Dear friends...i was watching the golden KS episodes....and one thing always hunted me was that what did jai walia really thought of their consummation night...did he really thought it was mistake...and then what kind of man was he...i mean did he had no feeling really...all those scene showed that he soo much wanted to be with her...so i just wrote this SS...i wrote down jai walia's or rather my opinion about his feeling after the consummation....
I hope you guys like...this is just for fun...
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Jai Walia's Secret Diary aftr June19 (complete)
Dear diary
It has been years that i have stopped writing in, let out touching you, my dearest dairy you know that after mum its always you whom i share all secrets with, with whom i share everything whether its happiness or sorrow.
The past 10 without you...i felt so lonely, i felt like there was life but i wasn't living, i was lost somewhere i don't know...i tried to identify myself my needs but i couldn't do it...until........
One day when she came into my life...since then my life has changed....totally changed... she came into my life as my wife and i hated her....gosh dear dairy i hated her so much that....i don't know how much...i verbally abused her....but she didn't said anything to me....she kept quite and i hate her for that the most....i mean why...just why....didn't she said to me anything...but no she ate all those horrible words that i throw at her....
Dear dairy i hate myself for that...i hate myself....dear dairy i know your upset with me that i don't share anything with you in the past 10 years....and i'm here telling you everything again, sharing all this with you....coz i can't share it with anyone else you know me very well nah...
Dear dairy....her name is Bani....ummm Bani Walia....no actually Bani Jai Walia...i changed her name the other month when we were flying to Goa i changed her name from Bani Walia to Bani Jai Walia in her passport......she is only 20...and you know she is the most beautiful woman that i have ever seen in my life....she is beautiful inside out....her eyes are the most attractive part of her body...no actually her everybody part her every curve is so attractive....ummm the way she walks her bum swings side ways...and her bust....god she literally drove me crazy when i saw her in Sahil's engagement part and how her pallu moved for a second from her chest and her navel her flat tummy....i wanted to touch her that flat tummy...wanted to kiss her senseless until she big for mercy but i couldn't...that bi*** roshani...she stuck to me like a glue...wanted to kill her there....
Dear dairy that night i couldn't stop myself from making love to her.....coz that roshani she was pissed at me...we had fight when we got home...she started crying...and i felt so blank...i mean my flipping mind stopped working...coz the wind was blowing her hair and her pallu...i mean i saw everything...damn it i had this urge to go and kiss her...and actually that's what i did...i mean i went close to her and held her face....and then kissed her face her lips then i did what people call it now days a French kiss....ok now im feeling all warmed up...i mean im blushing reminds me of when massi teased me before the engagement party...when she handed me a saree to give it to Bani....(that was the best part how JW was blushing....gosh RK looked so cut like ladoo)
Ok back to my story now...and then we did all that you...ok its not my fault i mean i was kissing her but she pulled apart and lay on the bed...and then i knew what that meant so i undressed myself then her...i loved it how she felt shy...when i was taking her saree off...you know she had her eyes closed all the time until when i was doing the final part....
The worst part was when that stupid my ex pia rani came disturbing me from what i was...no...i mean we were doing...and she went on with her carp...but you know dear diary...from what pia said i realised that what i did was wrong...i though i took advantage of her...i mean i told her i will divorce when massi leaves but then i made love to her....god nooooooo....i screamed hwy i did that...hated myself...couldt face myself in mirror...dear diary...then i did what broke both our hearts....
I told her that what happened was mistake and i didn't mean it...and that i was 20 years older than her and all other shit stuff...
For the next few days i stayed in office couldn't see her properly either.... will i started leaving early for office then come home late and sleep in study...i couldn't even sleep in my bedroom...obviously i couldn't trust myself...i knew that i was gonna do something and say sorry in the morning...what a cheap man i was...seriously...
Any ways she was also busy with the wedding preparation...and then Rano and Sahil thing happened...god that was another drama...but hey i'm glad Rano and Sahil are together i mean they love with each other so they should be...
