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Hey guys!
I am completely new to this forum, so I would like to introduce myself.
Hi, I am ZoaH. Usually seen around CC and A&S forum. And now hopefully will be active on this forum. I am in love with Arjuhi. I never watched KHM 1 (nor do I wish to watch it đł) but I am completely in love with KMH 2. Arjuhi rocks đł
Anyway, so about a year ago, I wrote a MayUr OS. I was going through that OS, and thought of sharing it with you guys in Arjuhi version, so here it is!
Arohi's POV:
I text him today, again. Who, you might think? Arjun, Arjun Singhania. The only guy I loved the most in my life. You might wonder what is new about it? Well, we broke up, about 6 months ago. Ever since then I haven't seen him. Though we study in the same college but different courses, we don't really see each other. I am doing business studies and he is doing web desgining. So we hardly get to see each other. It's good really. Because I know the second I would see him, I would break down completely. I have very weird personalily. At least that's what my friends says. I am very tough and hard person from outside but may be no one will be able to say what I feel within myself. Sometimes the biggest insult will not affect me at all but sometimes the tiniest things will affected beyond words. What can I do? That's the way I am.
Yes, text, SMS, message what ever you like calling it? I hate to admit it but I miss him. Miss Arjun very much. That's the only thing left in my life really. To miss him beyond words. He was my life or may be he is. It hurts badly but I guess I deserve it. I deserve to be unhappy and sad. What good have I done to be happy? Nothing at all!!
Today, second time I text him but a wrong one. To his perspective, it was wrong text.
My text at 12:33am
"Hey u ok?
What you up to?"
My text at 12:34am:
"Hey Sorry, I was meant to be texting Shilpa.
But by mistake I sent the text on your number, sorry!"
Second time I did this thing. It is crazy isn't is? But that's just me. I am too stubborn to accept my mistake. I hate admitting myself to be the wrong one. Ego, you see? I miss him but don't want to let him know. I hate telling people about my weaknesses. They take advantage of it but they already have in my case. One of weaknesses was that I trust people very easily. It does not even take a second for me to say that I trust you but all I get in return is broken pieces of my trust. I stopped trusting people, except my friends. They are my life but sometimes what they say affect me so much.
Once Shilpa, my friend and I were sitting in the class, doing nothing since we finished the assignment a day before the deadline. A teacher said that we can go home or stay in class and do what we like. Just then he text. Not me, he text Shilpa. Did I say that Shilpa and Arjun were great friends, more like best friends. I had no problem with Shilpa talking to him even after our break up. Just to divert my mind from his thoughts, I started browsing one the net until I found the Romeo and Juliet story on one of the sites. I started reading it. Shilpa came up to me and saw what was I reading. She gave a quick look at the screen before saying what she has to.
"What is the point of reading Romeo and Juliet when you know you don't deserve anyone in your life." Of course she was joking but it pierced my heart inside out. Those words hurt me as if someone just stabbed me with a knife. I didn't say anything then but I know what I gone through once I got home. I cried the whole night thinking, do I really not deserve anyone in my life? Am I so bad?
His reply at 12:36am:
"Its k!"
That's all. I guess he is fed up with ,e and why wouldn't he be? I am someone, with whom anyone could get mad at!! Oh well.
Waiting for his reply to that so called wrong text, those two minutes seemed eternity. I was keep checking my phone every two second. I was freaked out actually. My heart was beating faster each second. I felt it was the sign of something wrong. Finally after the two minutes, when the text arrived. The light flashed on my cell, with a vibration which freaked me out badly. I unlocked the phone. My hands were literally shaking while touching the open button. I sent long prayers before finally opening it. "Its k!!" The reply was short but gave me millions of meaning of it.
For example: He is over me, He doesn't love me anymore or he never did, He thinks I am some jerk who has nothing better to do than sending so called wrong texts, He thinks I am too arrogant to admit something and etc etc etc.
Oh well, I guess we were never destined to be together. But I really do pray that wherever he be, he should be happy. That smile of his means a life to me!!
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
You must be thinking that why only today? Right!! That's because I saw him today, after 6 months. He looked the same really. Same eyes, same smile, same style. Everything same except me. I wasn't the same. I had changed, of course for the worst.
He was in sitting in the canteen with some of his friends. They were having great laugh until I saw him staring at me as I entered with Shilpa. I told her not to go in that canteen but of course she is the Shilpa, so she had to go. As I walked pass the canteen, I saw him sitting with his friends from the glass wall outside. I started getting so nervous and my heart was beating faster and faSter as I took the steps towards him... sorry towards the canteen entrance.
He was staring at me, making me feel even more nervous and uncomfortable. Shilpa smiled at him and went towards him to share a friendly hug. He came upto Shilpa where we were standing. The second he came there, not removing his gaze from me, I excused myself to go to washroom. Shilpa glared at me, as if about to kill me that second. Yes, I was coward. Coward to face him but I didn't want to face him. It would break me down not like I am strong now anyway.
Arjun's POV:
"Why does she ignore me? Why is she afraid of even looking at me? Why did she run away from the canteen? Arohi, am talking about. The girl I love the most but we broke up because of my lack of trust in her. I doubted her to be with someone else. I know there is nothing worse than doubting your own love but I was stupid, idiot.
There is no going back to that moment when I broke her heart and her trust. "So that's when we say good bye Arohi." I said before leaving her to break down.
I saw her getting nervous as soon as she entered the canteen with Shilpa - my and Arohi's friend. The only connection between me and Arohi. I always get to know any news about Arohi through Shilpa. There was some fear and pain, I saw in Arohi's eyes. I hated myself for doing so bad with her.
My phone vibarated. I took it from the bed and saw the name on the screen. Arohi? My hopes went higher and higher. Without wasting another second , I opened the message.
"Hey u ok?
What you up to?"
My happiness knew no bound. I was on top of the moon. She does love me, she does. She does care. I told my heart. I was smiling widely, showing my dimples which she adored the most. But the happiness didn't last for too long. I received another message from Arohi.
"Hey Sorry, I was meant to be texting Shilpa.
But by mistake I sent the text on your number, sorry!"
My illusion broke. This was second time she did. I wondered if it was just a co incident or .... I didn't think further and stopped my hopes from reaching any further. I felt my heart crying for the love. It was my fault, so I don't think I should deserve another chance. I shouldn't. And with the thought, I replied her.
"Its k!!"
I just want her to be happy, wherever she be, whoever she be with, she deserves nothing but happiness.
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Do let me know what you think about this update =)
Critisims are most welcome đ
Love ZoaH
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