Loving you the way i do...

Life requires such effort. I cannot bring myself to face the days. I want to lose myself in the night, in inebriety. For life seems vacuous right now. And i feel hollow inside. It's like you have robbed me of everything. Were you something i dreamt up in the loneliest of my dreams? For i've been wandering off the path, trying to find you. Where have you gone? Without you, i have lost the will to live. This is mere survival. I cannot bring myself to hate, for my soul has broken. You have left me defenceless. She says she is you, but i do not want to listen to her. She cannot be you, for you would not lie to me. You wouldn't keep secrets from me.

Maybe i just do not want to admit that you have lied to me. Once again, you are a stranger. My world has gone dark again, and my mind screams out, tells me you are nothing but a lowly betrayer. But i cannot stop the tears, or the lump in my throat. I have never felt so lonely before. Hating you is not helping either. You have seared my soul and in my loneliest nights, it is you i yearn for. It is only you who move me to tears. I hate you for what you are doing to me, but i love you in a way that scares me senseless. I want you to go away, but i will not be able to live without you either. I do not know what you mean to me, i just know that i need you the way i need air.

My My Liz, what a way with emotions and words you have! Summed up Dutta so well today.
His angst and his passion. How I would love for this to be reversed, where he is truly remorseful and then she is away from him, in a way, where he has to win her back. Her trust, her self respect all intact, he needs to truly feel what she feels.
Now after all this, I feel Dutta did not love her at all, he just felt soothed and comforted in her company. Love is a 2 way relationship, he only took from her, he never gave back. Thats what he needs to do now, to feel the love, he needs to give to Nakusha, what she gave him.
Dutta has killed millions of people, does Nakusha judge him for that? - No
Dutta has a million faults, does Naku not love him for that? - No, she is selfless.
Dutta hated his mother at one time, does Naku bring him back to her? - Yes, she could have said, oh he still loves me right, who cares about the Mom? - She brought him back.

So one lie, the one act of not confiding in him, makes him go beserk and question her upbringing?
Im sorry, but Dutta, you really need a reality check boss, that Loving someone has to be selfless, and you need to hear the other person's point of view before passing the verdict. And By the way who made you the judge? In love, nobody is a judge, both parties are equally the criminal and the innocent.

Right you are.......oh did he ever ask nakku about herself......did he try to ever find out who she is, why she is the way she is, about her past her upbringing............NO it was always about him though..........

You are awesome Liz..........William Shakespeare style of writing......I love the way you write....I am in trance....its something deep within you......beautiful expression..........whenever u write post......I somehow want to complement it with some poetry.......and I get happy when u like it......so here it is :-

Woh Chhup Rahe Hain Duniya Se Us Gunaah Ke Liye,
Mai To Sochta Tha Ki Main Sawaab Kama Raha Hun,
Dekh Le Jana Aaj Bhi Mai Tujhe Usi Shiddat Se Chah Raha Hun,

Log Kahte Hain Ki Woh Nahi Humare Pyaar Ke Laayak,
Dekh Teri Nalayaki Ki Main Sazaa Pa Raha Hun,

Kubool Kar Leti Ek Baar Jo Apni Naadaani, To Aaj Yeh Na Hota,
Dekh Aaj Usi Masoom Dil Ko Zakhm Yeh Diye Ja Raha Hun,
Ek Sawaab Ki Khwahish Ki Mai Yeh Kaisi Saza Pa Raha Hun,

Agar Sach Tha Tera Wajood-E-Muhabbat,
To Ek Baar Kah De Ki Khata Kya Thi,
Jana Teri Khudgarzi Ka Zahar Mai Piye Ja Raha Hun,

Kar Na Paya Muhabbat Mai Hoshiyari Se,
Is Baat Ka Pachtawa kiye Ja Raha Hun,
Aaj Bhi Usi Haseen Khwaab Me Jeene Ki Koshish Kiye Ja Raha Hun,
Dekh Tujhe Aaj Bhi Usi Shiddat Se Muhabbat Kiye Ja Raha Hun,

Hope u will like it :)😉😃

wow liz mind blowing 👏