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get in my car, as I hate driving, I asked papas driver to drop me home. Sitting alone in d car, missing him so much, I hate it being alone, more precisely BEING WITHOUT HIM. We always try go back home together , but usually I m free at 5 evening , since armaan is now a surgeon some times emergency cases makes him work for longer hours . I love going back home with him , so that I can lean on his shoulder , I feel so relaxed , so stressed out when I m near him , I just hold his arm n putting my head on his shoulder , keeping my eyes closed , cherishing the happiness of my life with him , I m still the same searching for happiness in small things …we talk about our cases , home , and his favorite topic RIDHIMA , RIDHIMA , RIDHIMA ,as always
With these thoughts I end up to my place. I get out of car, dragging my self to the home. I am so tired, more because, I dint get to be with my husband today after the duty. Better I get ready, have a shower, n a cup of coffee.
It feels so good after a hot shower, now the most difficult thing, I have to choose a dress for the night. I know its nothing special, we are just hanging out, but I love to get ready for my husband. Hmmm…what should I wear, a suit, naa that I usually wear, a sari – he says I look best in that, or something of his taste. SURPRISED – I know , I wan never into western , but since our marriage , I love to be the way my husband wants me to , but he keeps on saying "you look beautiful in whatever you are in", he's to sweet I know ..I still wanted to be more and more of his taste , THE TASTE which he changed in my dictatorship , he he ….but I want to give n serve the best to my man …
OK then finally I ended up with western!! A dress which he selected for me long back. That was our first shopping together after our engagement. we were shopping for him , and he was smiling mischievously on a girl , because she was so hot according to armaan of course , n I was red in anger , I know he was doing that thing to make me feel jealous , and I was seriously …he kind of challenged me with those looks , I said "what's in that I can wear the same ", and he said "I DON'T WANT YOU TO , YOU ARE THE BEST , YOU DON'T NEED TO CHANGE "…but I forced him that I want to do this for him , I know he never intended to make me do that thing , but the thing was "I WANTED TO DO THAT FOR HIM ", and I still remember his expressions when I tried that dress , he was like so surprised , eyes popped out , mouth open , n that bought my confidence to ground and I ended up doing my same job "BLUSHING MORE AND MORE ". .
Its like a white midi, with spaghettis, I wore my white stiletto's, done with the makeup and here I am waiting for him. Meanwhile let me prepare coffee for him. And I hear his car. I m excited like a kid , who waits for something like a gift .and I open the door , he is coming closer to me , and I welcome him with a smile "How was your work ??"…he came closer to me without a word, kissed me hugged me and saying "hi baby, I missed you so much"…and now I hug back again, as if "OHHHH… ME TO"
ARMAAN : (getting away from me ) let me see you , from top to bottom , ooooooohhhh baby you look so sexy (with his knotty smile )…lets cancel our plans (coming closer to pick her up)
Nooo…..plzzz we need to go naa plzzz , I know I can do wonders with that baby face , hee hee ……
ARMAAN : ya stop him from saying a single word this time, because I know this man can make me do any thing he wants with his charming nature …..I ask him to get ready, and my poor husband he leaves right at the moment...i went to get a cup of coffee for him... in my bedroom , he was standing their confused without a shirt !!!Ahhhhh he's so "SO IRRESTIBLE", controlling my feelings, I gave him the coffee mug, putting the coffee on the side table, he came and hugged me from the back,
ARMAAN : ohhh plzzz basket , help me , what should I wear ….
I know this man just wants a reason to hug me, well I want him to keep searching for those reasons to!!!! I help him out with a shirt finally , asking him to dress up
ARMAAN : I m to tired baby, can u plzzz help me out with this
He is so knotty I tell you, after all he is "ARMAAN MALIK"
Here I am with a sarcastic smile, dressing up my small baby!!!
