~madhoshi~
part 79
maan - lekin I didn't want to sign for the baby
geet - I am not giving you an option here.
kept the paper back. came back & she pulled his hand & cuddled up next to him.
he could move his hand now. he hugged her. held her close to him. her tears wet his chest
it was friday, 2 days since they were to have the c-section
maan was getting worried. he called the dr & asked them
dr - I don't think it is really safe for normal delivery..she is over due now
maan - but she is not willing for a c-section
maan threw the phone on the floor. she came in & looked at him
maan shouted - why don't u have the c-section & give the baby to me & find yourself a raj
geet - I did ironically
maan looked at her in anger
geet - aap to mere raj se bhi zyaada romantic nikle
maan wondered what she is saying
geet - ~naa chaaho kisi ko itna,
ki chaahat tumari majburi ban jaye, chaaho kisi ko itna,
ki tumhara pyaar uske le jaruri ho jaye~
maan closed his eyes..remembering those lines. thats what he told sameera
maan - how do u know about all this
geet - aap to sach mein bahut romantic ho
maan shouted - hain lekin that was between me & sameera nothing like that between us
geet - I know..there is nothing like that between us..she repeated coldly.
maan - I love sameera , phir tum mere saath kuch bhi karlo I am not going to
change my stand on that.
she was quiet
maan - humara pyar ibadaat ki tarah paak hain he sounded so proud
she kept quiet
maan - humari dhadkane ek hain..his voice was heavy now
she was still quiet
maan - ur just wasting ur time on me, just move on
she looked down
maan - just end all this & go away
she lifted him from his collar & made him stand he was way to heavy for her
but she did...hurting her self looking into his eyes..her water bag just broke
she just closed her eyes in pain
mere itne kuch karne ke baad bhi nahi kar paaye na mujhse nafrat.
he looked shocked what she meant
phir main kaise nafrat karoon aap se, aapke chand bemaine ke lavzoo se
maan - main tumse kabhi pyaar nahi kiya he turned his face
geet cuped his face - aapne to kabhi nahi kaha mujhse se ki aap mujse pyaar karte ho phir aab kis haq se mana kar rahe ho
maan - ur getting it all wrong
geet held him closer pulling his collar - phir aapki yeh dhadkane kyun tez ho jaati hain
mujhe dekh kar, phir yah ankhein kyun kho jaati hain mujh mein, kyun yeh saanson mein sirf meri khushboo hain, aap ka aur sameera ka pyar ibadaat tha
lekin humara ruhani tha..he looked at her in shock..she still belived in their love
aapka aur sameera ki dhadkane ek hain...humari toh dhadhakane kabhi mili hi nahi!!!
aapne milne kahan diya...lekin humari aatma tho ek hain, humara wajood ek hain
humari rooh ek hain ..hum juda hi kab the?...he could not bear the intensity in her eyes snapped her hand & walked back. nahi aisa kuch nahi hain fumbling back snapping away from her
(she noticed him walk her smile was invisible) she looked back into his eyes
humari rooh to usi din hi ek ho gayi thi jis din hum pehli bar mile the
he inched back in disagreement. kya aap us raat ke baad mujhe nahi mehsoos
karte aapne har ek saans main. nahi
kya aap har raat us raat ko yaad nahi karte thenahi
kya aap ka rooh ne nahi kaha aapko ki main usdin gurdwara main aapke
aas pass hi thi NAHI NAHI NAHI mujhe kuch nahi mehsoos hota
she left him jhooth sab kuch jhooth aap ka har ek lafz jhooth
maan - tum kiss cheez ki bani ho
geet - aap ke pyaar ki
maan - jab main keh raha tumse, then why can't u just understand
geet - aapne to lafzon se kabhi ikraar kiya hi nahi jo main inkaar ke liya unki mouhtaaz rahoon. jis din aapke dhadkane mujhe dekh kar teez nahi hoti us din main maan loonghi
ki aap mujhse pyaar nahi karte, jis din aapki ankhein mujh mein nahi kho thi
us din maan loongi ki aap mujhse pyaar nahi karte. jis din inn saanson mein meri khushboo nahi us din maan loongi he clutched his fist..
it was all just physcial he said with tears in his eyes
phir jab aap physical bolte ho tho aapka dil ka dard mera aankhon mein
aur jab main physical bolti hoon to mera dil ka dard aapki aankhon mein kyun dihk tha hain
he looks away aise nahi hain
she holds her stomach she could feel the contraction she bit her lips - agar physical tha
to aap mujhse shaadi ke baad kyun door rehte the. kyun khud ko rokte rahe. after marriage we could have been easily been phyiscal & koi aap ko kuch nahi bolta ..he try to run away from those questions..koi jawaab nahi haina aapke paas ...main batati hoon aapko he looked at her in suprise rokte the kyun ki wohi aap ka pyar ka izhaar, tha aapka mujhe choona, aapka mujhe dekhna, aapka mujhe bekaboo hoke aapne aagosh mein lena wohi aapke pyaar ka izhaar tha...his eyes welled in tears
aap physical hona nahi rok rahe the aap khud ko mujhe pyaar karne se rok rahe the
what u call physical was our love. aapne to sameera se bandisho mein
rehkar pyar kiya aur mujhe koi bandish bhi aapko rok nahi payi
yahan tak ki accident ke baad jab dr ne kaha he is just a vegetable, can't feel any thing
u still could not stop urself from feeling me, loving me.
aap ne us raat apne aapko mujhe chahne se rok paya na aaj rok paya ho
maan - just finish ur step 3 & leave
geet - step 3
he looked into her eyes...they had some thing which he has seen before... she said
rooh se rooh ke darmiyan,
ishq ke hain hazaro jahan
ya khuda ya khuda mujhko dede agar ek jahan
to maang lu tere liye,
Jism paak aankho mein bhar lu,
saans saans mein shamil kar lu,
is duniya mein jaan gawa,
tujhe us duniya mein hasil kar lu...
maan - tum aise kuch nahi karogi geet
he feared so much his heart was beating like it will come out his chest
kaise dar uski ankoo main uttar aaya tha..uske rooh hi kamp utti ho mano
she moved back away from him & continued
tere sajde mein sir hai jhuka,
tu ibaadat hai tu hi duaa
maut ke baad bhi jo mile bandagi ka sila,
wo maang lu tere liye,
(tere liye title track)
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1DrImF0Z04&feature=related[/YOUTUBE]
precap
step 3!!!
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Edited by muskanp - 15 years ago