The effect of “Anesthesia” …………….finally wearing/weaning off!
Definition (anesthesia) - the condition of not feeling pain, esp. by use of special drugs (crocodile tears) 🤣
So, finally V saw the pain Sai has been carrying within her. It wasn’t that he wasn’t aware of it. But he had stretched it way too much for to handle. Time and again he felt that P was weaker and Sai could hold on. Today, he realized the damage he had done over the years!
P was this anesthesia that had made him immune to Sai’s pain. I had spoken about empathy and sympathy before, and how V was incapable of empathy. Sympathy is something you don’t feel. It is a more calculated approach to circumstances. And that is what V has been doing so far.
V loves Sai. She is the one who can invoke empathy in him. Her pain, her loss is what hits HOME! But unfortunately for Sai, her strength and her tendency to hide her pain have worked against her. They have been the major deterrents in V prioritizing her. So much so that she was left alone even when she suffered her miscarriage.
P on the other hand is very expressive with her pain and suffering. She vocalizes and emotionally blackmails people. And V happens to emotionally sensitive. Hence, this complex dynamic makes him cater more easily to P.
The kidnapping of Vinu by P is the classic example. He was concerned about P, and he knew his words will hurt Sai to a great extent. Yet he chose P. A very calculated way of analysing situation. P is in bigger danger, Sai will pass through it. Till Sai holds string in front of him he deals with situation like a business transaction. Profit and Loss.
P’s pain had clouded V’s senses. He had become immune to gauging the damage it was doing to Sai. The effect of P’s state and his “Karz” and “Farz” acted as the catalyst and he held strong beside P. P being the anesthesia injected on V, making him immune to anything and anyone. Not even his own kids.
The nature of V’s love for Sai can be questioned. But he has always loved her. But that love has proved to be toxic for her. I keep saying that he has to see her break down to actually feel her pain. And once he sees it that pain will automatically be felt by him. He will suffer too. The direct narrative says V has gradually revived his love for Sai. The old flames were reignited. And hence the change in his behaviour.
But lets look at the scenarios to see how his reactions varied with Sai’s expressions. Right before Savi was kidnapped Sai-V were at loggerheads. It was not just Savi but Sai’s fear and state made him melt towards her. Cut to Sai’s arrest and when she returns for Savi. She didn’t breakdown. She returned with more power, refusing to bow out or cry. And we saw how V was unrelenting. He still wanted to take away Savi from Sai. But when he saw that wound on Sai’s hand he was concerned. When Sai gave him her piece of mind to V after the café episode, again he didn’t see the broken Sai. So he was again upset with her. There were occasions where we saw the love. From pani puri to picnic. However, he still held on P. Because Sai was not showing her suffering. She kept her strong demeanour. The accident gave him the first jolt. When he saw the Sai still lived the trauma of losing Vinu. The realization that the strong independent woman who fought all her battles alone was broken. But, Sai recovered and P was again the one losing it completely. So his sympathetic calculated approach told him to prioritize P. While it pained him to do it, as he loved Sai, he went ahead with the promises and HM. But the first crack was done. He had a peep into Sai’s suffering. Hence, he wanted to reveal the truth to Sai. All the while, he hid the truth he saw Sai breaking down. But back home there was P who for him was on the verge of death if she loses Vinu. Again his approach gauging what is more risky and who is stronger and will survive. The hug in the café, had the much needed break through. Sai let out her vulnerable side and he felt the pain more strongly. His reaction after returning was a mix of love, happiness and the pain he shared with her. But then again he saw her pull herself together. And he thought she would do it again. She is STRONG! So when P took the gun, he chose her over Sai. P was suicidal, Sai will pull through. But her expression told him that he had hurt her much beyond. And hence his own break down. After Vinu refused to accept her, Sai was dumbstruck. Too hurt to react. And he saw the damage that had been done. P had clearly sabotaged the situation and turned it in her favour, leaving Sai devastated. This is the first time he for Sai so strongly after leap. Fighting his family, not for Vinu, not for Savi..but solely for Sai the mother! The woman he loved and the woman he finally realized was broken and in deep pain. Yet, there was something left. Something that would tell him she too could lose herself too. That she too is capable of breaking to a point that she cannot pull herself up. And that is what he saw now. The Sai he had always known to be so strong that she would some out of every situation and still stand tall, was broken to pieces that she lost sense of her own surroundings. Once before he had seen her like this was when she lost her Aaba and she attempted suicide. And this broke him too. Finally he saw the extent of pain she was hiding within her. And that hurt home for him too. The effect of P’s anesthesia had started to wear off, and the weaning period has started.