Before he can do any thing, my cell ranged
ARMAAN : hamesha galat timing
RIDHIMA : hamesha sahe timing
And we both burst out laughing
I informed Dee , that we will be in the club in few minutes…..armaan playing with my hairs from backside , "KABAB ME HADDE "…….I managed to stop them from the argument …I tell you Dee and armaan keep on fighting with issues like "SHES MY WIFE NOW , SHES MY SISTER FROM BIRTH , SHE LOVES ME MORE , N WHAT NOT !!!"… I prefer to keep quite at this , because I don't want my baby to be a looser ...truly speaking Dee and armaan both are equal to me , IS THAT SO ??? he he …. ohk , but …………..
We are finally leaving for the club…armaan holds me from my waist , as he always do, it feels like "AS IF WE ARE STILL DATING" …..I get into his car, aaahhh what am I saying our car , I still remember the day one he offered me a lift….he was such a gentle man that time and I thought what a flirt , at that moment never thought that this man is my destiny , actually "HE IS MY DESTINY"……ohk now coming back, I was adoring him like a innocent child , IN MY MIND "OHH…I MISSED IT SO MUCH TODAY BEING WITH YOU , LEANING ON YOUR SHOULDER" , again here is my perfect husband , he can always make it out what's in my mind !!!He gives me a smile, a smile saying "I KNOW, ME TO"…….and finally
ARMAAN : come here (he call's me in a soft voice, so romantic )
ME : yaaaaaaaaa , I really want to(sweetly, coming close to him)
And I hold him, leaning on him, he kisses on my head, saying
ARMAAN : you don't need my permission for doing so
He he , I know, then we had a small talk about the hospital issues, about rahul who is really busy these days shopping for his marriage with muskaan , I dint mention it yet , yes finally rahul and muskaan are together, like a happy couple , loving each other !
And then ……………..
ARMAAN : ridhhhhiiiiimmmaaaaa
Oh no plz not again , my husband he calls me like that I mean ridhhhhhiiiiimmmaaaa, when he has some fishy thoughts in his mind and he very well knows that I am not going to be really happy with that ….OK now don't create suspense armaan , spill it off
ARMAAN : wo actually hum club jaa rae hai
ME : right!
ARMAAN : club me kya hota hai , dance , mastee , party , blast and and and
I got him , I will tell you my teddy is not a alcoholic, but he doesn't mind taking it occasionally…me being his boss, we had a agreement that "IF HE WILL DRINK SOME DAY, I WILL NOT BE KISSING HIM THAT DAY", my poor baby he has to make a choice now between me and a peg, obviously I Am the only the undefeated champion every time ……I know I m really MEAN at times, but "I LOVE DOING THIS , AND I KNOW HE LOVES THAT TO"……..
ARMAAN : that's not good , you make me loose every time, you are such a blackmailer, emotional blackmailer……
RIDHIMA : ohh no , don't curse me for this , it's a deal dear , you are free to make a choice, plzzz go ahead…….
ARMAAN : you made me a loser ridhima
RIDHIMA : hey what did I do !!!!
ARMAAN : oh yaa , you want to know what did you do ??? Let me start then –
1ST LOSS – venue: basketball court
Loss : I lost a game , a basket ball match, that to from a girl….what was wrong with me!!
(I know I am good at basket ball)
2ND LOSS – venue: sanjeevani, my first day of internship
Loss : I lost my self into a simple girl, trying to irritate her all the time ,playing pranks on her , It was so much fun doing that on you .
(yeah yeah , you were such a moster )
3RD LOSS – venue: basketball match
Loss: I know that was not a good day for you basket , but that day seeing you in tears I was hurt from inside , shit man how can I hurt THE RIDHIMA, I pity what I did , truly….SORRY for that again jaan , I really mean it , I Lost myself completely that day.
