so guys, this the last part of REALISATION.........tried to write it diffrently, a different kind of confession......took a long thinking process......enjoy reading
Part 11
As she reached the store,she found lights opened and half shutter down. She went inside but didn’t find him. She got tensed. As raavi didn’t find shiva, she went to the back room of the store but found it completely dark. She was about to enter when suddenly,she heard the sound of shutter closing. She rushed out and found shiva standing there. She rushed to him and bombarded him with questions.
Ra: (worriedly) kaha tha tu shiva?..............raat ke sade 11 baj rahe hai…aur tu ghar nhi aaya………teri health phele se better hai pann puri tarha sahi nhi hai…………tujhe abhi bhi rest ki jaroorat hai………bina kuch khaye piye, bas kaam kaam kaam……..janiti hu tujhe store se bahut pyaar hai par apna dhyaan bhi toh rakhna chaiye na……..tujhe apni chodke har cheez ki chinta hai kabhi apni bhi kar-
Shiva shut her mouth with one hand and held her waist with another one.
Sh: kitna bolti hai tu……..rajdhani se bhi tez chalti hai teri jubaan……..meri bhi toh sun…….pheli baat meri tabiyat sahi hai……..aur dusri baat ki abhi tujhe pata chal jaayega ki main yahan kyun ruka tha……..(removing his hand from her mouth) ab shanti se chal mere saath bina kuch bole……….
He took her to the backroom. It was dark initially but as soon as shiva opened the lights she got amazed. Whole room was decorated with fairy lights and balloons. Raavi was pretty shocked at this. This was so unlike him. She felt that the moment has arrived when she can confront him with her dilemma and her insecurities.
Ra: shiva, mujhe tujhse kuch ba-
Sh: (putting finger on herlips) shhhh…….tujhe jo bolna tha tu uss din bol chuki…….ab bas main bulunga………..
Raavi didn’t protest. Nowshe also somewhere wanted to know that how much shiva knew about his mistake. Shiva made her sit on a chair and he himself knelt him in front of her.
Sh: (holding her hand)raavi…….jaanta hu ki mujhe meri galtiyoon ke liye maaf karna bahut jayada mushkil hai…….meri galtiyaan hai hi nhi maafi laayak…….par phir bhi tujhseapni har galti, apni har batmeezi ke liye(joining his hands and bowing his head down) dil se maafi maangta…………
She could see the pureness in his eyes today. The same pureness she saw when he said was with her in khandar and told her the truth about the kidnapping day. Today, she realized that this pureness was missing when he was asking her to sign divorce paper and was telling her to go. Her eyes welled up after hearing his words
Sh: (looking her with teary eyes) raavi (went close to her) mujhe lagne laga tha raavi ki main tere laayak hi nhi hu……..kahan tujhe ache kapde pehn ne wale gentleman pasand the, kahan main jungali gwaar……….gussa aata tha khud pe ki kyun, kyun man tere laayak nhi hu………pata mujhe shaadi ke phele din se tha ki shaadi jabardasti ki hai par ussdin jab sneha ne kaha ki mujhse shaadi karke teri zindagi barbaad ho gyi, tab vo baat dil me aisi chubhi ki dard sehn nhi hua……aisa nhi ki phele mujhe kisine jungle jaahil nhi kaha, jab sab ko tujhe ye kehte suna ki tere pati jungle jaahil hai toh bardaas nhi hua……uske baad teri diary padli……..aisa laga jaise tu jo chahti thi uska ek percent bhi nhi hu………..bas uss waqt maine tay kar liya ki main tujhe iss majbori ke rishte se aajad kar dunga……tujhe teri khushi ke liye khud se alag kar dunga taaki tu kisi aise ke saath zindagi bita sake jo tere sapno jaisa ho…….aur isiliye maine tujhe khud se durr karna suru kardiya……..bahut koshish ki tu meri baato se hurt ho jaaye aur apne aap mujhe chhod de…..paan tu their chipkali(chuckled)……jaane ka naam hi nhi liya……..humesha kahti rahi ki mere sar pe naachegi……….
Raavi was so shocked at his revelation that she was not able to say anything. Tears just fall down her cheeks. She never saw shiva so broken and defeated. But right now all she could do was listen to him without any question.
Sh: uss din mandir me………..gusse me aakar jaane kya bol diya tujhe maine…..(stammered)tere charac-character pe sawaal utha diya…..pann raavi sach kahta hu, tere liye kabhi mann me vo khayaal nhi aaya…..mujhe kabhi tujh par sakk nhi tha(nodding his head)……….kabhi nhi……uss din main apne aap ko control nhi kar paya aur gusse me jaane kya kya bol diya……(stood up and turned in opposite direction)aisa nhi hai ki mujhe apni galti ka ehsaas nhi tha……mandir se nikal ke dimaag thoda shaant hua toh samjh aaya ki bol diya…….lekin isse mujhe ek raasta bhi dikha……laga ki meri galti sayad tujhe mujhse itna durr le jaye ki tu iss rishte ko bhulakar aage bad paye aasani se…….(raavi also stood up)isliye jab tu ghar chhod kar ja rahi tab tujhe roka nhi…….tujhse maafi nhi maangi kyunki main jaanta tha ki main ek baar sorry bolunga aur tu wapis aa jayegi…par main nhi chahta tha tu phir se compromise kare ya adjust kare…(turning towards her) isliye maine tujhse maafi bhi nhi mangi aur tujhe divorce paper bhi bhej diye…….dil pe pathar rakhkar ye faisla liya tha maine……….bahut mushkil tha……..laga tha ki tu mujhse alag ho jaye gi toh tere liye aage badna aasan ho jaye ga………(held her shoulders) par phir tu vapis aa gyi………lekin dhara Bhabhi ke liya…….tujhe wapis dekh jo ummeed jaagi vo bhi bujh gyi….phir divorce ki taareekh ….maa ka meri dusri shaadi ka faisla lena……..aur phir vo sap-sapna…….
