Part 9
Kuchh bhi samaj me nahi aa raha tha use . ghayal dil dimagh ke samne tike rahne ki poori koshi sh kar raha tha. 😭
Dil kah raha tha ye mera pyar nahi he or dimag "to kaha he tumhara pyar?".wo to ek chhalawa tha jo hakikat he wo tumhare samne he.
or dil ka man na tha ki hakikat se me pyar nahi karta or agar me ishke sath mangani karoonaga to me khush nahi rah paunga, 😭
to dimag tark ke sath taiyar tha ke kaisi khushi kaisa pyar jis ka tumhe nam tak ka pata nahi, jo kaha he wo tum hani pahechante ,tum kise me apni khushi dhundh rahe ho ek mrughjal(mirage) me?? 💔 Or kya hoga unlogo ki khushi ka, jiski nigahe is waqt tumpe lagi hui he, jinke liye tum sab kuchh ho , wo pita jo tumhare gungan gate nahi thakte wo mata jo tumse aas lagaye bethi he or tumhare vansh ki maryada kya sab tum ek dhoke ke liye tyag kar paoge. 🥺
Nahi tik paya yudi ka ghayal dil ,in sab tark ke samne or uske pass or koi naya rasta na tha sivay apne dimag ki sun ne ke 😭
kunki sab nigahe use ascharya se dekh rahi thi or uske pass ab sochne ka samay nahi tha
Jaise chabi diya huva khilana sa ho yudi ne bhari dil se ring bhoomi ko pahena ne ke liye hath badhaya. Hath bhi jaise apne sharir ka hissa na ho sirf apna kam kar raha tha. Koi jan isme na thi . yudi ki halat bina pankh ke pakshi (bird without wings) jaisi thi jo udna chahraha tha lekin kaise??? . ❓
Bhoomi ne bhi unko ring pahenayi. Sab bahoot khush the .
Everybody clapped and greet eachother, bhoomi's parents also greet to rajaji,CR and BR.Yudi and bhoomi took blessing from all elders but yudi was just following instruction like machine .
Saksh jo yudi ki sab khushiyo se vakef tha wo yudi ke chahere ke badalte rang ko dekh raha tha 😕 or use pahechan ne ki koshish kar rahatha. Use lag raha tha koochh bat jaroor he jo yudi kitne dino se ek pankhi ki tarah se chahek raha that wo itna murjaya huva phool kyu lag raha he. jayse ek hava ke jonke ne phool ko dali se alag kar diya ho. Kuch to bat jaroor he aisa saksh ko ahesas ho raha tha. Lekin ye samay nahi tha kuchh bhi soch ne samjne ka .
Rani looking at yudi from out side crying bitterly 😭 😭 . she was very well aware of yudi's situation. Use pata tha yudi ka dil tar tar ho raha he. majboor wo bhi thi takdir ke hatho. Usne koshish ki thi yudi ko is shama se jalne se bachane ki . lekin ushki har koshish nakamyab rahi thi. Aaj yudi ki jo halat thi wo rani se sahen nahi ho rahi thi use lag raha tha wo dodke jake unko tham le .unko bikhar ne se rok le lekin kuchh nahi tha uske hath me 💔 . jaise hath se ret sark jati he usi tarah ye pal uske hath se nikal raha tha.
Yudi who was trying to come on term diverting his mind towards all guest , his happy father, and mother . he was totally on loss of word what shall he do. He was feeling that in the beginning of his new life someone has put the cart before the horse.
Jisko uska dil pahechanta tha , janta tha wo to ek chhalawa nikla. Door door tak nazar karne par bhi wo kahi nahi thi or jo hakikat thi usase wo bil kul anjan tha. Lekin usne khud ko sambhal ne ki puri koshish ki kyunki wo apne khush mata pita ko dekh raha tha or aisa kuchh bhi nahi karna chah raha tha jisse unlogo ki izzat pe dag aye.
Wo bhoomi ki taraf dhyan de raha tha taki wo os chhalave ko bhool paye lekin wo itna aasan nahi tha. 😭
Jis lamhe ko wo ji lena chahta tha or uske liye besbri se uska intezar ker raha that aaj wohi lamahe se uska dum gunt raha tha. 😭 Itne log ke bichme bhi wo apne apko akela mehsoos ho rahatha. Lagta tha ki wo apne kamare me jaye or apne dil ka behal denkhe. Is mahol se use dhrina ho rahi thi . uske dil ki chikh sunane wala koi nahi tha or jisne ye dard diya tha wo bedard ka to koi pata hi natha kaun thi wo ❓ . Jisko wo kaheta tha ke achhi tarah se pahechanta he wo ek paheli ban ke rah gayi thi. Na uske nam ka pata tha, kaha se ayi thi , kuchh bhi nahi malum tha use . ek jana pahechana ,dil ke jo bahut karib tha aaj aise lag raha tha ki sirf khayal tha uska.
