i knw its turned out to be an essay.......but plz read through, i'm sure most of u can relate to many of my questions, n 2geda maybe, we can find sum answers.
I'm feeling really bad today i dunno i feel a pain a sense of loss n i thought i wud share it wid u all. I've always loved kash a lot n till yesterday i was really excited to see kangan....i was n still am really wanting to see shona back taday......but after yesterday's epi my love for AR has rely resurfaced......however practical n logical i try to be n think that armaan deserves to be happy wid kangan but i cannot deny d fact dat i still share a deep bond wid AR. n who were kash?? kash were not in love in real life.......it was AR dat made dem so magical, so intense. n today even d thought of ARMAAN falling for sum1 else really shakes me. one thing i knw for sure is that if armaan falls for sum1 then he will give his heart n soul to d love......but is dis possible??? can one person be madly in love wid 2 ppl in one life?? can he feel d same way for kangan as he feels for riddhima today?? n if not, wud kash fans like to see kash in such kind of a luvstory dat is half-hearted, a compromise for armaan, his second choice......armaan at dis pt. needs a shoulder to cry on but is dat all kangan is entering for???
actually if we look at it wat do armaan-riddhima need from their lives???.......ridz is married to sid, both have feelings for each other, they both understand each other, are always there for each other in bad times, n even like each other.......isn't that enuff to expect in a life-partner??? do we really need soulmates?? similarly if armaan can find happiness with kangan then wat's wrong in it?? n in AR's luv wat is sid's fault?? he has luvd riddhima frm d bottom of his heart for wtvr time he got wid her, their luv has seen more phases starting frm fights, to friends, to attraction, etc. than AR love cud have in d same amt of time.......so wat if they got less time??? does that make their love less pure?? is second love not as sacred, as pure, as divine and as true as first love??? n if AR love was so pure then y cud they never be togeda??? y always petty misunderstandings were enuff for them to fall apart??? armaan only thought about his sacrifice n his love n left riddhima for her happiness.......but did he not know that she also has d same sacrificing feeling for him n dat she wud want to help him wid his recovery, n together they cud make it happen......love is selflessness but at the same time it is togetherness......n dunt u think in armaan's absence ridz has really moved ahead wid sid.......she had even accepted dat she might be falling in love again.......was it all fake?? was it being unfaithful?? marrying him might have been social pressure but her feelings for him were not forced??? in such a situation can AR be d same AR as they were earlier......can ridz jus use sid n throw him away.......will that make AR pure??
but at d same time another side of me cant see AR so close n still so far......their heart beats for each other but still they r not togeda??? is this d end of AR??? or can their ever be an end to a love?? will dey neva be togeda??? but wat does being together really mean?? we jus want them to marry n have kids like every other couple does??? then wat's d difference??? this way also the end of their story jus boils down to practical, down to earth stuff of living your life wid a partner.....things they can do even wid kangan n sid......
in d precap it seems AR have decided to part ways but like this?? being with sum1 today but dreaming to be wid sum1 else in next janam.....leading ur life today wid sum1 but knwing dat he is not ur true goal......isn't that cheating kangan/sid?? if AR loved sincerely den dey shud seperate sincerely......
there are soooo many unanswered questions in my mind.....
Shilpa