Originally posted by: Manoshono
Aww Anusha.. tight bear hug for you 
I have severe anxiety issues because I lost my closest friend 15 years ago and I guess I never healed. So these anxiety episodes comes all of a sudden and stays for as long as I want until I take actions through meditation or self healing through religious practices. I can totally understand how these issues whether it’s anxiety or depression can make you feel and give you a total disconnect from the world. Similarly, Jhanak was barely healing from the loss of her mother, when suddenly she had to make another life changing decision. We may make fun at times and criticize but the fact is that Jhanak is the one who is suffering more internally. That’s why her emotions fluctuate. It’s very normal to have range of emotions when you are going through such a turbulent phase. The only person she confide in is Anirudh and that’s why it’s easier for her to let him know and understand how her mother used to treat her or did certain things for her at the time of need. Anirudh has his own family and really he has nothing significant to lose other than J, but keeping aside the fact that they barely know each other. However, J only has Anirudh and she is willing to let him go because she can’t deal with her scattered pain and sufferings. It’s a whole new topic to discuss on and I really don’t know how to put things together right now.
But I totally agree with you on the entire scenario.
A big hug
You know.... death is sad... I don't even know your friend, yet I feel sad....I can't even imagine what you must be going through...
You know... though not clinically diagnosed depression or anxiety but I also had few unfortunate events in my past... which gives me nightmares till day..so I can understand when you said some wounds does not heal.....
The mother-child relationship is the most profound relationship of all, a powerful bond that stays with and comforts us.I can't even imagine what my mother is for me....She's the one who taught me to face all my fears. She's the one who made me believe in my decisions.When I am confused, hurt, betrayed, lost or sad, she gives hope to me and shows me some light. Talking with her takes away my worries. She is my guiding light who can always lighten up my darkened world within a few moments. She has a solution to all of my problems. The bond I shared with my mother ...has played a huge part in making me the person I am...
But did Jhanak ever had that??? Her mother had a hard life full of humiliation...and Jhanak must have felt guilty while growing up...then her mother probably unknowingly but dumped her own trauma on her. She was not the wind beneath her wings...she never encouraged her to pursue her passion for dance...she didn't hesitate to beat her grown up daughter with a stick in front of unknown people...I can see this lack of self-esteem in her stemming probably during her childhood only ..In the end her mother left her leaving her with a lot of unanswered questions..I am not judging her in any way...but it must have made her situation worse...
Anirudha is probably the first person who told her how amazing she is...How beautiful her art is...Yet..she is not being able to believe that, that low is her self-esteem....and all the humiliation she has been through in BH has not helped her case either..
So she is also giving up on someone who is in a way the wind beneath her wings...
Now I just want her to let go of this insecurities gradually... realise her potential..now she even has a motivation in the form of fulfilling her sirji ' s dream..only sky should be the limit for her...
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