For all heart broken/disppointed Sajanians: OS-FF

Samrat was lost in his thoughts, walking down the long deserted corridor of excel college. His thoughts were none other than about Gunjan. The questions going through his mind, the answers, the theories, the speculation! It was all too much!

Samrat: Yeh ho kya raha hai mere saath? Kya Benji ko pata tha? Kya sab ko...?

*flash back* remembers the time when Uday had accidently locked him with Gunjan in the college's broom cupboard, the day when Gunjan and him had been closer than he'd ever imagined, what happened on that day I will still not understand Samrat thinks to himself, how could I get so close to Gunjan like that, the thought had brought back the feeling that he felt that day being so close to Gunjan, but there was something nagging him at the back of his mind...

Samrat: Phir mujhe pata chala tha ke yeh Benji ka plan tha! Toh kya Benji ko pehle se pata tha? Kya us nay yeh hamesha dekha hai? Jo kabhi mein nahi dkh paya? Us nay mujhe kabhi kuch kaha bhi nahi...

*flash back* remembers the time when Benji always tried to put Samrat and Gunjan in situations where both had to be together and talk, all the good times he had with Gunjan because of it and how he felt the 2 become closer than ever! All thanks to Benji... *smiles to himself a little*

Samrat: agar Sheena ki woh stupid condition Gunjan ko na pata hoti, toh woh mujh se friendship kabhi na finish karti! Itna apnay friend ki khushi kay liye kaun karta hai?

Chashmish tab bhi mere liye wahan thi jab Ranvijay nay mujh pe woh ganda aur jhoota ilzaam lagaya tha. Akhir tak Chashmish nay mera saath diya! Sheena, Dia, Chaco, Annie, Uday sab nay mujh per bharoosa nahi kiya, yahan tak ke meray best buddy Benji ko bhi mujh per doubt honay laga, lekin Chashmish nay kabhi bhi Ranvijay ki baatoon per bharoosa nahi kiya, hamesha us nay yehi kaha ke mein Samrat ko janti hoon aur woh kabhi aisa kar he nahi sakta, agar Chashmish nahi hoti toh sab us Ranvijay ki baat ko sach maan latay...

*flash back* rememebers all the times when Gunjan was in a white dress and looked like an Angel: talent parade, valentine's dance, the college play...

Samrat: Sab kuch badla hua lagta hai, woh hoti hai saath toh sab kuch perfect lagta hai, killer dude, woh muskarati hai toh dil ki dharkanein taiz ho jati hain, woh roti hai tau har cheez buri lagti hai and jab woh chalti hai tau thousand metallic guitars, jab woh mourti hai tau aisa lagta hai ke rock performance ka drumroll...HOLD ON...Samrat realized that he had suddenly stopped...

*flash back* rememebers the time when Uday had asked him to describe his dream girl and this is exactly what he had said!

Samrat *smiles to himself*: toh phir Benji janta tha, lekin, kaise...

Samrat always knew that he was attracted to Gunjan, like a magnet, which is probably the reason why he could pinpoint her exact location in a room full of people, crazy he thought to himself yet in a weird way Samrat felt whole and satisfied!

Samrat's baffled as to why he didn't acknowledge it earlier, he understood now what the nagging in the back of his mind is, he knew that he had always felt this way about Gunjan since the first day he saw her!

*flash back* rememebers Gunjan apologizing to him for pushing Chaco, it was innocent and pure - is she a dream or a fantasy? he had thought!

Samrat had doubts though, questions that needed to be answered and answers that needed to be explained - he didn't know what he felt @ that exact moment as he was overwhelmed by his emotions, so much was going through him, his mind was baffled, lost in thoughts: shock, surprise were one of the few emotions he felt, did Chasmish feel the same way? what if its true, could it be, no?? yes?? He carried on walking his mind far away and his thoughts rested only on Gunjan.

The air smelled somewhat sweeter than before, his heart was racing a little faster...what was all this he thought to himself!? Madness or something else....?

As Samrat was barely walking along when someone bumped into him...Samrat came back to reality but his thoughts were still distant.

