Originally posted by: RitikaS99
On his birthday with neeraj it was not jealousy, it was a temper tantrum thrown by him bcz he thought he is not getting enough attention from priya.
See, he was in quarantine before that and her entire world was revolving around him for that one day, and he liked it.
His family didn't even call to ask how he is but priya didn't let him feel alone or lonely.
She gave him; care, concern, love, understanding. She treated him like a small child being scolded and showered with all the attention he could get when sick, for the first time after his parents, someone made him feel wanted in their life without asking for anything in return.
All she wanted from him in that moment was his health and him being back with her.
And when he got out, they got into a fight and priya was gone the entire day. Everyone knew where she was or what she was doing but kept him in the dark. And he knew that. It irked him. He was expecting to get all of priya's time and attention but what he got was neglect, ignorance and secrets from her in his perspective.
Then he was made to believe that, she choose to spend her time with someone she doesn't like over him. His abandonment issues were triggered and he threw tantrums like a child until he saw that she was not neglecting him but was busy planning this party for him.
And similar to a child, he was ashamed of his actions but didn't know how to ask for an apology bcz he has never really learned to ask for it when he does something wrong.
Ram knows how to ask for an apology for someone else's mistakes, bcz that is what he has done his entire life. Ask sorry for his family's mistakes.
But no one ever questioned his mistakes but make him a victim of the situation to manipulate him. That is what happened on the birthday, he was portrayed to himself as the victim of priya's neglect by vedika, neeraj and nandini. So when he realised what a big eff up he has done, he didn't know how to look her in the eyes and say sorry.
It's not like he didnt feel remorse for it, he just didn't wanted to bring it up again as all his life he has learned to live in guilt for one thing or the another, so he added it to the list and locked it up in his unconscious brain. It is part of his trauma.
He has been forced/made to live a guilt-ridden life by nandini, so what happened on his birthday was not looked by him as something new. For him he effed up again, earlier he would have gotten something materialistic to make up for it but with Priya it doesn't work like that, and before he could gather enough courage to talk to Priya vedika played her game and side tracked the entire bday events bcz she had witnessed that Ram is trying to take efforts for Priya.