For the next few days i only saw glimpse of her....my lady love...and then on the mehndi day i had to stay...i mean common yaar my niece and nephew and saali was getting married and me being the JW not staying at home was a big shame...and the morning i came to me bedroom she wasn't there and so i went to get shower and wore my white kurta and Armani jeans...and then the door clicked open as i was about to pull up my jeans...i saw her entering the room looking absolutely gorgeous, sexy, hot, beautiful, breath taking etc. The saree she was wearing god she looked like an angle send from the heaven just for me..wait a minute how come for me i though...she was looking shyly at me..then she came close to with her head bowed down...i just stupid staring at her like stupid fool cow...with my mouth open for sure...with her sweet voice she said....
Mr Walia...aapne white kurta kyu pehna...
I came out of my trance...ummm...woh...aahh...woh...again me stup...god dint know what to say...The she said again...
Aaj mehndi ki raat hai...haldi ki nahe...mani aapki laye yeh sherwani kahrida tha...aap ese pehen lejye....
I took it from her hand marched the bathroom...in order to save myself from becoming embarrassed in front of my wife...
As came out of the bathroom wearing what my wify handed me...Then we were staring at each other...for god knows how long...
God my hand is paining now...i wrote so much...yeah so that was amazing mehndi night...we had fun...we danced together...i sang for her...she had mehndi in her hand massi forced me to feed her in front of everyone...and yeah dear diary trust me...i enjoyed how jigs and rosh gave me those murderous looks...but hey who cares ...Bani is my wife and i have every right to feed her...so i didn't even give a shit about them...i did what i enjoyed and loved watching Bani blushing...ummm it reminded me of our C night...
When i retired to our bed room...my wify was already there...trying to take her chudia off...i smiled at her...i mean her hands are full with mehndi and still she was trying to take them off...she can be pain in ass some times...i went to help her...again all those feeling that arise in me in our C night (and how for the past on week still i had those feelings)...those feeling came again...i mean i couldn't stop myself...i just soo much wanted her again...
I just couldn't stop so...i kissed her again...then i was about to kiss her on lips...she stopped me...will she had every rights to.... i mean after last time what happened...she said... i cant do this...my heart stopped beating for a second....then she said i cant accept rejection again...then i realised what she meant by rejection...will she was right no woman on would accept that rejection after her man makes love to her....
I looked at her...into her eyes...i told her whatever that was in my head...the reason that i said the her that our C night was mistake...i asid i was cowered and scared....will i actually to be honest with you dear diary i was scared of rejection i mean after roshani and pia i wasn't ready for another rejection...
And then out of the blue she said I LOVE YOU MR WALIA...oh i was taken back i mean that soo unexpected...and then what she did to me was totally shock...will she kissed me actually...will she is soo shy and stuff so i thought it will be me who will take the first step always but nope...this time it was my wife...will like me she was going through very hard time i mean keeping her hands off from a supper hot, sexy, handsome man like me you know...it's the JAI WALIA after all....hehe....lolllllllll...
Will dear diary another best part was when jigs and roshani saw us in the kitchen doing French kiss....i mean common i actually we couldn't help it....we just wanted to kiss...get a bit smoochy you know...but she always complains...Mr Walia you have really bad timing...now what can i do...when i'm soo in love with her...
Ok dear diary its her birthday and i'm going to gift her this diary...trust me she is going to kill me for sure...and yeah before i forget...the reuslt of that night..... i mean C night...will i guess that night our twins were conceived...will yeah we have two beautiful twins...there are the most precious gift that God and Bani has given me...you know they are boy and girl...my little princess's name is Krishna and my little prince's name is Athurva ...
Will my hand is letrally killing me now...i'm going to stop writing and wrap this book in gift wrapper and then gift her tomorrow...then after me it will be Bani who will always keep you up to date...for now...tataz...and byezzzzzzz....and good nightz too...
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