Love you enough to Let you go..Nupur

Hello,

I am not justifying Nupur nor the divorce.. it is an attempt to show a girls inner thoughts and emotions...

I didn't see immature Nupur or angry Nupur or mean Nupur..... I saw a girl who was struggling with her emotions trying to figure out ... Life is a funny thing... if it gives something... it also takes something away... at times forces us to let go of the thing that is most precious to us... our true love...

NUPUR YESTERDAY

Have you ever felt like you have no other option? You are stuck between rock and hard place… had to choose between dreams and reality? You don't know what you are supposed to do? You question and wonder and desperately look for answers. Occam razor: in the absence of a all plausible explanations the one you see is the truth. And however improbable that solution it seems, you go ahead and take it. Yes, you heart is screaming NO... and head is all messed up...

First my dreams are crushed , yeah ..felt horrible…thought never would recover but I saw in front of me My love going through the same thing.. he is more mature than me… I came up short of words… what can I say that can make him feel better… he knows it already ... then I saw it… actions speak louder than words…doesn't he say it always… so I decided to take it up… I am not even sure I would be able to...

I think I was crushed more when I seem to disappoint him again… man I can never do anything right … he doesn't think so…. Now all my bottled up emotions came up in one… only one emotion… I was enraged… I decided to leave for a while …. And I did…. But kept on thinking…where did I go wrong… what did go wrong…. As far as I could see … I overshadow him… I suffocate him… I am sure he doesn't think this marriage is a mistake… but the consequences of this marriage are still there … I am sure he loves me more than ever even now…. But still I can't shake the feeling that he chained to this marriage….

How can I tell you … I want you to excel and I am going to be here …. there is something I can't share with you just now …. In your own words... love is a lot of things but not everything… see I still have your love and I will always love you… more than you know but right now at this moment I need to do this…. I need to unchain you … you won't like it… I don't like it…it pains me a lot …but like I said …this is my only choice… I am sure there are a lot of other things I can do …but right now … at this moment… I need to release you … so that you can soar to the higher altitudes… it may be a stupid decision but this is the one I will stick to …I know you will come back… you always did… I trust your love and mine…. I trust the strength of it….. And one thing if I ever am the reason you couldn't be who you wanted to be … I can never forgive myself…. I don't think you should have to make a choice between me and your dreams…. That day even when you choose me I can never feel proud of myself… by doing this I am going to fall in your eyes… you will hate me… you will be angry … then you will move on… you will do what you do the best… excel and conquer….. I will be here always be here…

Then again why do I feel like someone killed me and I am dead woman walking….. I sure will live … what is my life without you in it….. I just wish one day I can tell you why I did what I did … may be just may be you will love me again… even if it doesn't happen… my love for you is always there for now and forever…

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I am not trying to tell anyone anything...just what I felt when I saw with the blanket around her head and the precap...I do feel like there is a puzzle piece missing in this whole picture... hence this post..

I don't trust the CVs to do justice to her... I can still give her the due credit she deserves...

Love
AJ

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1st of all lovely post.it helps ppl stop from blaming nupur.
they havent shown her pov her side of story.hw can dey say nupur is immature.
we all knw it was only nupur who was acting mature b4 leaving to delhi.it was she who thought mayank needs time.it was she who was hoping dat every thing will be alright till she cums back from delhi.
then all of a sudden they show her asking for divorce 😲 .
we cld see and feel d pain in her eyes.she is definately not the person who breaks relationship easily.and specially not wid the person whom she luves more than anything.she is d 1 who will be ready to compromise to save her relationship.
we hav always seen whos ever mistake it might be cv's show nups apologizing at the end of every track.it may be morena track or d baby track.
nups luv and pain cld be seen in her eyes.there might be sum strong reason behind her asking for divorce.she might be feeling as a burden on mayank and wanted to free him.

lets wait and watch.
kudos to arjun and rati.they convey pain in such a way dat we feel it 👏

Aj I read this in os section and I cried …..and now the second time. I am no writer but I am glad that someone gave my thoughts words, not that I can think this beautifully😳 but I was worried that people may take her wrong after yesterday….cez to understand this girl isn't easy….the way u expressed Nupur's emotions hats off to u!!!👏👏

Great post..Agree with you..
you have very well described her POV which CVs fail to do ..

I don't have any hopes on CVs that they will show her POV in the future...At least your post has provided me to assume Nupur's POV, which will never be shown in the show

awesum post!!!....and yes...awesum acting by rati but you can see the pain in her eyes...that goes and cuts youre heart inside out!...maybe shes doing this for mayanks happiness-or she thinks so,but in turn is hurting herself.....im waiting for thier scsne today..i think im gonna cry buckets....
Lovely avi gagan...they make me feel like crying*sniff sniff**

awesome post dear ............i totally agree.............................

I'm speechless..

it was so sad to see her like this......she obviously sees no hope to be taking such a step......i think i have to watch the episode tomorrow to form an opinion about her behavior.....does she still want to divorce mayank after seeing that he regrets what he said to her?.....or does she continue living with the misconception that mayank thinks of her as a roadblock to his dreams?.....i want everything to come out tomorrow......clearly they arent understanding what they really feel.....i think if they let out all their emotions, they will find that there is nothing but love between them......naina