And he expresses his love in that weak moment. He was not assuring her. He was in a way confessing to himself loud. Just like her something he had been hiding in his heart unable to reveal. He said it aloud. In that moment of excruciating pain that each was suffering. Sai however, was immune to anything as the pain she suffered due to Vinu’s rejection had numbed her anything else. That pain superceded anything.
Now do I see things changing in Sai’s favour? Nope. The confession is for a guilt he has for confessing his love while married to P. And yet being helpless to stop his heart from loving Sai. I fight between his own ethics and morals. This is debatable. As his ethics and morals no me are too twisted and inconsistent.
BK will do this for V. She will realise how broken V is and his mental state. She will only do this for V. This will have nothing to do with Sai while she decides to bring them back. However, P has slowly started to irk BK as well. And her antics post Sai’s entry will only make BK more inclined towards Sai. However, Sai will not be interested in the battle for V. She will be there only for Vinu and Savi. V seeing Sai back on her foot and now closer to him, will only become more laid back. If he intended to get the situation under control, he will again lose the urgency here. (Though I doubt he has a plan. He is most clueless here). I was surprised when he said that Mahadev should take the call on who deserved Vinu. If that is the case why is he still butting in at every stage?
Vinu would have definitely taken the news in a better way had Sai or a counsellor had broken the news to him. However, P had put that story in Vinu’s mind. And her desperation and emotionally blackmailing that she uses on V that she used on Vinu as well, made him go into the trauma. It is not the news of Sai being the mother that has hit him hard, but the story of “Jadugarni” that P told him and how he has interpreted it. For her Sai is the jadugarni and V is under her spell. It will be a difficult battle for Sai. As she needs to change that interpretation. But for that she needs to have facetime with Vinu. Which P or Ashwini will not allow.
Today I feel Ashwini is worse than BK. BK is what is on the face. No sweet talk. The lady means business. But Ashwini is that cameleon, that camouflages herself and deceives people with her sugary act. It will be a complete rehash from pre leap with teams changed. BK wil be with Sai (maybe more silent in the beginning) and Ashwini will be with P. This is the same woman who wanted to gift a pendent to Sai after abusing her and wishing her death, only because she gave birth to her granddaughter. So selfish! And she claimed that it was initial anger. Then where is the love? And where did the love and loyalty go when she chose P over Sai? This is way she is the most dangerous and evil of the lot. Choosing sides based on convenience and benefit while maintain a saint picture. She will continue the role she had pre leap, but she will be protecting P and CA Sai. V in all this will be a mute spectator if not supporting P. How I wish Sai never forgives this woman! Never call her “Aai” again. She doesn’t deserve to be called one. Because unlike BK who wants to help V after seeing his state, she will let him suffer and lead a life of comprising despite knowing him the most. She can neither be a good mother to Sai and V nor a good grandmother to Savi and Vinu. Suddenly she seems to have forgotten all about Savi. The hypocrisy evident.
It is an ugly list of events lined up, with Sai again fighting lone battles while she is attacked by those she loved like her own.
P will try to brainwash Savi. She knows that Sai is in CN because of Savi. So poisoning Savi’s mind against V will make her want to leave CN. And she will continue to pollute Vinu’s mind. However, Savi will somehow bridge that gap between Sai and Vinu. And before anyone realizes Vinu and Savi would both be by Sai’s side and away from V. But V here will be stuck with P. And she will not leave him. Once Vinu is gone, P will locks him with her teeth and claws. He will be desperate and be yearning for his family, but he would be stuck to P. This looks like the gist of the promo too. The kids have to come to Sai. They will be the only ones to make her win this one. They are the only ones who are truly hers. Anesthesia effect will wear off completely and V will experience the pain he has never felt before as he is left alone while watching his family united and happy, but unable to be with them as one of them! The side effects of the low grade anesthesia!
Edited by Sherry24 - 2 years ago