How long do you wish to live? - Page 2

90 if I’m healthy and active otherwise jesus take the wheel 😆

Originally posted by: Ajeeb-ladki

Short answer: Sooner the better ! Don't want long life, marriage, kids, grandkids and all of those😬!!

I didn't want to reply here because I am going to write too much and too glibberish, tried so hard to resist writing and even posting but I can't control my mind!!

I feel stuck. This feeling of not wanting to live beyond the year I am in, started overpowering me since my grade 10 i.e since last 6 years!

Then, too, I survived ..I did despite doing some silly 'trying to kill myself acts' which were too stupid. They were all safe..

Now, since last 3 years, I am again in that phase..

Though, yeah, I love little things like..I love listening to songs, the moon, the stars, the flowers, hills, mountains, lakes, food!

I appreciate these!

But, actually living the life, surviving in this world feels too suffocating, too much! Each and everything feels so stressing...everything; talking to people, maintaining relationships, understanding mindsets of people..

Most of the time, I barely can wake up from bed..I can stay in my bed whole day without eating anything, and I don't feel a thing..

It's not that I can't do, I did my job so sincerely when I had to do that job for 2 months..I did!

But, again at home, I have become that same person..Ughhh

I am managing my bachelors just fine but stupid me is enrolled in CA too, how am I going to actually pass CA with just half mind in actual studying with this whole 'I don't want to live' mindset ; where even students studying giving their whole soul and mind are failing ...ughhh

If someone tells me to motivate them, I can give whole lecture, I know what is the right thing, what I actually should do now to get my life in right track, but ..

Mad!!

This was so heart breaking to read, Ajeeb... I wish you all the happiness and peace in life 🤗

Originally posted by: Ajeeb-ladki

Short answer: Sooner the better ! Don't want long life, marriage, kids, grandkids and all of those😬!!

I didn't want to reply here because I am going to write too much and too glibberish, tried so hard to resist writing and even posting but I can't control my mind!!

I feel stuck. This feeling of not wanting to live beyond the year I am in, started overpowering me since my grade 10 i.e since last 6 years!

Then, too, I survived ..I did despite doing some silly 'trying to kill myself acts' which were too stupid. They were all safe..

Now, since last 3 years, I am again in that phase..

Though, yeah, I love little things like..I love listening to songs, the moon, the stars, the flowers, hills, mountains, lakes, food!

I appreciate these!

But, actually living the life, surviving in this world feels too suffocating, too much! Each and everything feels so stressing...everything; talking to people, maintaining relationships, understanding mindsets of people..

Most of the time, I barely can wake up from bed..I can stay in my bed whole day without eating anything, and I don't feel a thing..

It's not that I can't do, I did my job so sincerely when I had to do that job for 2 months..I did!

But, again at home, I have become that same person..Ughhh

I am managing my bachelors just fine but stupid me is enrolled in CA too, how am I going to actually pass CA with just half mind in actual studying with this whole 'I don't want to live' mindset ; where even students studying giving their whole soul and mind are failing ...ughhh

If someone tells me to motivate them, I can give whole lecture, I know what is the right thing, what I actually should do now to get my life in right track, but ..

Mad!!

Best wishes so you get out of this phase soon.

My unsolicited advice:

1. Find your hobby - something that makes you happy

2. Try to connect with your best friends / relatives as much as you can

3. Try to go on a vacation where you can just chill

4. If your coursework is stressing you out, talk to your parents or elder relatives with whom you can confide in

Sending lots of good vibes ❤️

I have been leading a life in solitude for last 8 years and the society won't leave any chance to remind that your life is not conventional .

If I know that I would die next minute I would be the happiest person because I don't have anything to worry about ,like leaving my kids alone , husband or lover in pain , nothing . But if life and death is uncertain I want to live it with grace, visiting the most beautiful places ,doing what I love to do , enjoying the actual freedom and shattering the belief that living alone is leading a sad , frustrated life.

Dont want to live long will be ok if I die today itself

Originally posted by: bollyqueen0

This was so heart breaking to read, Ajeeb... I wish you all the happiness and peace in life 🤗

Thank you so much 🤗and wish you the same ❤️

As long as my kids need me as in.....I know that kids need their parents for ever but what I mean is until they are on their own.....also I don't want to outlive the people I love....my husband....my brothers and my kids.....We love our parents so much but no parent should have ever to see their child go before them..😒..so that is why I didn't include parents in that list but they are gone anyways.😭...even if they were here I would have not included them in that list....and lastly....I want to live as long as I am not a burden on anyone...too many things to ask God....but Dear God if you are reading this....this is what I want....

Originally posted by: AdrakKombucha

Best wishes so you get out of this phase soon.

My unsolicited advice:

1. Find your hobby - something that makes you happy

2. Try to connect with your best friends / relatives as much as you can

3. Try to go on a vacation where you can just chill

4. If your coursework is stressing you out, talk to your parents or elder relatives with whom you can confide in

Sending lots of good vibes ❤️

Thanks❤️

Wish you all the best in your life too🤗

Originally posted by: Ajeeb-ladki

Short answer: Sooner the better ! Don't want long life, marriage, kids, grandkids and all of those😬!!

I didn't want to reply here because I am going to write too much and too glibberish, tried so hard to resist writing and even posting but I can't control my mind!!

I feel stuck. This feeling of not wanting to live beyond the year I am in, started overpowering me since my grade 10 i.e since last 6 years!

Then, too, I survived ..I did despite doing some silly 'trying to kill myself acts' which were too stupid. They were all safe..

Now, since last 3 years, I am again in that phase..

Though, yeah, I love little things like..I love listening to songs, the moon, the stars, the flowers, hills, mountains, lakes, food!

I appreciate these!

But, actually living the life, surviving in this world feels too suffocating, too much! Each and everything feels so stressing...everything; talking to people, maintaining relationships, understanding mindsets of people..

Most of the time, I barely can wake up from bed..I can stay in my bed whole day without eating anything, and I don't feel a thing..

It's not that I can't do, I did my job so sincerely when I had to do that job for 2 months..I did!

But, again at home, I have become that same person..Ughhh

I am managing my bachelors just fine but stupid me is enrolled in CA too, how am I going to actually pass CA with just half mind in actual studying with this whole 'I don't want to live' mindset ; where even students studying giving their whole soul and mind are failing ...ughhh

If someone tells me to motivate them, I can give whole lecture, I know what is the right thing, what I actually should do now to get my life in right track, but ..

Mad!!

I think we talked about this a year or two ago, if I’m not mistaken. Sounds like this is an ongoing issue for you. There is nothing wrong with you because depression can happen to anyone. It’s no different than a physical ailment. Were you able to find a therapist? Cognitive behavioral therapy is a good start. Most people don’t even need to take SSRIs if CBT works. I don’t know what resources are available to you where you live but I would certainly start by trying to reach out to a professional.

Stay strong sweetheart...stay strong for your parents...I know I keep harping on this like a broken record ...but do it for your parents....every parent here will agree with this...u will know what I mean when u will hold ur own baby for the first time...❤️

You are precious and you deserve all the happiness..🤗