sheena had realized that she had fell asleep when she accidentally knocked over the painting she was working on. "crAP" she said as she tried to pick up everything as fast as possible before the paints made any big stains. She went to the bathroom to clean up the paints from her face and hands. As she was washing her hands, she looked at herslef for a long time in the mirror. She was extremely tired from the pressure at work and school and was getting barely enough sleep. And she always felt guilty because she couldn't get to paint as much as she'd love to now. I mean, she knew balancing college and work would be hard so she wouldn't get to have too much time for herslef. But this was too much. It was almost as if she was falling into some sort of depression. Who knew you could get depressed from not painting? 😲 The clock read 5:40 AM so she decided to go online and check some things before she headed to her real bed..
After some time, she got into her warm bed sheets and snuggled up 😳. She tried hard to fall asleep and catch the few hours she had left.
The sun rose high in the sky shining through her bedroom window. Sheena hadn't slept the whole night. Instead, she lie awake thinking of her past. She couldn't get out of it no matter how much she tried. She knew it wasn't good for her health and mentally. She needed to stop right away before she started losing her mind. But no matter what shw couldn't. Those images came back to her mind like stabs in her heart. She was so numb she couldn't even cry anymore. Then she thought of his face. "Pata nai kyun.. I keep thinking of him" she said outloud. He seemed so sweet and mysterious. Something about him had caught her eye like nothing else had. Maybe if he came again to the cafe she could get to know him... No... Sheena stop thinking like this. Who would be interested in some depressed psycho like you. Seriously.
This morning she felt something new. Something inside of her was going to get past this and be normal again. She pushed herself up from bed and forced herself to take a cold shower. She knew that would definately wake her up. She got ready and grabbed everything she would need for the day. Then she took her ipod from under all the books under her bed and turned it to a loud and upbeat song and turned it up loud. Then she smiled widely and walked out the door into her small world that was just waiting for her...