Sai doesn't want to be Sai Chavan page 6 - Page 14

I m just glad they managed to make Satya very level headed, empathetic and sane after the blast and he asked exactly what I wanted him to ask Sai. And Sai has I had thought earlier refused to go back.

However, Sai’s inability to recognize that Virat is no hero but abusive and aggressive person who she gave too many chances than he deserves but he never ever changed his ways. It’s frustrating to watch her after every mission to run after him. It was okay to make sure he is safe , it wasn’t ok to say- ‘tum mujhe chod ke nahi ja sakte’ and also in the room for no reason she kept on holding his hand until Satya initiated the conversation about her going back to V. I guess it’s too much at this stage to expect from her not to act up on these emotions in such a volatile manner and recognize that all the things happened with her in CN via V, P and Bhavani are harassment . She says all things that could go wrong between her and V , have happened. So as usual she believes all accusations thrown at her from V and B I guess.

Now that satya gave her time to rethink when she proposed as well as now after marriage for the 2nd time ( even though he has developed feeling towards her, again too soon for my liking ), I expect Sai to honor her own words that she would want to move on and never be back with V.

But don't you think Criminal P is better than Sai so maybe you should be rooting for P and Satya like some people were trying to do before.

You have called Sai a masochist, a doormat already.

Baaki sab character ke har inconsistency maaf, but not Sai's.

Satya "loves" Sai without any head or tail but thats not a big deal, Sai going behind V is the only problem. Does not matter that the circumstance and the fact that doctor is needed to handle any explosion related injuries to these guys.

Satya can have one sided love but not Sai.

Sai has lived many years with these feelings for V, it won't go away quickly but she's got clarity that she won't go back. But thats worth nothing.

Sai is now being compared to V and P.

Originally posted by: Nja91

I wanna focus on the positives because ghum has pathetic writing, direction.

Sai technically has reason to follow them because if these guys in bomb squad, V get injured, SaiYa have to manage their medical conditions

What wasn't necessary was the - tumhe meri kasam, utho. But thankfully she did not say ILU, mere liye utho. I wish she had given only bacchon ki kasam.

The holding of Vs hand also was very unecessary and made me angry. I was disgusted by it.

But in the conversation with Satya , Sai's feelings are explained. Basically she loved V genuinely always, she can never wish ill on him, she wants him to be happy and move on and she believes that love isn't enough in her relationship with V because everything has gone wrong. In one moment V says ILU , Sai believes him but he always destroys it all by CAing Sai, misjudging her, not prioritizing her and disrespecting her. She has been in that vicious cycle too many times. So she no longer knows how to label her feelings for V because its definitely parvaah but maybe not Pyaar. She will never stop caring because for her it was the first time she loved so those feelings were intense. Unlike us audience Sai doesn't recognize Vs actions as abuse because she's been gaslit so much. Thats why she cant get out of it. But she definitely recognizes that they aren't good for each other coz she says sab galat hi hua hai in V and her relationship.

Satya asks her straight up questions today - including - don't you think about going back to him. P is now out too.

Sais response is clear - I don't want to be Sai V C. I want to be Sai Joshi and raise my kids. And I don't wanna go back. Thats the crux that I'm holding onto.

Makers made the episode very unappealing in many bits but Ayeshas acting salvaged it. She didn't make the scenes of her panicking over Vs health when the blast happens or afterwards to be cringe. But even so I dont like watching Sai say meri kasam to V, or holding his hand.

But she's honest with Satya about her dilemma, her confusions and also what she wants and what she is sure of - she does NOT want to be Vs wife. She may not love Satya but she doesn't think love is enough reason to reconcile with V. Thats a start.

Sai loved V. Sattu loved Girija. Sattu has found love again far too quickly though. Sai needs to get to that point too.

In the precap shes making sure there's no disrespect to Satya and i hope that unlike V, Sai will genuinely move on with Sattu. She needs time but she'll get there.

As a adherent sai supporter ,you felt today's episode not that bearable like scene between sai and ex husband,

From the wordings of yours, it's evident sai loves virat, only people in love care the way sai cares virat ..what ever it is there is still love despite all abuses she faced from virat..one of My close friend s lik that....her boyfriend abuses her with words and she s always like am gonna break up etc but ultimately she will go back to him and this happens every now and then. I too felt disappointed why this girl is like this but being a good friend I supported her every time even though this occurs every time.

She has only one reason , she loves him from soul.....abuses doesn't matter at all.