Samrat: Suresh yaar aaram say, dekh kar, jaldi kya hai itni - he was still lost in thoughts of Gunjan but paid a little attention to Suresh.

Suresh: Aray Samrat acha hua tu mil gaya, hum sab kitnay pereshan thay, ab sab mil gaye hain siwaye eik kay, tu nay Gunjan ko kahin dekha hai?

Gunjan, Gunjan, Gunjan.

Samrat heard her name 3 times though Suresh has only said it once, Samrat's attention was totally diverted to Suresh now!

Samrat: Nahin mein nay toh nahi! Kyun kya hua? Tu itni jaldi mein kyun hai? Aur pereshan kyun lag raha hai?

Suresh: Sammy tu kidhar tha, tujhe pata nahi college ki music building mein aag lag gaye hai, mujhe bheja gaya hai sab ko college mein dhoondnay kay liye aur un ko college se bahir janay kay liye, tu mil gaya hai lekin Gunjan nahi mili, koi larki keh rehi thi kay Gunjan music building mein gayi thi aag lagnay se pehlay!

This was it!

Samrat felt as if the floor underneath his feet was yanked away, without listening furthur to anything else Suresh had to say Samrat sprinted as fast and as hard as he could towards the music building, ignoring the warnings Suresh was shouting at him to get out of college!

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Samrat's heart was racing, his breathing felt shorter to him, his eyes kept pricking, the feeling of anguish and loss had already started to takes it toll, he felt everything, he wasn't trying to think of the worst but it just kept shoving itself back in his mind, he could feel the heat of the burning flames, the fumes he was inhaling was burning his throat but he didnt care...Gunjan was more important!

He reached the main music room and saw her, she looked horrified and scared in the middle of the room while the fire was ablaze all around her, her fear was showing through, but before Samrat had time it happened all too quickly, Samrat had ran faster than ever and pushed Gunjan out of the way, in the nick of time, the burning log felt hard to the place where Gunjan was a second ago.

He was holding on to Gunjan from the waist, tightly!

Samrat: Gunjan tum theek toh ho na?

*flash back* remembers the time when he had saved Gunjan from drowning at Dia's pool party, he had asked the same question.

Samrat was looking @ her intently but what he saw was more surprising, Gunjan looked horrified and with those expressions was looking @ Samrat's hand.

Gunjan: Samrat tum... tumhara haath, Samrat tumhara haath, tum theek ho? Samrat tum nay kyun kiya aisa? tumhara haath jal gaya! *coughs a little*

Samrat: Chashmish tum bhi na, mein tumhari jaan bachanay aya hoon aur tum ho ke thanks kay bajaye mujhe dant rehi ho? Samrat knew it wasn't the time to joke but he couldn't help, his heart melted away as Chashmish showed him so much concern!

Gunjan: Samrat..tum... *coughs* ...bhi...

Samrat was alarmed, Chashmish had been in the building longer than he had thought, she had inhaled too many dangerous fumes and gases and the heat was unbearable too, he felt Gunjan's weight on him, she had fainted and her breathing seemed slower and shorter, her eyes kept flickering...Samrat was feeling dead, he felt nothing but anguish and horror, it daunted on him that he has to get her out and fast,!

He picked her up and carried her out of the building carefully making sure nothing touched her, but kept pacing and running faster, he kept his head closer to hers, towering over her to protect her from inhaling more fumes, the exit was clearly visible so he sped up, as he was about to leave another blazed piece of the buidling fell, to protect Chashmish he put his arm in front on of her to protect her, in the process the one whole side of Samrat's arm got burnt but he didn't care the only important thing was Chashmish and that was it!

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Samrat sat Gunjan down and tried to wake her up!

Samrat: Chashmish, Chashmish utho, tum meray saath aisa nahi kar sakti, Gunjan, he patted her cheeks gently, Gunjan, he tried everything to get her to open her eyes, her eyes weren't flickering anymore and he knew why, she was in a very serious condition, due to the lack of oxygen her lungs weren't working properly.

Samrat *shouting at the top of his voice*: Aap nay ambulance ko bulaya kya? abhi tak aye kyun nahi woh loog? dekha nahi Gunjan ki halat kitni serious hai, koi toh help karay us ki! Gunjan ankhein kholo, dekho mein Samrat, Chasmish come on please ankhein khalo please...

