What if Sunny didn’t tell Virat that Sai has feelings for him and that Sai reacted the way she did after Harini’s birthday only because she is affected by his and Pakhi’s friendship? Would Virat have ever realised or even doubted that Sai has feelings for him? Virat couldn’t even believe even when Sunny said that actually.
If Sunny had not told him that, Virat would have behaved as he did today. He would have misunderstood that Sai doesn’t feel anything for him. He will be behaving how he would be behaving in the coming episodes, where he might be seen maintaining some distance from her or giving her her space. He wouldn’t want to impose on her may be.
I am talking about the time from Harini’s birthday till now. Virat would have always felt too insecured. Even when he was in a quest to find Sai’s feelings, he felt insecured when Ajinkya came into picture. That was even when he had doubts that Sai has feelings for him. Isn’t that why, he applied reverse psychology and asked Sai to leave the house after the college festival. This was when he was trying to make her realise why she was staying back in the house, trying to make her realise her feelings for him.
Sai has no one with whom she can share her issues. She used to do with Pulkit but then he also turned out to be related to Virat in some way. Anything that comes from someone related to Virat can look to Sai that they are all saying out of love for Virat. When Ashwini had pointed out to her that Virat doesn’t do it as responsibility during the day she applied Alta or when she had asked Sai if she was just applying it as a duty, Sai got into thinking if she fees anything for Virat. Shivani bua also has made her think when they met Amay at the cafe. She did think about the naag nadi outing. All she needs is someone who could help her in this turmoil. She is alone at the moment and needs guidance.
Virat wouldn’t have been able to think that Sai has feelings for him if Sunny never tried to make him understand this. If Virat cannot think despite the fact that Sai is single, Sai will definitely have problems to believe that Virat feels for her when Virat himself had said that he was committed to someone else, when he kept and keeps calling her his responsibility, when his commitment has been showing her love for Virat openly and also shows that she is waiting for Virat and when Virat has also not condemned her the way he should be whenever she has spoken anything inappropriate. Even in the recent encounter with Pakhi outside their room after the birthday party when Pakhi spoke a lot of things, Virat hardly refused any of her claims.
I am reminded of the day when Sai came to know that Pakhi had not invited her to her parent’s wedding anniversary. She wasn’t happy when Virat said that they will come and she also kept looking at Virat. Just the previous night when Virat and Sai were having a conversation, when Virat had said that he has no commitment, when he wasn’t fulfilling any commitment, Sai asked him if he was doing it so that she doesn’t get hurt. If one looks at it from Sai’s position, one can see how clueless she will be when she sees Virat and Pakhi.
Virat and Pakhi had a conversation at the pool which Sai had witnessed. She saw how Pakhi was accusing that Virat was not keeping his promise. And then she came to know from Pakhi that she was with Virat when Virat was sleeping on the sofa. Sai even then thought that she felt bad for Virat without knowing that he was with Pakhi. It was again a misunderstanding. Then when Pakhi had started to provoke everyone against Sai, when she started to humiliate Sai yet again, all Sai could see was Pakhi’s jealousy that was making her behave this way and it ended up her confronting both Virat and Pakhi. Virat stayed quiet and didn’t even accept that he was committed to Pakhi even when that was the truth making her look like a liar. Virat kept quiet when Pakhi called Sai a nurse and she looked at Virat at that moment feeling too hurt. But even after all that she went with him to the hospital, cared for him and kept waiting for him to call her home. She then came home to collect her bag and was happy that he made her stay back.
When Sai looks at Virat and Pakhi, she becomes clueless. They both were having a normal conversation where Virat told Pakhi that he will be there at her parent’s place. She had come to know they both had a talk near the sofa too. Wouldn’t she be wondering after what she had witnessed near the pool where Pakhi was fighting with Virat as how they both were acting normal? Wouldn’t she be wondering how they both can talk casually, how Pakhi can ask Virat if he would attend her parent’s function and how Virat says that he would attend it. Virat said that he will bring Sai along and such kind of statement confuses her, makes her think that he is fulfilling his duty as a husband, taking her as his responsibility. Didn’t he say the same even during the Ladakh trip?
Leaving aside these, what I am trying to say is that Sai sees that Virat and Pakhi got back to normalcy after the pool confrontation by Pakhi. It can look to one as if they have sorted out their differences.
