-kashish-maaneet ff THREAD 3 epilogue pg129 11ARL - Page 49

She wondered wat was it about him that even now his closeness tinkled her..sexy devil.. indeed.. she flinched her fist trying furiously to move away. ..oh babaji!!! if he came any closer to her in this position she was going to kiss him.. fall prey to their kashish..the feeling that was unbearable.. & the thought of seeing him on the bed with some one else flashed in her mind.. as she closed her eyes to look away. She opened her eyes instantly in pain of the sight that hunted & looked at him turning her face. Her gaze fell on the lipstick smudged marks on his shoulder, chest, neck she pushed him away in rage with all her strenth & slapped him. She slapped him again & again & again & again.. aimlessly every where she could. She took her pallo & rubbed off madly every mark on his body in anger with tears streaming from her beautiful almond eyes. Wiping them with one hand & wiping him with other. How dare u '? she slapped him again..u r mine ...she slapped him again... I hate u ...she slapped him again.. I hate u .. I hate u .. I hate u... she kept slapping ..choking she pulled away... she closed her mouth with her hand & turned away.. she just realized wat she was doing.. she was losing herself, there was no way to hide it, no way to confide it either, self loath is pain in depression& anger is emotion developed from repression
no way she could express it..no way she could explode out like this.. it was not her.. she restlessly blinked her eyes couple of times. I am sorry ..I know I don't have any right ..she closed her eyes
nahi sirf tumhe haaq hain.. haan Geet sirf tumhe he haaq hain ..
nahi mera koi haaq nahishe crossed her arm around herself more in a protective manner.
he turned her briskly kab taak aakhir kab taak u will run away from us
she didn't want to look at him.. not now.. not when she was so weak with her emotions. She had to push him away.. not confront him now.. I know u said u don't love me in a broken tone, her emotion was clearly visible as though she was trying hard to be in control. Lekin mujhe kuch aur hi laga. She swallowed hard. I could feel it in my bones, felt it in every touch of yours. Meri dil haal aapke aanko main bhi tha. Har ek ehsaas aap ne bhi mehsos kiya tha.
Karta hoon he corrected, with his voice crackling.
Her mouth snapped shut. Her eyes searched his face.. ji??
Dam it why do we have this feeling in heart she thought!!! So many emotions running' can't even hide it any more. she gazed each into those eyes overcome with emotion, feeling herself fall deeper with every passing sec, she tried so hard to resist, denying all of those feelings.

She was just looking blankly waiting for him to explain 'karta hoon' bit.. she didn't even blink, she stood their still. He took in a deep breath u said kiya tha in past tense I just corrected u. her eyes widen with a tinge of delight listening to those words. He leaned forward & cupped her face in his palm. She leaned in with a complaining baby face. He suppressed a groan. Damit I don't deserve u. she looked away he turned her face to look at him resting his forehead on hers I really don't know wat love is.. I know I don't deserve another chance.. phir bhi.. kya tum mujhe pyar se rubaroo karva vogi?(rubaroo mean to come face to face)