Principle looked helpless but also sympathetic towards Samrat, the concern of that boy for Gunjan was truly amazing, he knew that to Samrat, Gunjan was much more than he knew, which is probably why he didn't care about his burnt arm, the pain... Poor boy, Principle thought and also looked at Gunjan and tried himself to wake her up, she was always a good student, always did the right things, she was always like a daughter...

The ambulance had come by this point...

Samrat held on to Gunjan's hand as she was being taken away on the hospital bed to the operating room, he held on tight!

Nurse: aap ko yahan per he rehna ho ga aap andar nahi aa saktay!

Samrat: per chashmish, nurse woh theek toh rehi gee? mein us kay saath rehna chata hoon, mein us ko akela nahi chor sakta, aap samjhnay ki koshish karen please!

Nurse: I'm sorry per is patient ki halet bahut critical hai, aur aap humein apna kaam nahin karnay de rehay, please aap wait karein, as soon as we're done you'll be the first to know!

Samrat had nothing else to do, the nurse was so presistant, he sat outside the operation theatre, he had forgotten that that Princi had come with him and was looking at Samrat with a peculiar expression, Samrat was baffled as Princi had never looked at him like that.

Samrat sat on the bench but his eyes were fixated on the room with Gunjan in.

Princi: Hosala Samrat my boy, patience, Gunjan will be fine, she is a strong girl!

He put a hand on Samrat's shoulder!

After getting the all okay from the doctor, Samrat ran to Gunjan's bed side! Princi had already gone and had made Samrat promise to phone him as soon as Gunjan was awake. He also said that he would inform Gunjan's family about Gunjan!

Samrat dragged a chair from the room and sat in it next to Gunjan's bed, he held her hand as soon as he was sitting, he looked at her for a moment, remembering the feeling of how it tore him apart as he thought he had lost his Chashmish, pain flickered across his face for a second but was gone, he was looking at Gunjan with eyes which could not see anything else beyond Gunjan, eyes which had so much love, eyes which were looking at Gunjan intently with passion and awed expression, how Samrat was glad, glad that she was going to be fine, glad that she had survived - he thought glad wasn't the word, he was over-joyed, he didn't know if Gunjan was awake but thought better of it and started talking.

Samrat: Chashmish, mein... *he didn't know what to say for the first time* mein kahan se shuru karoon? Itna sab kuch ho gaya lekin phir bhi yaqeen nahi hota ke hum aaj yahan hain, the thought of losing you for a while there, made me feel nothing but dead and crazy, kuch nahi feel kar saka, it felt a if my world turned upside down! Kuch samhaj mein nahi aa raha tha, lekin phir tumharay siwa aur kuch nahi dekhai diya, tumharay siwa kuch dekhnay ko hai bhi nahi, tumhari muskarahat, tumhari baatein, tumhara andaaz, tumharay barey mein sab kuch meray ankhoon kay samnay tha!

Mera haal bura ho gaya tha, tumharay har baat mujhe yaad aa rahi thi, bahir bethay huay kya kuch nahi socha mein nay! Itna helpless aur hopeless kabhi bhi mein nay nahi feel kiya!

He grabbed her hand a little tighter.

Samrat: Jab tum smile karti ho toh dil ki dharkanoo ki raftaar taiz ho jati hain, jab tum roti ho tau har cheez buri lagti hai, jab tum chalti ho tau thousand metallic guitars bajtay hain, aur jab tum mourti ho tau aisa lagta hai ke rock performance ka drumroll, yeh sab khubien mere dream girl mein hain aur woh tum ho!

The heart monitor had starting beeping because Gunjan's heart rate had increased. Samrat smiled and knew Gunjan was awake and listening!

Samrat: Mein kabhi apni feelings to samhaj hi nahi paya, kab mein tum se pyar karnay laga pata he nahi chala, chashmish tumhara bharoosa aur pyar meray liye sab kuch hai, tum nay hamesha mera saath diya, tum ne tab bhi mera saath diya jab mere saath koi nahi tha *flash back* remembers getting accused by Ranvijay but Gunjan standing up and saying Samrat could never do such a thing.