The day Pakhi brought the saree drama, Sai had again brought it out in front of everyone that Pakhi is targeting her only because she is Virat’s wife and due to jealousy. She was always made to feel as if she had come in between Virat and her.
Virat got her a gift but that also turned into a fight later where Virat not just called her insensitive when all she had done was cover up his mistake of not getting it for Kaku but instead for her. As per her, she was trying to make his Kaku feel happy because she knows how much he values them. But more than that, what bothered her the most was that his thoughts and Pakhi’s thoughts matches so much. And at the same time he had said until she was in that house, she should let him know who she is talking to or meeting. Everything done by Virat gets undone by him when he makes her feel that he also thinks that she isn’t in his house forever.
After the pool confrontation, Pakhi had seriously accused Virat on Sai’s birthday outside their room in the night. When Virat asked Pakhi what she wants, Pakhi not only said that he has distanced himself from her but also said that he has become Sai’s completely and Virat stood quiet.
All that he should have done that day was to tell Pakhi in front of Sai that she is crossing her line, that she is calling him a cheat when they don’t share any relationship, tell her that he is not obliged to her in anyway, tell her that he is married to Sai and she shouldn’t have issues when a husband gets close to his wife or does things for his wife, should tell that she is his brother’s wife and nothing else for him.
One’s silence can be interpreted in anyway and given the history between Pakhi and Virat, when Virat stands quiet or silent many a times like this, it can get easily misunderstood. Just like how Virat misunderstood that Sai can never have feelings for him, it is quite natural that Sai can also misunderstand that Virat has feelings for Pakhi when he stays silent like this or misunderstand that he can never have feelings for her.
Virat stopping Sai from leaving the house after the accident can be looked as his guilt, as him feeling bad that he has failed in fulfilling the promise made to her Dad, failed in fulfilling his responsibility because he was crying saying the same looking at Kamal’s photo while she was packing her clothes. Sai doesn’t like to see Virat like that, she cannot bear to see him think that he has failed fulfilling his responsibility and hence to ease him from his guilt, she forgave him. She never let herself believe that he probably has feelings for her and when she goes with the flow, she is put into a position when she takes many steps behind just like what had happened now. With the story that he had shared, he made her feel as if he was sharing his failed love story. He had also said that there can be relationship which need not be bound by love but can be bound by responsibility giving their relationship as an example. He was trying to hide his feelings to find what she feels by speaking these but he created more misunderstanding when he said that because that only made Sai to continue to believe that she is only his responsibility. Him staying quiet when the yoga instructor kept talking about his chemistry with Pakhi just added more too all her misunderstandings. Sai kept telling that she and Ajinkya were only friends and Virat has hardly seen them together but even then couldn’t believe that they were just friends, he couldn’t take when he found her with him in his room. Sai sees Pakhi around Virat everyday, she sees her showing her love for Virat everyday, showing her liberty on Virat, openly shows how much she is bothered with their marriage and Virat also stays silent many a times be it in front of Pakhi or in front of someone who talks about his past too. Isn’t it natural for Sai too to react?
When many in the audience are getting bugged with the word deal, wouldn’t Sai the character would have got bugged to hear the word zimmedari from Virat? Wouldn’t Sai be disturbed to hear from Pakhi “tum beech mein aa gayi” or hear Pakhi accusing Virat “tum mujhe bhool ho” or “Sai tumhe apne kaabu mein kar liya” from Pakhi almost everyday to which Virat doesn’t even protest or condemn?
Sai has been going through a lot of turmoil about her relationship with Virat. They have had many ups and downs in their relationship and she has always forgiven him because she can’t see him in guilt or she can’t see him that hurt. But when it comes to something related to their relationship, she has always have had confusion and it is very natural for her to not accept or believe that Virat could be having feelings for her when she knows that he once used to love Pakhi so much that he had even promised to her that he would never give a place to anyone else in his heart or life.
Sai needs clarity. All this can only be sorted through proper communication. Virat need not be even confessing his love, instead of telling that this is their journey and all that, he could have told her that she is not just his responsibility anymore. He could have told her that he made a mistake by asking her not to expect anything from her as a husband and that he was wrong to have thought of fulfilling his commitment/keeping his promise after he got married to her. He could have told her that he has understood it after they got married and has always been respecting it, could have told her that the person whom she is talking about is only his brother’s wife for him. Whether Sai has any feelings for him or not, he should have seen how disturbed Sai is because of the kind of marriage they had and could have apologised to have even made such a proposal to her.
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