Virat did everything except having s** with his pakhi , if she were fertile they would have consummate too. Despite everything sai always run behind that abuser.

Am not going to saiya now.....its not happening until sai decide to treat virat like other people but for sai ,after kids it's only virat and until it changes saiya full stop ✋️ sathya needs to back out.

She's been conditioned to hold herself also accountable and guilty even though she was only reacting to his deeds, words.

I also hope that she will move forward.

I want her to recognize Vs abuse once she sees how a good man like Satya handles conflicts or issues .

She needs to see the differences.

Originally posted by: CrazieChiraiya

Although I don't trust ITV Makers at all, one thing that ITV doesn't do is make their FLs a two-timer, at least not a typical dramatic show like GHKPM, where the TV target audience doesn't go much into depth, they just take things on face value, & where the pulling factor is the FL.

Sai has been in a toxic relationship with Virat for way too long, it will take some time for her to get over that relationship, & to take the second chance that life has given her through Satya. It's not like she doesn't notice Satya, she does, but her residual feelings for Virat, the constant hurt, and trauma he has given her clutches her tightly. This is exactly why things transpired the way they did today, for Satya to realize that Sai is far away from where he is at this point, & she will need him back by her side, as a friend to reach a common point in terms of their relationship. To really start afresh, Sai has to heal, which seemingly only Satya could do, with his patience (well, only if makers don't ruin him to whitewash Virat). Plus most importantly, Sai might be able to trust the DCP Virat, because she has seen him working, but she is most probably unable to trust him in general. & they didn't let Satya be in any denial or any delusion. He now has clarity after speaking to Sai, & I think Sai was being honest with him about her confusion. She just wants to look after her kids without being Virat's wife. Because being Virat's wife has just given her a great amount of pain, but being a mother to her kids has given her solace, something she really wishes for. But they eventually come with a connection to Virat as their father which she simply cannot snap because of how much her kids love him. She told Satya that she never considered going back to Virat, & in all honesty, she never did. But the question here is, Why? With Paakhi gone & Vinu adopting her as his Aai, & Satya not holding her back, she had the choice to go back, but she chose not to. There is something stopping her from going back to Virat, & it's not about Vinu, Savi, or Satya anymore. There is a part of Sai that doesn't wants to go back to Virat because of how he has hurt, betrayed, and disappointed her in more ways than she could even keep an account of. She knows that their relationship is soo badly demented that even coming back together will not sort things out between them, it is never going to be the same. Also, sometimes we still care about people who have done nothing but bad to us, just because they are related to us and we have loved them deeply in the past. But the wounds run soo deep that in spite of having feelings for them, a major part of us is unwilling to go back to them, is unwilling to put ourselves back into the same position where the other person has the capacity to hurt us all over again. The reason Sai married Satya was what she exactly said today, running away from Virat, hence also running away from his toxicity. & that part of Sai really wants to move on, she actually doesn't want to feel what she feels for Virat, because that part of her realizes Virat's toxicity & lack of respect for her. & her self-respect is an important element in that part of Sai. Satya should try and heal Sai, instead of trying to make her fall in love with him & stay back with him. Once Sai is healed, he should leave the choice to Sai, whether she wants to be with him, go back to Virat, or even just stay single. & there have been multiple signs of Satya being Sai's healer, & her being his protector. Also, for Sai this is a deal marriage, she will take her own time to react to the idea of her & Satya being a couple positively. One thing they sorted out today is that Sai has given up on the hope of Paakhi coming back, so at least the stress of finding her is off her head. Now she could focus on other things that matter.

