How is everyone today? Still shedding tears after watching today's sorrowful and teary-eyed episode? I am, and I feel so terribly sad. And it's strange as just as I began to watch the episode, small translucent drops of rain pitter pattered smacking my window with light, heavenly force. Even though this is just a serial and I remember that, I felt like the rains were crying for Kripa and Angad today….strange na? (Thanks to Nomi for the wonderful pictures)
So the episode begins where it left off, with Angad and Kripa…I can't even describe the pain, the agony, the tears in a mere few words…Explaining their love is complexity…they love each other, but there are other things in life, in a human that sometimes clash with the inner soul…and this is what happened to them…Angad's temperamental personality, and his misconceptions/misunderstandings of Kripa angers him on the surfaces, resulting in tactics to hurt Kripa even though piercing his heart in the process as well…Although rape maybe a small word, it's meaning is extensive and every internal… It is the carnal knowledge of a female, forcibly and against her will, or where the victim is incapable of giving consent because of her temporary or permanent mental or physical incapacity. The broken bangles may have pierced her skin, but the hurt was not felt there, it was felt and endured in her heart…I thought Neha was at her best today and portrayed Kripa's character very realistically and expressed her emotions well…In between they show Anitah and Manek's marital rituals being completed, and upstairs Kripa running outside, and Angad sitting on the bed…They were both like the same piece of mirror, but shattered today, Kripa cried her heart out, but Angad shed unshed tears, which were teetering and aching in his heart…Kripa walked down the stairs so lost and lonely, as if she was stepping into an isolated world…I feel so bad for her…She was the root cause for Angad's anger, yet how can she be blamed for her being ripped of her dignity, and self respect? I cannot dignify Angad's actions in any way, yet the pain swimming in his eyes, cannot go unnoticed…
Then there's the Anitah and Manek bidaai scene…uffff…Manek and Anitah as a couple, both are nautankis, one is light hearted and pure, with a bad sense of humor, and the other is foul hearted, and does not wish any good…I thought Manek would go, and we'd get rid of his for a while, and Aliyah can live in peace for a while, but yeh chipkoo, does not want to leave…producing fake tears he convinces everyone how much he's going to miss having a family etc, and Naina and Dadi buy into his tears, and tell him to stay with them, which he eagerly agrees to, after all Anitah's has no objection, no need for glycerin now! We are now shown that Aliyah does have some will power and can fight back, without crying, when Manek reveals to her his super disgusting plans, Aliyah retorts back with such new found energy, that now I begin to see some hope in her…
Dadi immediately notices Kripa's tears, but this time round I failed to know why dadi couldn't figure out that it was not the hurt on her skin because of broken bangles that she was hurt, but she was hurt internally…kabhi kabhi zakham upar se nahi dikta, balki dil mai samaye huwe hote hai…Prithvi hears this conversation, but more than listening he sees the tears dripping from Kripa's eyes, and understands that something is wrong with Kripa…so as Kripa runs through spun gold and red curtains, into the dusk of the wind, he follows her…I thought the background here collaborated extremely well with the situation here, the black night, and blue stars, with flying silky red and gold curtains…truly spoke the night as well…I can truly see Prithvi's love for Kripa in his eyes, and felt the pain arrow across his eyes with each and every drop of Kripa's tears. (Sorry all Prithvi non-lovers but I can't help it, it's true) This is probably the only thing Kripa does not want to share with Prithvi, and I understand after all, she knows Prithvi will be all the more upset, and also last time he was depressed and sorrowful he tried to commit suicide, so she probably doesn't want to burden him with her problems this time. Amit was cool today, and fell a little back in his acting today, probably because he's still recovering from his illness, I hope he recovers soon!
Then we have an Angad-Prithvi takraar…Okay it starts off with Angad telling Manek to take care of his sister, etc, and Prithvi hears on that, and taunts Angad, that before giving advice to other people about their relationships, why don't you look after your own first! Your wife is away from the wedding happiness and crying in a corner…at this Angad's eyes explodes, and his fury outrages…even though Angad regrets his sinful actions, he still has this possessive trait where Kripa is concerned, and doesn't seem to tolerate anyone else telling him about Kripa except himself…I don't know, this duo is truly set apart from the rest of the world in kyph…
With a shaking, bowed head, Angad places his hand on Kripa's shoulder, at the recognition of the touch she writhes in pain, and pushes him away…Angad apologizes to her, but she doesn't accept it, instead is enraged at this…After all one apology cannot wipe away the mark on her soul, and cannot sweep away the anguish and hurt her inner self…I found Angad's line totally wrong here, when he says "bahar shaadi ka mahol hai or something similar to this" I thought, here a woman is shattered, and broken, and you're talking about merriment and wedding…Kripa's screams echoed through the still night, and swirled around them, it was like they were tied in a circle, of pain and hurt, they cannot untangle themselves from this web, they will continuously try to scratch each other internally…and marking their pain upon themselves…I felt so sad when Kripa said "mera pati marchuka hai" and began banging her bangles against each other, letting them fall broken on the floor, this line, is completely true, since Kripa's internal happiness died, her husband's died as well, even though her meaning was entirely different, this resembled the truth. Kripa runs away through the curtains, whilst Angad kneels down, and sadly picks up a broken red bangle, the depth of his ache for his actions are in turmoil's within him…With this, the teary, sad episode ended with a slight click and Balaji Telefilms splashed across the careen in bright yellow letters…
Song for today's episode: Okay am not sure if this song even fits, but some of it's wording is apt for A-K's situation, I don't know, even after having so many different kinds of songs, I couldn't find one that I could be satisfied with, hope you enjoy it! It's from the movie; Shreemaan Funtoosh! I know old na? I like listening to old songs as well, that's probably why you'll see more old songs than newer ones!
ye dard bharaa afsaanaa, sun le anaaan zamaanaa zamaanaamain hooN ik paagal premi, meraa dard na koi jaanaa - 2
ye dard bharaa afsaanaa...
koi bhi vaadaa, yaad na aayaa
koi qasam bhi, yaad na aayee
meri duhaai, sun le Khudaai
mere sanam ne, ki bevafaai
dil TooT gayaa deevaanaa
sun le anjaan zamaanaa zamaanaa
main hooN ik paagal premi, meraa dard na koi jaanaa - 2
phooloN se maine daaman bachaayaa
raaho mein apni kaaNTe bichhaaye
main hooN deevaanaa, deevaangi ne
ik bevafaa se nehaa lagaaye
jo pyaar ko na pahchaanaa
sun le anjaan zamaanaa zamaanaa
main hooN ik paagal premi, meraa dard na koi jaanaa - 2
yaaden puraani, aane lagin kyaa
aaNkhen jhukaa lee, kyaa dil mein aayee
dekho nazaaraa, dilbar hamaaraa
kaisi hamaari, mahfil me aayaa
hai saath koi, begaanaa
sun le anjaan zamaanaa zamaanaa
main hooN ik paagal premi, meraa dard na koi jaanaa - 2
Another thought for today: Life is beautiful, yet sometimes thorns prick your way, even though you know those very thorns are the ones that hold you….One might say why love, when you know you're going to be embedded in thorns? Thing is, no matter how shallow and sharp the thorns are, and no matter how many they are, they can never be greater than the eternal moment of a thorn less moment…of love!
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