Originally posted by: Illyrion
Strange how they make a whole article about that snippet. If you are writing an autobiography with any integrity you will have to reveal some things you aren’t too proud of - he does and not just about this.
For what it’s worth his family spoke English at home so it makes sense that he feels most comfortable speaking English. As far as the “down market” comment goes it would be nice to have some context. It sounds like he struggled to fit in when very young and people who struggle that way are frequently hyper aware of what is cool and what is not. He comments on how other kids then weren’t into Hindi films (which may indeed explain why the star kids from that generation don’t speak Hindi as well as they might) but he from a very young age loved Hindi films and especially the music as did his mother. He eventually went on to win school Hindi elocution awards and says his written Hindi skills are strong and he writes dialog directly in Hindi.
Also he is very clear that his mother knew Amitabh Bachchan from college but had no other filmi connections before meeting his father. He says she is Sindhi, was an only child who grew up in Kanpur and Lucknow. Describing their wedding he wrote, “Almost everyone from the film industry attended. For my mother’s side of the family this was a totally different world from what they were used to.” Equally clearly communicates that his father was highly social and knew everyone in the film industry but consistently lost money in film and the family survived from his non-film business. He says he always felt rich but actually grew up middle class.
The first few chapters of his book make it pretty clear until he was in the 8th standard he was deeply insecure, lonely, agonized by what he describes as being “large and effeminant”, a constant disappointment to his mother, and unbearably shy.
“It was a time when I was going through all my own traumas. So when I was displaced to 6C, I was miserable… They used to eat together, whereas I never talked to anybody. So I was doing miserably in class. My mother met the school principal and said that Karan was very unhappy (because I used to get back home and cry). I kept saying I wanted to be in 6A. The 6C kids were a lively lot. They would get together as a group and visit places like the Elephanta Caves. Actually, they were fun. I was the one who was not. I was this South Bombay, elite Malabar Hill snooty kid. Nobody talked to me because I was this snob. The truth is, I had a complex. So to cover that up, my defence was to come across as a snob. I remember the moment when Sara D’Mello came to class and said, ‘Karan Johar is new in this class and nobody is his friend. Who will be his friend?’ Nobody put up their hand for a while and then Apoorva put up his, and I went and sat next to him.”
— Unsuitable Boy by Karan Johar, Poonam Saxena
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