Also, I do feel they are not going back to SaiRat again, because there is nothing left to show there, they have completely exhausted that angle & it's too late to reunite them back. SaiYa is a fresh angle, fresh story, bought in with new characters, even if they only focus on SaiYa, they at least have 1 year's worth of content right there. Plus Harshad & Ayesha seem to have good chemistry, & seemingly audience has accepted them. Most TRP audience doesn't care about Virat's DDP, they enjoy it, for them Sai's DDP is supreme. Plus they have connected Satya to Chavans in a way that doesn't involve Sai. So there is drama too. Also, Virat has been the only ML for more than 2.5 years, & audiences have seen enough of him, there is nothing new, it's always just his monotonous majboori, zimmedaari, so called pyaar & missions going in circles, & now he is Devdas. & Romance is also a key factor to keep any ITV show running, giving Sai any kind of romance with Virat at this point would be cringe. They have to resort to SaiYa for that (exactly what they have been doing). Even today, if they gave the scene with Sai panicking for Virat, they also gave the scene with Satya-Sai talking about it, with honesty & without any inhibitions. I know they will make Sai pendulum between Satya & Virat for a while, but from a logical POV & as a writer myself, there is nothing left for Sai & Virat as a pairing. What the makers are most probably doing right now by giving Sai & Virat scenes is to keep the old viewers intact & simultaneously develop SaiYa, because SaiRat has been there for way too long & they simply can't finish it off in a span of few episodes, especially when SaiYa has just begun. They have kept the whole angle of Satya being related to Chavans, just to keep Virat & Chavans relevant to the story once Sai starts falling for Satya because then there is no going back to Virat once that happens. Plus the current introduction of the show doesn't mention Satya as being obsessive & insecure but Virat. Obviously, they will try to show that even though Virat is obsessive, he is a so-called good DCP through all the "missions" (Whitewashing toh honi hi hai) & Sai's reaction to it will keep evolving with time.

PS. SORRY FOR MY BIG RANT. HAD A NUMBER OF THOUGHTS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD AT ONCE. I HOPE I WAS ABLE TO ARTICULATE IT PROPERLY. (Professional hazard. Can't stop writing once I get into the flow.)

Originally posted by: Nja91

She's been conditioned to hold herself also accountable and guilty even though she was only reacting to his deeds, words.

I also hope that she will move forward.

I want her to recognize Vs abuse once she sees how a good man like Satya handles conflicts or issues .

She needs to see the differences.

I hope she sees the difference when there exist respect in a relationship. Even for that to happen she perhaps has to see beyond she sees V even as a father. Because she for no good reason thinks that he is a good father. He was not even happy that Vinu at least called her Aai on conditional basis. v has managed to lock her and savi hysterically, he sent sai to jail to separate from savi on false charges… he is definitely not a good parent . Hamare bacche Hamara ghar pe intezaar kar rahe hai also needs to be toned down.
I hope she manages to but given the track record of this show and how they bring in missions to hail V it seems a little too much to expect

Sai loved him, now she's unable to understand why she cares so much but she's clear she does not wanna be with him. Thats most important. If she wants to go back to him she has had enough opportunity and she'd have taken it. Theres a part of her soul that is keeping her from going back to him too.

Just like your friend, Sai struggles to recognize abuse. But unlike your friend she's taken some clear steps to create some boundaries by marrying Satya, by leaving CN. If her inner voice is all about being with V she'd not do that.

It's difficult to break free of the clutches of past. Sai only ever loved V. He was her whole world. She had never known anyone else except him after her aabaa . Thats why she doesn't know what a healthy relationship is like and she kept going back. She latched onto him always until she didn't have him and she has many memories of it.

Now she will have the chance to finally evolve a friendship with another man and hopefully understand that V is all red flags .

Originally posted by: janecastle

The only person I feel bad for is commissioner. Nalayak subordinate, confused doctors, incomplete surgery and a rocket bomb. Guy is caught in between all this nonsense without any reason.

Despite all these he will survive and may handover his commissioner post to virat along with a marriage proposal of his daughter siya

I agree. I hope it will be shown that she recognizes good parenting as a father also seeing Satya. So far she's conditioned to believe that all fathers love their kids and she hangs onto that. But i want her to get over her residual feelings with time by seeing that people like Satya exist and in comparison V is not just inferior but an abusive guy

Originally posted by: Nja91

Sai loved him, now she's unable to understand why she cares so much but she's clear she does not wanna be with him. Thats most important. If she wants to go back to him she has had enough opportunity and she'd have taken it. Theres a part of her soul that is keeping her from going back to him too.

Just like your friend, Sai struggles to recognize abuse. But unlike your friend she's taken some clear steps to create some boundaries by marrying Satya, by leaving CN. If her inner voice is all about being with V she'd not do that.

It's difficult to break free of the clutches of past. Sai only ever loved V. He was her whole world. She had never known anyone else except him after her aabaa . Thats why she doesn't know what a healthy relationship is like and she kept going back. She latched onto him always until she didn't have him and she has many memories of it.

Now she will have the chance to finally evolve a friendship with another man and hopefully understand that V is all red flags .

It's makers wish now

Either she will realise they can't love another man

Or will have to move on genuinely

Am not saying sai should love sathya tomorrow and consummate day after

I have only one wish. Erase her unknown feelings for abuser