Jaise khayal me hi wo ayi uske dil ko bechen kiya or jaise hons aaya shishe ki tarah chur chur ho gaya.
Function was about to finish all guest were leaving wishing yudi and bhoomi for their new life that was about to begin. Bhoomi and her parents also wanted to go back but rajaji who was very happy asked them to stay back for couple of day so bhoomi and yudi can spend time together and know eachother. Though he was against to all this but for his son's happiness he wanted to change. As he knew that yudi was desparet to spend time with bhoomi.
But he was unaware of new development that yudi just want to stay alone and wanted to come on term with his broken heart. Yudi seems very unhappy hearing that he has to spend time with bhoomi but otherway he thought may be that way he will able to forget that paheli and concentrate on fact and fact was that bhoomi is now going to be his life partner.
Saksham who was just observing yudi was getting all confused why cannot I see any happiness on yudi's face hearing that bhoomi is going to spend time with him.Yudi whi was always looking for excuse to meet and talk with bhoomi why he look distant . suddenly what have happen that has changed yudi's mood. He was determind to find out about all .
As soon as yudi reach his room he asked saksh to go as he wants to be alone. Saksh was surprised to hear that how dull yudi was sounding, like without any life.
Saksh: ham aapse kuchh puchhna chahete he kunvarji
Yudi: saksh ham bahut thak gaye he ham aaram karna chahte he
Saksh : hame kyu aisa lag raha he aap hame avoid kar rahe . kuchh chhupa rahe he.
Yudi : ye sab aap ka vahem he . sirf itna he ki ham thak gaye he
saksh: aap jante he aap ham se apne dil ki bat nahi chhupa shakete ham aapko bachpan se jante he. jaroor koi bahut badi bat he or aap kisi se nahi batana chahte . lekin wo dard hame apke chahere pe saf dikhai de raha he.
Yudi: aap khamkha apni uljan badha rahe he. itna mat sochiye koi bat nahi he
Saksh:aap kuchh bhi kahe ham nahi mante
Befor he say anything yudi who was all frustrated and unhappy got bit angry and asked sternly to saksh to leave his room. Saksh was worried and shocked to see his this avtar as he has never seen yudi this much upset. And thought that this time is not right I will talk to him tomorrow. He thought that yudi need some time to collect his emotions as he can very well understand that something was there that was bothering him and that must be very terrific .
So he just left him alone .
Yudi was trying to collect all the memory he had about bhoomi and he was totally at loss as he could not figure out what has happen.
He was happy that his life is going to blossom like spring but autom has dominated his life now. The shadow he was running after was actually a mirage. And he had no clue how to find her. She has become only one puzzle for him that he has to solve. But otherside his mind was not allowing him to do so. As if he will take any further step in direction of his paheli that means he is going away from bhoomi who has just got attached to his life without his willingness. Does he has anyother option than just go with flow and accept the fate he has been gifted. 😭
After lots of argument between his heart and mind he decided not to follow his heart as he has seen what has happen when he let his heart flow like uncontrolled water fall . he has been dropped from very high and cannot even complain to anyone. 😕
So he decided to give chance to bhoomi and try to understand her as it is not her fault and he has no right to punish her . he has promised her to be her life and now at this point he cannot ditch her.
As his parents are also happy with this relation and he cannot destroy their dream as he knows now very well when dream get scattered how hurting it is. And the pain he has been going through he cannot give to anyone.
So with this determination he tried to go to sleep but sleep was also as far from him as his paheli.
only one song i remember for him at this time
"tanhai ...tanhai ...
dil ke rashte me kaisi thokar maine khai
tute khwab sare kaisi mayusi he chhai
har khushi so gayi jindagi kho gayi
tumko jo pyar kiya to mene saja me payi
tanhai tanhai milo he faily hui tanhai😭
khvab me dekha tha ek anchal mene apne hatho me
ab tute sapno ke shishe chubhte he in ankho me
kal koi tha yahi ab koi bhi nahi
banke nagin jaise he sanso me laherai
tanhai tanhai palko pe kitne anshu he lai
kyu aissi umeend ki mene jo aise nakam hui
dur banai thi manjil to rashte me hi sham hui
ab kaha jao me kis ko samjaon me kya mene chaha tha aur kyun kismat me ayi
tanhai tanhai jaise andhero ki ho gaherai