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It has been five years since i left everything behind. Since i left my family, friends, and him behind.
How can i ever forget him, his brown eyes that always assured me i wasn't all alone. That he also lived in the same page, that same pain.
I am going back there back to where everything started. Back to everyone. But i don't think i am ready, ready to face all of them and there million questions. I am not ready to show them that i changed. I don't know how to show them that i am not the outgoing, tomboyish bubbly girl. Everything changed that day. yes i still wear boyish clothes still am that Misha deep inside but i became quit and reserved, i stoped speaking my thougths.
That day is still engraved in my brian and heart
Flashback
" Misha Hurry up were going to be late for college." said piya and panchi
" can you both shut up with your pooja im getting up don't worry"
I got up thinking it would be a normal day. A day were i would get to college meet up with my friends. Tease Abhay and Piya, not pay attention in class, fight with T and annoy Kabhir.
Boy was i wrong. As soon as i walked in college I saw Abhay tensed face and him and Piya engrossed in there convirstion about something. Then i saw him standing in the side of the hall way looking at piya and abhay with rage.
I never really talked with him. It was always him and Piya who fought and hated eachother and soon became bestfriend. i just was there in the middle. But when Abhay came back and all the misunderstanding was cleared Piya and him just stopped being friends and i still wonder why.
He looked angry and hurt. I walked up to him.
"Hey Jai"
Hey Misha" replied he.
I didn't know what else to say to him. I just looked at him in the eyes and was just engrossed in them. I never felt like that. I never looked in a guys eyes and saw what i saw in his. He was like me in a way with hidden pain, that nobody saw. I was to engrossed in them when he said
" Misha do you need something because i think your friend are waiting for you"
" Oh yea sorry. i just need the notes for yestrday class do you have them"
I made up a exuse i myself didn't know why i went up to him. But when i saw his rage and hurt i just couldn't help myself. And the only excuse i came up with was notes. I bearly paid attention in class.
He handed them to me and walked away and i was hurt that he didn't even look back. wait what nooo Misha you have to stop right there. Right now understood don't think about him just don't.
But i couldn't stop thinking about him. I just couldn't this is the first time i realized everything about him. I started to remember the time we would bump into eachother and curse eachother out, thoes volleyball fights thoes bike races. How he used to tell me that i was wired and diffrent. How we use to talk for hours about everything when Piya used to ditch as.
I realized i felt just me with him. I didn't have to act diffrent like i did for many people. I was comtarble with him and just could talk to him for hours. I realized i felt like this with him before too but just igonred it. then why not today why couldn't i ingnore this feelings today. I am going Crazy.
I spent the whole day thinking about him and blurted everything out to Piya and Abhay. they looked really tensed and i wondered why. But then they bot told me i was in love.
"HAHAHAHAHA Love you guys are crazy. Misha dobriyal in love"
"Yes" replied both
"Guys it not true. I mean love in one day no"
"Misha you felt lik this with him before, you just ignored it. And today you just can't because maybe today it something special."
I thought about what they said and walked out. I didn't know where i was going. But i landed up in the foreset and saw something that changed everything.
Jay was taking off his clothes i looked away eventhough i didn't want to. when i looked back it wasn't jai it was a wolf in his place. He was looking at me.
I didn't know what to do but i started to run, run,run and he ran after me. The wolf suddenly was right in front of me and he jumped on top of me. But i wasn't afraid. I was ready for this and he was ready to kill me. But he didn't all the wolf did was look at me and ran away.
I was panting and accepted the fact that jai was a wolf. But i didn't care. I accepted him anyway. That when i realized i loved him.
Jai came back in human form and he looked at me. we just talked about how i won't tell anyone and how it was possible just like a typical drama.
I was about to tell jai why i didn't care if he was a wolf when he told me that i remind him about Piya. He told me how he loves Piya and how she loves a vampire
When he told me he loved Piya that shattreted by heart. You don't know how i felt. But i kept myself together and didn't cry.
I left from there after saying bye to jai.
The day after i moved to New York without informing anyone because i couldn't just accept the fact.
I changed complety. I became more mature thank to him.
End of FlashBack
I knew right away that he still loves Piya when i came out from the airport and saw everyone i missed there. I looked at him standing as far away from everyone as possible while they hugged me. As soon as i looked into his eyes thoes feeling came back. But i knew it wasn't possible now.
I would always love him. I don't know how i will face him and everyone for a whole month. But they are a part of my heart and i have to be strong for them. I have to be strong enough to face the love of my life who is standing a right infront of me. But i know i can do it because i might have changed but i will always be the old Misha inside. The Misha of Dehrdun.
Please ingnore my mistakes. And please leave Coments. It means alot since i am not a good writer.
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