Ra: (confused)sapna?...........kaisa sapna?………
Sh: vo sapna jisme maine tujhe kho diya tha(remembering the night mare) …….uss sapne ne mujhe andar tak janjhoor ke rah diya tha………tujhe khone ka darr bahut phele mann me aa gya tha,par vo darr itna hai ye mujhe ab pata chala(caressed her cheeks)……….isliye jab ghar me aag lag gyi tab mujhe ek baar ko laga ki mere sapna kahin galti se sachna ho jaye ……….aur uss waqt mujhe jo samjh aaya maine kiya…………raavi main har cheez dekh sakta hu, har cheez she sakta hu(knelt down and held her hands) …..par tujhe apni aakhoon ke saamne tadpta hua, marta hua nhi dekh sakta nhi dekh sakta………aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe jab tu ne suicide karne ki koshish ki thi……..aaj bhi vo yaad mujhe andar tak tod deti hai…….
Raavi was dumb fold right now. She didn’t know how to react what to say. He told everything. She was guilty for misunderstanding him, for judging him without the information. She knelt down opposite to him, wiped his tears and held his hand to give him assurance.
Sh: (continues) phele main inn sab ko lagaav, attraction ka naam de raha tha……par jab hospital me disha ne bola tab samjh aayi ki ye koi attraction nhi hai…..tu sirf meri pasand nhi hai…….(went closer)tu mera pyaar hai raavi………hn, karta hu main tujhse pyaar…….bahut bahut pyaar……..
Raavi was overwhelmed. He did everything she wanted him to do. She was happy to know that he accepted hismistake.
Sh: raavi……(composing himself)jaanta hu ki tu bhi mujhse pyaar karti hai pann main ye bhi jaanta ki mujhe meri galtiyoon ke liye maaf karna bahut mushkil hai……..main teri self respect ko chhot pahuchane ke baad maafi mangne ke laayak bhi nhi hu…..main bas tujhe batana chahta tha ki mere mann me kya hai ……..(taking few step back)agr kuch din aur nhi bolta toh sayad andar hi andar mar jata….... main itni galtiyaan karne ke baad ummeed bhi nhi rakhta ki mujhe maafi milegi…..raavi, ho sake toh please mujhe maaf kar dena……...jaanta hu ki main tere pyaar ya fikr ke toh kya, teri maafi ke bhi laayak nhi hu, par fir bhi……..(assuring look)aur agrtu mujhe abhi bhi chhod ke jaana chahti hai toh tu-
Shiva stopped as her lips touched his. Initially he was shocked but then he returned back her kiss. It was soft one. Shiva taken aback by the guts of his chipkali. They broke off once they felt need of oxygen. Raavi cupped his face and made his forehead touch with hers.
Ra: (with soft voice)gadheda hai tu shiva…….tune sab kiya par mujhse baat nhi ki……ek baar ata toh sahi mere paas main tere saare doubts durr kar deti…… jo sneha ne kaha tha, jo maine apni diary me likha tha vo sab shaadi se phele hua……shaadi se phele main uss shiva ko jaanti thi vo sach me bahut bura tha…….mujhe faltu me daanta tha, ladta tha……(cupped his face)lekin jis shiva se main shaadi ke baad mili na usne mujhe samhaala, meri jaane kitni baar jaan bachayi……maanti hu ki teri galtiyaan maafi laayak nhi hai….par inn galtiyoon me mera bhi share hai…..maine hi tujhe kabhi nhi jataya ki tu mere liye kya hai……….kabhi tujhe samjha nhi…….(joining hands infront of him which were immediately held by shiva and he nodded in no)shiva,meri har ki hui galti ke liye I am sorry….please mujhe maaf kar de……….koi bhi saja de de shiva par khud se alg mat kar ………. tere bina saans lena bhi mushkil hogya hai………please shiva…..teri har galti ke liye main tujhe maaf karti hu………bas tu mujhe se duur mat jana………please………(sobbing)
Saying this raavi hugged shiva and sobbed. Shiva caressed her hair, calming her down.
Ra: shiva please mujhe khudse kabhi alg mat karna……..I LOVE YOU SHIVA….I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU…….
Sh: nhi kabhi nhi……I LOVEYOU TOO RAAVI AND SORRY ……har galti ke liye……………
They kept this position for some time and then finally broke their hug. Shiva looked at her eyes intently and then looked at her lips. He lifted to his eyes for her consent. Raavi saw a deep desire in his eyes. She didn’t waste a moment and leaned forward kissing him passionately. He too responded her back with same intensity. She pulled him by his collar and deepened thekiss. Shiva cupped her face and slipped his tongue inside her mouth. Their kissing grew more hot and frantic. They broke to catch their breath and sat in a corner cuddling each other.
They discussed about their different feelings they had in these last months. They laughed at their foolishness. Raavi asked him about his confrontation to the family to which he replied that everyone was told about this beforehand even his mom and they all agreed to this. And that’s why they allowed them to stay here. Raavi was surprised to hear this. Raavi was happy, this was the best night in her life. Finally she got her true LOVE. And so was shiva condition right now.
THE END
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