Originally posted by: asmitamohanty
A big hug
You know.... death is sad... I don't even know your friend, yet I feel sad....I can't even imagine what you must be going through...
You know... though not clinically diagnosed depression or anxiety but I also had few unfortunate events in my past... which gives me nightmares till day..so I can understand when you said some wounds does not heal.....
The mother-child relationship is the most profound relationship of all, a powerful bond that stays with and comforts us.I can't even imagine what my mother is for me....She's the one who taught me to face all my fears. She's the one who made me believe in my decisions.When I am confused, hurt, betrayed, lost or sad, she gives hope to me and shows me some light. Talking with her takes away my worries. She is my guiding light who can always lighten up my darkened world within a few moments. She has a solution to all of my problems. The bond I shared with my mother ...has played a huge part in making me the person I am...
But did Jhanak ever had that??? Her mother had a hard life full of humiliation...and Jhanak must have felt guilty while growing up...then her mother probably unknowingly but dumped her own trauma on her. She was not the wind beneath her wings...she never encouraged her to pursue her passion for dance...she didn't hesitate to beat her grown up daughter with a stick in front of unknown people...I can see this lack of self-esteem in her stemming probably during her childhood only ..In the end her mother left her leaving her with a lot of unanswered questions..I am not judging her in any way...but it must have made her situation worse...
Anirudha is probably the first person who told her how amazing she is...How beautiful her art is...Yet..she is not being able to believe that, that low is her self-esteem....and all the humiliation she has been through in BH has not helped her case either..
So she is also giving up on someone who is in a way the wind beneath her wings...
Now I just want her to let go of this insecurities gradually... realise her potential..now she even has a motivation in the form of fulfilling her sirji ' s dream..only sky should be the limit for her...
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