geet looked her ...searched eyes for more ..
rano sighed..
papaji ne kaha ki aapki koi galti nahi.. unho ne darji se baad karneki khosish bi ki..
jab aap se baat nahi ho payen..tho wo tho toot hi gayen...
the thought of snatching the phone & throwing.. her again & again..trying to call some one the phone.. horrifed him now..maan wanted the earth should just consume him...

aapne aap ko aur hume aapka gunhe gar man liyen...
humse jathen jaathen baat tak nahi kiya ki...humne aap ko daantha...
Geet stood frozen... as rano.. became breathless..
nurses rushed helped rano to relax ..& gave her an injection.. Geet ..ran to Maan..who stood lifelessly at the doorstep... she cupped his face.. her eyes was filled with new zeal..Maan.. dad ne hume galt nahi samjha Maan dad ne meri baat ka vishwash kiya Maan
she shook him..
he knew .. it was all a mistake..
he believed me.. he believed us..
he knew we were not wrong
he believe ..I couldn't let him down
she hugged him...& cried.. I didn't kill him..
bolona Maan.. main ne dad ko nahi mara na..dehko..na mama ne khud bola..
aap ne suna na...
dad didn't die because of me
meri wajah se mama ne white dress nahi pena na...
meri wajah se mama ki mang suni..nahi..hain na..bolna..maan..she hit his chest with her weak fist
bolna Maan.. aapne sun na mama ne kaha..
dad..believed me... she fainted in his arms.
Maan held her .close ..fearing to meet those eyes...he dare not meet them even in his dreams..
now seeing through the pain.. that was eating her for so many days.. the fear...of seeing her mother in white dress.. & the fear for being the cause of it..consumed her & now him.
The drs & nurses rushed to take care of her... Maan even feared to touch her hold.. like even if his shadow falls on her ..she may shatter

he felt caught in a fragment of time that exists, that separate from reality...from knowing to the truth..like between conception & creation the way it between the emotion & the response..his identity seemed to get lost some where between that..time fragment.. his voice now felt dry, quiet and meaningless...baseless..it cann't even be heard..actually shouldn't even be heard. His guilt consumed him..leaving behind only a illusion that lingered a place between the spoken words & when those words reached his ears.

He couldn't believe the pain she had in her heart all these days.. the burden..of the cause of her own dads death...she couldn't even cry..moan.. forget sharing. .. how much more his sin seemed to deepen.. it had reached a level.. even god couldn't have forgiven him..even death couldn't lessen its burden.. the truth which came out laid the distinction of idea and reality. How a false conception lead change the actual creation. As he griped the reality in his naked hands, he could look into her endless sight..now he knew wat he was to her & there was no way he could make it untrue. He tried to close his eyes against the tears.. the burden in his soul that had become a lifeless yet a burden on life.. with the burden of sin..

how did she bare the encumbrance of his breath... that bore the onus of her dad's death..how could she..bear it all alone & still not lose her sanity. His life felt like a burden with every suffering breath. He just stood in the corner of the room quiet silent watching her in fear. Fear that ..his even looking at her could hurt her..fear that his mere presence around will impure her serenity.

yeh maine kya kar diya
mere ek gunaah ne
tera saara jiwaan khaarab kar diya
tu to anjaan thi sab se
par maine jaante huye bhi
apni hawaniyat ka saara asar tum pe nikaal diya
ab jab meri samaj mein aaya hai
to bahut derr ho gayee hai
maine tere khawabo ko raakh kar diya
yeh soch soch kar mere dimaag ne
mujhe jallad hone ka naam de diya
mein chaahtaa hoon tumhein duniya ki har khushi doon
par mere is gunaah ke ahsaas ne phir se paraya kar diya
mein kya karoo kaise karoo
jo tere dil ke dard ko thoda kamm karien
mein jaanta hoon mera gunaah maafi ke kabil nahin
par ho sakke to mujhe apne saare ghamm dekar
is gunaah ke bojh se rihaa kar dooo
by jasraj123

-dreams part 40-

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awesum update diii.
feeling bad for gee bt i think now geet will open up with maan.

oh my maan more guilty


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awesome n emotional part