@red - I have been thinking about Akshara.
After reading the highlights of today's episode - no, I wasn't brave enough to actually watch it... I wonder at her silence. I mean she has never been good at self-defense of course but is it because it's part of her nature or because of the systematic stripping away of her self-confidence and self-respect? She seems to think / believe that she deserves all that's being dished out to her. That she is indeed bad omen / bad luck / ... and disaster is her shadow. At least that's the impression I got. Could that be part of the reason she left and has stayed away from everyone all these years... letting them believe whatever they wanted? "They have lost enough because of me so I should remove my presence from their lives." She believed it for a long time w.r.t Sirat's death then Abhimanyu tried to bring her out of it only to later smack her face with that along with all the other deaths too. Does she see herself as a killer?? Not the psycopathic killer kind of course... you know what I mean. And today the same thing was said again by Manjari. The day she brought that kalash and Manjari started on her rant too she never said a word in her defense. Her shield came out only when the words extended towards Abhinav. We have been thinking Akshara didn't reveal her past to Abhinav because she didn't / doesn't give him importance. Could it be that she didn't want to? I mean as long as he doesn't know she is the killer, he would continue to respect her and like her - could this be her line of thinking??
Akshara is a very complex character, probably the most this generation. She has few words, her eyes, her movements, her actions convey more about her than her own words. Her emotions are internal in thoughts and external in only small but hidden actions. Everyday life and little things are what she's always been invested in. Big shiny achievements have never been her thing till a very shiny man of tall words and stature came along as the love of her life; promising her that she was perfect the way she was.
According to me she thinks quite a many ways the way you describe her.
Step mother died trying to save her from an accident.
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BIL died trying to save many teens from getting abducted, those teens were connected to her social cause; they came out cause she had cramps.
Both the incidents ended with the main receivers of the accidents mainly...biological daughter prior & Adopted mother Plus widowed wife plus brother cum father figure - blaming her for the accidents.
Accidents mind you - By definition
1) An unfortunate incident that happens unexpectedly and unintentionally, typically resulting in damage or injury.
2) An event that happens by chance or that is without apparent or deliberate cause.
But these accidents resulted in permanent closure for the person on the other side, death. Closure for everyone involved with them.
This was a childhood trauma, it took years and years for her to come out of that trauma and the very man who helped her walk away from the blames smacked her in her face with a fresh blame and the same old blame without any reference the 2nd time it happened.
You love and give endlessly, you are naive and stupid but your love is selfless. Love and family are your biggest pedestals in life. Both pedestals at 2 different stages of your life tell you that you are a nuisance at the exact time of tragedy. You are a bad omen. You are a walking disaster. Other people make worser mistakes but consequences of your mistakes are the worst. And the very people on that pedestal stand watching, not offering a word of defense in Public...are you not worth it? Are they thinking what someone's saying out loud?
Would it not keep troubling your mind?
BUT God gives you a miracle on the other hand, the very miracle you bring to life every single day. This miracle is a contrast of every accusation thrown at you, it's peaceful, it's painful...it haunts you but heals you too. If you are such a bad woman how did this miracle arrive, her Kanhaji has weird ways of answering her questions.
She's somewhere in between...6 years of staying away from the Gorillas dimmed the level of thought she gave them. Now that she's back, every dirty accusation she ran away from is back too. Love and family can be everything yet if they question your existence again and again in ways that prove to be self destructive for yourself you give it a thought yet you don't. You want to forget yet you can't. You want to believe that you are not a nuisance and bam comes another accident where ÿou are accused of being the perpetrator of the very same man who was and still probably is the love of your life.
This one is even more illogical- Road crossing is a vital lesson parents teach their kids and in emotions the guy forgot that basic rule of road crossing. Look right and left before putting your foot forward.
But third time unlucky too?
Being a bad omen probably haunts her mind all the while in her silences till that little miracle walks by to tell her stop thinking of the garbage that's been dumped into her mind with people's reluctance with accepting their grief. And so she regrets and grieves too in silence finding the strength to move on with the miracle that keeps nudging her along.
They just don't say that Life is a Miracle...some people literally live that life like a miracle. Akshu is one of them.
Tagging as many folks as I've had a discussion with today. The forum is on fire, so many old and new people are back. Feel free to chip in, we are every day ranters bored away the past few months😆
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