(he is always sorry for that bet, )
4TH LOSS – venue: lonavala trip in jungle
Loss : I tell you basket, girls are like finding reasons to come near me, and for me that was a normal thing, but when you hugged me in fear , my whole body was electrified, It was something that happened with me first time , this time I was blushing , armaan malik blushing , A BIG LOSS
(my stud blushing , he he )
5TH LOSS – venue: again lonavala jungle trip
Loss : you remember when we were in a hut spending night together, you was all wet , drying your hair , I know you have beautiful hair , but that day you appeared most gorgeous to me a innocent sweet girl, bizzy with her wet hairs….it was a cold, I dint wanted that cold to even touch you and rest you know what happened…..i was admiring you the whole night, a sleepeless night lost in a beauty !
(O MY GOD , what can I say, but yaa I can do one thing , BLUSH !)
6TH LOSS – venue: our workplace sanjeevani
Loss : now after all this , with each passing day I was loosing my self daily for you,
My happiness for you
My tears for you
My time for you
My smile for you
My accidents for you
My pains for you
My carrer for you
My sleepless nights for you
My soul for you
My heart for you
Myself for you and only you !
(I cant control myself now, I love you so much , am sorry for hurting him every time I did)
7TH LOSS – venue:doesn't matter
Loss : you broke me to the core , our first brakeup
(plzz armaan , I hate recalling that , I hold him more firmly , assuring him that I feel guilty for that even today…he made a move closer to me, indicating , thats ok girl , you don't need to feel that way …he is such a darling!)
8TH LOSS – venue:lonavala
Loss : you were back in my arms , at last after so many things you finally confessed…that was the happiest day , after so long we were together… I again lost myself for you, completely this time , and now I cant even dare to think of getting away from you …
(I smile, feeling that he was so happy, is great)
9TH LOSS – hey we were engaged finally, I lost my license to flirt freely now
(I hit him playfully, and he giggles)
10Th LOSS – I am married , I am no more a bachelor !!!
(I take a proud at this , yes you are my man now )
ARMAAN : ye to important dated hai , iske alawa bahut bade list hai madam , par sorry fir kabhe hum bass club pahuch gae hai…
He parked the car.
I WAS DEEP IN THOUGHTS ----- ARMAAN I m so sorry , I made you the looser , I felt that from inside , he loves me so much , he did so many things to me , good or bad , but finally we ended up in beautiful life together forever. I am in tears , I need to hide them from him , he cant see me like that , he is such a sweetheart he starts crying seeing me in tears , doesn't matters then what the reason is !! I moved away from him, looking outside the glass… how hard I try , he makes it out , and yet again he did .
ARMAAN : RIDHIMA , kya hua ???
RIDHIMA : nothing (controlling my emotions so badly)
He is tensed now, wondering what happened to me, he came towards me running, I just opened the door , he holds my hand ,and help me getting out… he placed his hands on my cheeks,
ARMAAN : look at me , hey come on, look at me baby !!
With moist eyes I look up in his eyes , he was so much in pains , I can see that in his eyes, I hug him firmly thanking him for bearing me, loving me all the time, always being with me, always believing me though I was wrong most of the time, caring for me, and what not ………………………
BUT I was num at that moment … he was getting tensed more and more…at last I broke my silence
RIDHIMA : kuchh nae baba , etna pyar mat karo mughe , I don't deserve to be loved the way you love me………..
ARMAAN : ohhhh……….tumne to mughe daara he dia tha , come on who said that you don't deserve ?? you deserve that basket , because you gave me more then this , you love me more the this , GOT IT !!!!!
Come on now be a good girl , smile plzzzzz, for me baby plzzzz
And I can just smile and more then that blush sinking in his arms …..
ARMAAN : that's like my girl , come on , lets go every one is waitng for us .
On the way
ARMAAN : do you want to wash your face , freshen up , you are not looking like "MY RIDHIMA"
I can just smile some more and nod
ARMAAN : ok just go to washroom , wash your face , I am waitng for you here
I left to the washroom , thinking , he knew I wanted that !!!![?]I washed my face and said to the mirror "I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE HIM AS MY SOULMATE"
ARMAAN : look at me , aahhhh now you look like my princess, lets party now !
And we proceed, in the same way , armaan's hand on my waist [?]