Samrat: Aisa bhi kya hota hai?

Samrat: Ghalti meri thi, mein kabhi nahi samjha jo sab ko dekta tha, mein nay Sheena ko choose kiya, woh wrong tha, tumharay siwa kabhi merey liye koi aur ho he nahi sakta, sirf tumhara saath meray liye sab kuch hai, kyunki mere liye dosti pyar hai, aur tum meri dost honay ke ilawa mera pyar bhi ho! Tum sirf meri chashmish ho!

He kissed her hand!

Gunjan smiled and quietly said.

Gunjan: Pata hai Samrat, mujhe tumhari awaaz sab sey clear sunahi de rahi thi, jab tum mujhe utha kar building ke bahir lay kar gaye toh tumhari awaaz mein badlaou tha lekin phir bhi tumhari awaaz sab se unchi mere kanoon mein gunge rahi thi! Kyunki tum mere liye bahut important ho!

Tum ko khush deknay ke liye mein nay har woh kadam uthaiya jis say mera dil toota, lekin tumharay khushi kay liye sab theek laga, jab mein nay hamari dosti tori, toh mera dil puri tarha se bikhar gaya tha lekin aaj aisa lagta hai kay mera dil wapis jur gaya hai! Sirf tumhari wajah say...

Gunjan: Tum se itna pyar karnay ki saza mila hai mujhe, tabhi toh mein yahan hoon, lekin tum meray saath ho, agar mujhe kuch ho jata...

but before she could say anything Samrat was furious.

Samrat: Gunjan...

Gunjan with surprise opened her eyes and looked at Samrat, he called her Gunjan instead of Chashmish, his face had drained all colour, he looked furious and shocked at the same time, that's why she loved him because he cared for her so greatly! Gunjan sat up...

Samrat: Kabhi aise baat phir na karna, tumhein khona, *the pained expression returned and Gunjan noticed* meray liye...

Samrat broke off, Gunjan knew she hurt Samrat so she just squeezed his hand a little to tell him she was sorry, he returned the squeeze and then he looked straight into her eyes with content, naturally she shyed away.

His heart skipped a beat...happily he thought yeh Gem sirf Samrat ka hai...

Samrat: Toh Gunjan jee, ab toh app date per chalein ge na? nelay asmaan kay talay? meri bike per?

Gunjan as well as shying away again, laughed a little too as she remembered Bhavesh!

But before anything Samrat leaned in closer to her, Gunjan was surprised and shy so she just kept looking down at the hand Samrat was still holding onto, the heart monitor beeped rapidly, Samrat glanced once at the monitor with his eyes and then at looked back at Gunjan again with passion.

Smiling a little he said:

Samrat: Chashmish is se pehlay kay koi aur aye aur hamari iss special date to disturb kare, *Gunjan got butterflies at Samrat saying hamari* I wanted to say that your very special, your the only thing in life that is so dear to me, your my Chashmish and because of that I wanted to tell you that I love you!

He kissed Gunjan on her cheek and pulled back a little, only to see Gunjan scarlet red, shy and looking away but with a smile on her face!

The heart monitor beeped faster than before, Samrat's smile became a grin, she glanced and saw Samrat wink at her, she looked away but looked back again at Samrat because she knew she had to do it now she wouldn't have the courage to do it later!

Gunjan: I love you too Samrat.

Samrat couldn't stop himself and hugged Gunjan tightly, this feeling of being whole had made him the happiest person alive, Gunjan on the other hand was relieved and as well as over-joyed, the thought of Samrat loving her made her so happy!

Samrat laughing looked towards the door and was surprised at what he saw, Gunjan noticing the surprise followed his gaze and was herself surprised and embrassed to see Mayank, Nupur, Benji, Dia and Uday standing at the door, but they were all looking at her and Samrat adoringly, she wondered if they had just witnessed all that between her and Samrat, she looked again and noticed that Mayank and Nupur were holding hands, she understood that everything was going to be alright after all and so did Samrat! Everything was perfect now...

Awesomely written....loved the happy ending :)